IN BETWEEN
' red queen of blood '

God complex
Season 4 episode 8
Part 1

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I walked into Bellamy's room. Kane told me he came back in the night when the rain was over.

I went asleep and never had the chance to stay and wait up for him. It was a rough night and I was tired. Kane woke me up saying that Bellamy came and that's the first thing where I'm headed right now. I knocked on the door,

"come in." I heard Bellamy say as I opened the door revealing him sitting down on a chair.

"Hey." I said closing the door behind me.

"Hey." He said with a small whispered.

"Are you okay?" I asked him walking up to him.

"I'm fine." Bellamy said to me.

"I know you're not." I said kneeling down.

"Bellamy talk to me, please." I said to him as he looked down.

"I didn't save them." He said to me.

"Hey, you couldn't, you were stuck. You tried everything." I said to Bellamy, he shook his head at me.

"Not everything." He said to me as he looked at me.

"I could've use the winch to get me out, but-," Bellamy said cutting himself off before I gave him a frown.

"But what?" I asked him, I watched him get up and I did the same.

"What?" I asked him.

"Nothing." He said to me.

"No, Bellamy. Tell me what? But what?" I asked him pulling his arm back.

Was he blaming Kane and I? I think he was. I let my arms drop from his arm as he looked at me.

"You mean it's our fault." I said to Bellamy taking a step back from him.

"No." He said to me making me nod.

"Yeah, it's pretty clear that's what you meant." I said to Bellamy.

"No, that's not it." He said to me.

"Well, I'm sorry I didn't want you to get out of the freaking Rover." I said to him.

"I could've saved them." Bellamy said.

"Yeah, I and-I was trying to save you from dying in the rain."

"That's not your choice to make." He snapped at me making me yell back.

"I did it because-I-," I said to trying not to say.

"You what?" Bellamy asked me.

"I did it because I love you! Okay?" I said letting it out. I said it. I said it. And i didn't stop myself.

"What?" He asked me looking into my eyes.

"For so long I've been holding it. Not anymore. When I watched you run out in the black rain." I said tears falling down my cheeks.

"I thought you wouldn't come back. I've been meaning to tell you but there isn't a right time and there still isn't. But I do." I told Bellamy.

"I love you." I said again.

"I didn't want you to die in the rain." I said to him.

"I didn't want to loose you." I told Bellamy as he stared at me not saying anything.

"All this time I did." I said to Bellamy.

"And that's why I didn't want you to go out there." I said to Bellamy.

"I didn't want you to get hurt or not come back." I said to him.

"I'm sorry you think it's our fault they died. And maybe it's true but I was trying to keep you safe from going out there." I whispered to him. He looked surprised and damn I would be too but it's the truth.

"Bellamy." I said to him walking closer.

"I love you. And it hurts me I didn't say it when you left." I said to him, "you don't have to say it but it's true." I said to him, staring into his brown eyes.

"I love you too." He said to me making my eyes soften.

"What?" I said as he smiled at me tucking my hair behind my head smiling.

"I love you." He said to me.

"I slowly began to falling in love with you and the moment you died three times. I knew I didn't want to loose you. Not ever again." He whispered to me his lips close to my lips our foreheads together.

"Do you mean it?" I asked him, his fingertips touched my cheek as he smiled at me.

"I love you, Madison." He said to me making me smile as I kissed him with full passionate.

This was everything to me. The world may be ending but I want to spend every minute with him. He kissed me with love, and I did too.

His hands on my cheeks my hands around his neck pulling him towards me as he walked us back my leg hitting the edge of the bed as he pushed me down, our lips still connected. We didn't pull away for a minute we just kissed each other.

My hand grabbed the edge of his jacket pulling it off of him as he helped me taking it off and tossing it on the floor. He pulled my jacket to throwing it towards where I threw his as he kissed me. I pulled his shirt over and he did the same to mine.

It's happening. I'm doing this with him. And I want to. I took off my shoes dropping them to the floor my hands roaming his body up and down, his lips connecting on my neck as he attacked me with kisses. My hands reached down unbutton him pants, he lift up head looking at me.

"Are you sure?" He asked me making me smile at him.

"Yes." I said to him as he kissed me back giving his tongue entrance making me moan. We were both naked as we were in bed together. I pulled away looking into his brown eyes.

"I love you." I said to him his eyes soften.

"I love you." He said before he leaned in again kissing me as I flipped us over, me hovering him as I reached my back and unclipped my bra falling down my shoulders and tossing it to the floor with the rest of my clothes.

He admired my body making me smile. He kissed me, my lips, my cheek, my neck, everywhere as I did the same. We were both in love with each other. I'd never imagined I would do this with him. And I am. And I'm happy. Our bodies hugged each other as he kissed me. Kissing me down I threw my head back moving a little letting out a small moan.

"Are you sure?" He asked me as I gave him a kiss on the lips. I was super sure.

"Yes." I said to him as he slowly took down his boxers as my breath hitch. I was sure. But I was scared at the same time. It's my first time after what happened with Carol. I noticed Bellamy saw me having second thoughts.

"We don't have to." He said to me.

"We can wait." He said but I smiled with a nod.

"I'm ready." I said to Bellamy as he kissed my lips as our lips moved on sync. I was ready. I trust him. I let out a small wince of pain when I felt him inside of me. It was happening.

"It's okay." He said to me as I closed my eyes, breathing in.

"I got you," Bellamy said to me as I move my self to take the pain away. I felt the pain slowly leave my body and it began to feel like pleasure making me move.

"Start moving." I said as he listened slowly picking up the pace making me moan in pleasure. I always thought that first times would never feel like this but it does. And I like it.

"B-Bellamy." I said as I felt him deep inside of me.

"It's okay. You're doing good." He said making me move my hips.

Bellamy flipped us over and now I was under him as he was still inside of me. I gripped his shoulder tugging my nails into his skin. "Fuck." I whispered grabbing the sheets under me.

Bellamy attacked my neck, my hand on his hair pulling with pleasure, i felt like I was going to explode any moment making me scream. "Ugh." I let out and hearing him groan.

"Bellamy, I'm about-," I said to him as I exploded inside of him and he did after me.

This was amazing. This wasn't lust. It was love. Bellamy fell beside me breathing heavily and I did to.

"That was amazing for someone to be there first time." Bellamy said making me laugh as I placed my head against his chest, his hand against my naked back.

"This was amazing." I said to Bellamy.

"Yeah." He said as I looked up at him before kissing him on the lips.

"I love you." I said as he had a huge smile.

"I love you too." He said as he hover over me and attacked me with kisses.

This was the first time I felt happy.

The world may be ending but right now it didn't feel like it was.

It was just me and Bellamy together.

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"I know it took courage to be outside with us today, to stand together now in the face of grave danger and grave tragedy. On the Ark, rain like this was only a dream. Now it's a nightmare, because we know it could turn at only second and kill us, just like it did to eighteen of our brothers and sisters, who we honor today." Jaha said as all of the eighteen people we lost during the black rain will now be resting in peace.

"Among them, Erin, Samuel, and Louis." Jaha said as everyone was gathered around as he lit up the torch watching their bodies burn.

"May we meet again." Jaha said.

"May we meet again." We all enchanted after him. I turned to look at Bellamy from a far making me walk up to him.

"You okay?" I asked him with my arms crossed as he gave me a nod.

"I'm okay." He said giving me a smile.

"Too many funerals, too little time." Jasper said walking by us as we looked at him as he was headed towards the gates.

"Show some respect for the dead." Bellamy said to Jasper as he turned to look at us.

"What for? They don't mind." Jasper said shrugging his shoulders making me scoff.

"Hey, where are you going?" Bellamy asked Jasper.

"Wherever the day takes me." Jasper said.

"It's too dangerous to go out there Jas." I said to him but he didn't seem to care.

"You got a chem tent?" Bellamy asked.

"Nope." Jasper said kicking the mud and walking.

"Jasper." Bellamy said running after him.

"Jasper." Bellamy said again.

"No one leaves without a Chem tent." Bellamy said to him.

"Do you have a chem tent?" Jasper asked Bellamy.

"Yeah." Bellamy said.

"Good. Then we have a chem tent." Jasper said before Bellamy grabbed Jaspers jacket pulling him back.

"Maybe you didn't see how those people died." Bellamy said trying to scare Jasper but it seems that it didn't.

"I saw. I'm just not afraid of it happening to me." Jasper said. I let out a scoff in disbelief. Jasper really changed. He wasn't the same as he was.

"Jasper it's not safe out there." Bellamy said to him.

"What else is new?" Jasper said opening the gates making me sigh.

"Come on. We're losing daylight." Jasper said walking off making me sigh.

"Jasper. Jasper. Damn it, hey." Bellamy yelled.

"Go and take care of him." I said to Bellamy.

"you sure?" He asked me.

"Yes, he's our friend." I said looking back at Jasper.

"Okay. Radio me if you need me." Bellamy said making me nod.

"I love you." I said to him with a smile.

"I love you too." Bellamy said to me, gave me a kiss before he ran off with Jasper.

"Close the gate." I said to the guards. I walked back to the other standing next to Harper as I watched Niylah.

"Kriken sonraun en branon. Kom graun, oso na groun op. Kom folau, oso na gyon op." Niylah said making Harper walk up to her.

"It's beautiful. What does it mean?" Harper asked her.

"From the earth, we will grow. From the ashes, we will rise." Niylah said making Harper smile.

"What did you just say?" Jaha asked her.

"Sorry. I didn't think you would mind if I-,"

"Niylah, 'from thrashes we will rise.' Where does it come from?" Jaha asked her.

"Come from?" Niylah asked.

"You'd have to ask the Fleimkepa. All I know is what it's what we say to ready our dead for the fire."

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"It's not a coincidence, Marcus." Jaha said to Kane as he placed the metal down on the table.

"I need to speak with the flame keeper." Jaha said to him.

"You already found the second dawn bunker." Kane said to Jaha.

"It was-,"

"the wrong bunker." Jaha said.

"Cadogan said only those who reached level twelve would be saved." Jaha said pointing to the sign.

"This is level eleven. What I found was a decoy. Built to keep the level twelve bunker from being overrun." Jaha said to Kane and I.

"How could you possibly know that?" Kane asked Jaha.

"Because that's what I would do." Jaha said to us.

"And you think Indra's daughter knows where the real bunker is?" I asked Jaha.

"I think there's a reason. 'From the ashes we will rise' became a grounder prayer just like I think there was a reason that a corporate logo became their sacred symbol." Jaha said.

"The infinity sign." Kane said.

"Yes." Jaha said.

"I can reach out to Indra. She might know where Gaia is." Kane said to Jaha making me frown.

"I'll assemble a team." Jaha said as he immediately got up.

"Thelonious, wait." Kane said running after Jaha.

"Polis is a war zone. We won't be welcome there." Kane said shaking his head.

"So we travel at light. For this, we'll need thinkers, not fighters." Jaha said to Kane.

"Oh, I'm definitely going with you too." I said to them.

"I need you to stay her and protect our people." Kane said making me sigh.

"Okay, fine. The minute you guys are in danger I'll go after you." I told Kane as he walked away with Jaha.

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"What the hell is this?" I asked Harper as I see everywhere drinking laughing. Why are they leaving? Why are they drinking?

"We're having fun." Harper said to me as she pulled my arm to dance with her.

"No, Harper." I said to her as she turned to me.

"Don't be such a party pooper." Harper said to me as I roll my eyes.

"Come on, you need a break." Harper stuttered.

"Harper, how many drink have you had?" I asked her as she hum.

"Mhm, maybe three." She stuttered making me laugh.

"That's definitely not three." I said with a laugh.

"I need to check Arkadia. Make sure everyone is okay." I said to her.

"Stop being-being a leader for once." Harper said to us.

"You need to have fun." Harper said.

"I can't-not when I know people might die." I said to her as she pulled my arm to the dance floor.

"We will die in ten days." She said making me swallow looking down.

"Harper, take a break. Go sleep." I said to Harper.

"N-no. N-no. I want to have fun. I want to spend my time with my friends." Harper said to me.

"A-and you. You are one of my friends too." Harper said to me making me smile.

"So, stop being in l-leader mode-mode and come dance with me." Harper said making me laugh.

"Fine." I said to her.

"Let's dance." I told her making her cheer.

"Everyone!" She yelled.

"Guess who's here!" She said before pointing at me.

"Madison!" She yelled making everyone cheer for me.

"Yeah! Madison." They kept saying.

"M-a-d-I-s-o-n!" They chant.

"Woah!" I yelled as I laughed. It was like amazing. This feeling being with I care around me. Having fun. I enjoyed it.

"Let's drink!" Harper yelled grabbing two cups of moonshine.

"T-this-this is for Madison. Saved us once and is doing-," Harper said letting out a hiccup.

"Doing it again. For Madison!" Harper said making everyone yell.

"Yeah." They said. I didn't save everyone. People died.

I tried to stop. But people kept dying in the process. I lift my smile. I watched everyone have fun. Laughing, singing dancing. I just watched even though Harper wanted me to but I pretty much didn't.

"I come bearing fruits!" Jasper said as he tossed a pack of fruits to Niylah as Harper hugged him.

"Guess who joint the fun." Jasper said to me making me roll my eyes went to Bellamy as a girl was talking to him making me walk up.

"I'll be right back." I said to him walking towards Bellamy and the girl.

"Hey." I said to Bellamy as I gave him a long kiss on the lips.

"Hey." Bellamy said making me turn to the girl.

"Need something?" I asked her raising my eyebrows at her.

"No." She said walking away from us as I waved her off.

"So, you're having fun." Bellamy said making me shake my head.

"More like wishing I wasn't here." I said to Bellamy as he smiled at me.

"can we get out of here." I told Bellamy.

"Where do you wanna go?" He asked me as I smiled.

"Mhm, anywhere." I said to Bellamy before I began to kiss him on the lips his hands on my waist pulling me close.

"Let's go." He said as he kissed me grabbing my arm and leading us to his room.

And from there we we're in each other's arms throughout the night.

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A/n: so how did you like this chapter? We got finally got their love confession scene! Aah omg love it! Bellamy and Madison scene. We love them. I hope you enjoy! Check my TikTok for edits @stilesstilinskiibaee.wp Enjoy!!
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