So the other night my friend calls me at like 1 in the morning crying. I asked her what was wrong and she told me to go watch this movie. A Girl Like Her. I did. In the first few minutes I busted out in tears and then as the movie kept going the tears kept getting worse. THE MOVIE WAS INCREDIBLE! It was about this girl named Jessica Burns and this other girl named Avery Keller. Avery & Jessica used to be best friends and then after a year Avery decided to start bullying her and Jessica had no idea why. Well, Avery was a VERY VICIOUS bully and would constantly tease Jessica at school and send her nasty texts and emails telling her to go kill herself and saying that no one wants her here and all that stuff. And Brian, Jessica's best friend (her only friend), had this brilliant idea to document everything that Avery does to Jessica and went and got Jessica a hidden camera that attaches to her shirt so they can get everything that Avery does to her at school. They had 6 months of videos and Jessica decided to kill herself. She said she couldn't take it anymore and that no matter what she tried to do, Avery always found a way to get to her. And then she goes into some kind of a coma and stays in the hospital. Well, somehow a reporter finds about the whole thing and starts investigating around the school and a lot of people start to point finger at Avery. And when they asked Avery about it she denied it, of course. So the reporter goes to her house to meet her family and it shows her mom, dad, and brother. And they even get a shot of them at the dinner table. And then they decide to give Avery---I cant say anymore. If you have Netflix PLEASE watch this movie. IT IS AMAZING.

And you're probably wondering why I posted this chapter about a movie. Its because...honestly, I haven't cried ever since the first time I heard Stone Cold by Demi Lovato. Which was MONTHS ago. And my friend told me that she was 100% sure that I would cry and I said "hahaha, I'll probably end up laughing at it." I was so wrong. But the reason why it hit me so hard was because it showed me what would've happened if I killed myself last year. And I want any of you that is thinking of suicide to watch this movie and see what it would be like if you killed yourself. You think no one would care or notice? YOU. ARE. WRONG. So many people would care. --------------And another reason it hit me was because Jessica tried to kill herself the same way I was planning to. By overdosing on pain pills or random pills in the cabinet.

So to anyone who is reading this...please don't kill yourself. You may feel like no one cares about you or maybe you're parents blew you off when you tried to tell them that you needed to help, but SOMEONE cares about you. Hell, when I first posted this book on here last year...ChristianStricker was the one who messaged me. A random stranger messaged me and told me that he was there for me if I needed someone to talk to. He cared and he didn't even know me. So SOMEONE cares. PLEASE try and find someone to talk to who will listen and give you advice and help before you try to kill yourself. I am here for anyone that needs me. I know I already said that in a previous chapter but I'm saying it again.

Till next time...

-R