I'm losing another person that I care about. Oh my God. What the fuck?? My life is falling apart around me and I can't do anything about it. Nothing! I always lose the ones that I care about the most. Maybe I need to stop telling anybody anything and just keep to myself and become Quiet R. I'm so tired of losing everyone. It's always been a fight. And I've always lost. My life had always been like that, and I'm tired of it. I'm so tired of fighting. I just want to give up. To just lay down and die. They say there's a light at the end of the tunnel, but what do you do when that light goes out and you can't afford a new one? What do you do when you and the world around you is falling apart? I don't know what to do anymore. I'm tired of getting hurt all the time. I'm tired of my life.