I don't know what to write in this one. It just that... I'm so lost. I'm aware that I need to study, really, extremely hard if I want to achieve my goals. But I can't do it. I keep posponing or simply cancelling the schedule when it comes to studying. I don't know where to start, where to begin. I thought that pain could help me come to my sense, but it didn't work either. I'm drained and lost.