It's an open night tonight. A fact.
You know when the sky is just black
Not even clouds or stars to find
And everything looks wide and you feel small
Insignificant and think what's the point in it all?
And you just feel lost in an existinal crisis
Rethinking everything maybe I should try this
But I'll never change, I'm a creature of habit
I stand in the road a trapped in headlights rabbit
They screech to a stop flipping me off, slurred sentences
I don't even blink, I couldn't think of the consequences
I walk on and on I'm alone again but I feel I'm with many
There's the friends inside my head to keep me company
Guardian angels I don't have any, perhaps I'm just posessed
By an enticing demon who knows all the sins I can't confess
I'm sorry mum, I'm not the daughter you want to see
Maybe I was once but I haven't seen her recently
She died a while ago, seventeen years young
Maybe she saw my future and decided to run
I'd go with her but I lost the map or willpower
I guess I'm lazy I just sit around for hours
Contemplating the universe with no purpose inside it
I continue to get worse as I'm losing my identity, can't find it
Lost count of the sick thoughts inside of me
Just let them manifest and take a rest where they want to be
Never thought they would consume me at all
I thought I was fine didn't think I would fall
I never wanted to be like this I swear I was so sweet
But I'm tired and sour now I don't care, I can't eat
I can't sleep. I lie awake at four am tears drenching the pillow
I scream but they are silent don't want people to hear my sorrow
I'll be better tomorrow I whisper in the dark as I rise from the bed
I'm leaving to walk with my demons, and all I see is red.

~ Demariah