No you will sit up and read because you won't listen, my mission
To make you realise that behind the act I can cry, hey a fun fact
Nobody cares unless you're pretty or dying why keep trying you're lying
About me but you'll see that you abused the one trigger to my sensitivity
It hurts but it gets worse oh it gets worse because just like the first
Time when you stabbed me in the back you continued to attack
'Til I was on the floor kick me while I'm down for sure don't care no more

I can lie to the mirror but not to the thriller in my mind she's such a killer
Nobody wins you just lose the game of battling blues breaking news
Guess who took their life it wasn't me right you thought I'd end the fight
I don't quit that easily bitch I grab a needle and stich the hole a glitch
In my imperfect skin I can't even begin to say how much I hate the thin
Creature staring back at me, the feature of a horror movie I'll beat her
But I smashed and broke the glass a joke I laughed but it backlashed

A scar on my chest you won't see this mess I'm trying my best to hide
Away from the stares that come from nowhere leaning back on a chair
I gaze out the window but can't see a thing though the glass is steamed
Up and I screamed at how I screwed up a piece of paper I'll see you later
Behind my sunglasses I hide from the masses I sigh as time passes
But I have no motivation to fulfil their obligation to keep concentration
On my life goal but it's all just for show I don't know where I wanna go

As long as it's forwards I keep moving towards something like rewards
For hard work I could put in if I tried more but I'm not sure how long for
Because you say that life's short so why make it shorter I guess I oughta
Smile a bit harder fake a bit better tears just get wetter "what upset her"
You ask as if you weren't the reason my mood changed like the season
From summer to autumn just read my post mortem but I'm not dead yet
And I bet you wouldn't shed a tear if I died right here just move on dear

There's plenty more fakers out there maybe I was the earthquaker who
Shook the rules and tried to school herself to fool everyone she's cruel
But only to herself don't burden no one else who cares about her health
When there's the Internet and sending threats to people you never met
So why get so het up about it they won't quit and they can't hit back in
The real life they sit behind the screen causing a scene they don't mean
Don't even entertain the lie they sent you "she died because of you"

Yet they post days later but they all hate her the girl's a traitor a faker
She has issues in the head she's better off dead words creating dread
To wake up in the morning life becomes boring temperature soaring
A sweat breaks out great she's shaking without a reason she's not cold
I was told maybe cold hearted but it was you that started this charade
She's changed personality losing all reality trapped inside a fantasy

That her idol will return I guess she'll just learn the hard way and burn
With all the other souls undercover she misses her brother but won't
Admit that her vow she can't look vulnerable now she's an adult wow
She made it but doesn't feel achievement instead just bereavement
At memories she wants to let go but chases them so she can't say no
To any opportunity to get back to who she used to be because usually
She wants to move on but I guess that's wrong where does she belong

It's not in society I know with every part of me she's an outcast you see
She just sits on the fence puts on the pretense that life makes sense
To her but really it's a blur not even an adventure comes but nature
Gives her release when she's down trees don't judge or mess her around
Doesn't need headphones to hear a song that's on, playing all night long
Could she just run away take a little holiday from her sad little life today
Just pretend not to exist and write a little bucket list a note that'll twist

Your stomach always had a way with words but I guess you never heard
What came out her mouth her emotions went south she never told you
Because she won't trust her love's a rust she's just swept under the rug
And I guess it would bug you to say that she had feelings are you reeling
From this pile of honesty but it's not from me I'm only a messenger
I'm telling ya what you don't wanna hear she disappeared never fear
She might come back but she's broke all over a joke a cry and a croak

Her voice cracked when she told me that she's just an artefact in your
Trophy cabinet of losers you confused her so she just abused herself
I didn't wanna break it to you but needs must she's just piles of dust
Thick on a turntable against her favourite record label she's not able
To tell you this so she wrote with clenched fists a splurge of words
That's what she did best it was her talent but I guess she hadn't been
Told until it's too late with sealed fate she closed eyes and didn't wait

Until the dawn never breaking she shut off all the lies she'd been taking
For so damn long she couldn't even write a song just this mess I guess
She didn't want it ordered or to make sense only her last sentence
The messsage that you take on board at the end of the show she'll know
If you listened because she's listening to the breathing now accelerating
As you realise the size of the crime you committed behind your phone
She's all alone now not even in the ground she was lost and never found

~ Demariah