"Oh my God, this is so pretty and hot! Look at this poster it's so sexy!" Mona was obsessing over Fifth Harmony again, ugh. I bought her the things she wanted and let me say it was fucking a lot. I bought her five Fifth Harmony posters and albums and t-shirts, Ariana Grande's Ari perfume, Victoria Secret bras and panties, earrings, bracelets.

I'm totally broke as fuck. After the runaway she did to the bathroom I had to wait for an hour till she got out with kicking me in the balls, she wouldn't even talk to me, so I had to be the better person to buy her the stuff I promised her and I did. So now she's obsessing over and over again.

"Did you know Kim is in the Lexia class too?" I ask to see her trying the shirts I bought her. "Why should I care?" I shrugged.

"This secret of yours needs to come out sooner or later love," I grinned at her.

"Jay, I'm a pussy and you know" I laughed at her words.

"I thought it's sexy and I know it." She rolled her eyes at me. Mona is a lesbian and can't come out to the world, it's been 4 years, yes 4 years...my mom and hers have been best friends since they've been in high school.

I remember her coming to me saying she looks at girls in a different way, I helped her to get know herself better and she did but she was fucking scared to tell her family, it's not like they'll hate her or anything she's just being a pussy as always. So there you have it my lesbian fucking best friend that I love very much.

"Stop stalking Ashley so much, leave her alone or better yet at least talk to her tomorrow." Mona sighs as I'm looking through my phone.

"Don't you worry my love everything is under control." I say as I get ready for bed, she really tired me out with all the shopping we did today. Mona is staying with us till her family gets back from New York, her parents are lawyers so they kind of travel a lot. I get to bed so does she we say good night to each other, and I close my eyes dreaming about Ashley.

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Next day

I put a litte bit more aftershave and hairspray before joining my family downstairs. As soon as I entered the living room, my mom sniffed the air and looked at me.

"Justin, why are you wearing so much cologne? I can smell it from all the way over here." She rolled her eyes amusingly and shakes her head. "He has a hot girl to see today." Mona smirks as she slapped my ass hard. Wow that really hurt.

"Oh really and who that be?" my Mom amusingly asked. Mona shrugged and ate her breakfast. My Mom looked at me with wide eyes. I glared at Mona. She smirked at me. I took a seat next to her.

"How come I don't know about this, Justin?" Mom pouted playfully, poking my sides I swatted her hands away and laughed a bit.

"It's just an innocent crush, mom." She stared at me intensely before shrugging. She picked up a letter off the table and started reading it.

" Some innocent crush you have, sweetheart" Mona whispered to me and winked. I know it's a big fat lie. Ashley isn't just an innocent crush. She's a lot more than that. Probably an obsession. Actually yes, she's an obsession!

My whole life, revolves around her. Everything I do, revolves around her. I try to impress her, look good for her, at least get her attention or even make her laugh a tiny little bit.

"Alright, eat your breakfast and go to school, I don't want you being late again." She frowned as she walked out the kitchen. When we were done we thanked her, when Mona and I were about to walk out of the house she stopped us.

"I need a word with you two..." Mom said, that was enough to have my stomach all sorts of stuff. I hated it when mom 'needs to have a word' it always ends up bad.

Mona gulped biting her lip looking at me. "Ehhhhh...sure mom." We walked up to her. "What is it Pattie?" Mona shrugged asking. "I got a call from your English teacher..." Shit. I closed my eyes and bit my lip. This isn't good fuck. I mentioned for her to carry on. "...Why didn't you tell me you guys needed help? I would have helped you." She frowned. My eyes went wide. She actually believes that we have 'dyslexia'? I knew my teacher would believe me, but my own mom? Seriously? "And Mona I told your mom about this too, she was very sad about it, you need to call her right away." She tensed saying. Mona looked down at her feet.

"I don't know mom, it just sort of...happened. I'm taking lessons for it, we both are, we'll get better, I promise." I went to her and kissed her cheek and was out to leave the room she pulled me back.

"One more thing..." She said. All of a sudden, she looked really nervous and worried. I raised my eyebrows. " umm...should I leave or?" Mona suddenly spoke up. "No stay." I took her arm. She sighs not moving.

"I got an e-mail from your father." She said and sat on the couch. I smiled at that. Dad sent us all e-mails at least once a month.

"He's still in Iraq, by the way. And won't be returning until Christmas." She said with a frown and I nodded. My Dad, Jeremy, is in the Military. We only see him once a year-if we're lucky-but he's doing a good job and I'm proud of him.

"He told me that he misses you." She said slowly. Why she talking like this? Is there something serious I need to know about?

"You're turning 18 next year...and your dad wants you to join the Military with him. He said he wants to spend time with you, Justin." She said, looking at me to see my reaction. Mona gasped squeezing my arm. I sure am not going but my dad wants me to join the Military? I've never seen a real life gun before! He thinks I'm ready?!

"Really?" I say not believing this.

"Yes, Justin. Dad knows you'll say no. But he wants you to think about it. Think about all the years you haven't seen him." She tucked one of her deep brown hair behind her ear. I blinked.

Mona grabbed my arm, "we don't want to be late for school. Bye Pattie." She said speed walking out of the house and into my car.

"You drive, I'm not in the mood right now." I give her the car keys. I got into the passenger seat and got my iphone 6 out, looking through Instagram, and decided to check on what Ashley has been doing lately. It's been ages since I've stalked her Instagram. Maybe because she doesn't really post that much. Then I stalk her Twitter, Tumblr and all the other accounts she has. Okay, I admit... I stalk her on social media. But don't tell me you've never done that before.

"We're here", Mona spoke up getting me out of my thoughts.

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"He said that?" Mark asked with wide eyes. I had told the boys what my mom said and they're just shocked as I am.

"And are you going to, Justin?" Chris asked me, leaning against a random locker. I shook my head.

"No, I'm not even ready for it. My dad must be crazy." I said, slamming my locker shut after remembering to take a pen to class this time.

"Alright, we'll talk about this later". Josh said once the bell rang.

"Bye, Mona" Chris grinned and waved at her. "Bye, Chris" Mona smiled at him, I believe someone has a crush. Awe! We all separated to our first class. Except Mona we both have Lexia today. Once I saw that curly hair of hers, my palms began to sweat. She threw her head back and laughing at something her friend said. Wow, her laugh is a melody to ears. She said bye to her friend and she walked away. Leaving Ashley to pack her bag in her locker.

"Stop being lame and go up to her." Mona pushed me. I took a deep breath and wiped the sweat off my hands on my black jeans. I cracked my knuckles and did a few stretches. Mona looked at me with a straight face and shook her head.

Finally by force by Mona I went up to Ashley. I made a stupid move, by tapping her shoulder. She jumped a little and quickly turned around, but then calmed down when she saw it was just me. Our eyes locked. This is the first time I've ever been this close to her. I was able to take in all her facial features. Such as, all the brown freckles scattered all over her face. Her eyebrows. Her brown eyes. The little dimple on her forehead that formed when raised her eyebrows.

"Hey Justin and...Mona." She smiled widely at me and her. Her voice was beautiful, and so was her smile.

"H-Hi..." I put my hand over my mouth and coughed. Mona patted my back for good luck."...Ashley."I My voice was a little bit more better than before now.

" What brings you here? To my locker." She asked looking at me.

"I...um....I walked." I said, Mona slapped herself in the face. "Mrs. Clark told him to sit with you at Lexia." Mona said leaning against a random locker. I glared at her. "Lexia? You have dyslexia, Justin?" she didn't sound like she believed it though. I nodded slowly, putting on the most believable face I could make out.

"Oh! That's new...you have it too Mona?" she pointed at her. "Sadly yes." Mona shrugged. "Well let me just get my homework out of my bag and we can go. I can't be bothered walking all the way up stairs, so we can take the elevator." She smiled and pulled out a notebook out of her bag. I sighed in relief, good. She believed me.

We really should be an actor, don't you think?

"Well, don't just stand there, let's go." she chuckled and started walking towards the elevator, I obviously followed her.

"I feel like she hates me." Mona whispered to me.

"Eh..." I grinned.

"oh! Ashley, I think will take the stairs" Mona yelled at her. Ashley stopped her tracks. Looking at us confused.

"N-No! it's fine, let's go." I waved her to go. She faked frowned going. We waited in silence for the elevator to open, as soon it did, she stepped in but I looked at the ground. Mona hits my shoulder to go in. When she did I followed her stepping into the elevator.

I felt myself already having a panic attack. "Um...is everything okay, Justin?" She furrowed her eyebrows and looked at me with concern. No, I'm not telling. I don't want my first conversation with Ashley to be about me being claustrophobic and being scared of lifts. She'd so laugh.

"N-Nothing, it's all good." I gave her a reassuring smile and wiped the sweat off my hands. Mona pressed the button. We stayed in an awkward silence.

"Elevator going up." That irritating voice echoed all through the lift. I turned around, away from Ashley, and held into the bar for support.

"Do you want me to hold your hand?" Mona whispered softly to me.

"No, I'm fine." Lie. I was dying slowly. As soon as the elevator started moving, I closed my eyes shut. I'm such a loser. I felt a small hand on my shoulder, and turned me around. Ashley eyed me up and down with concern.

"Are you sure you're okay, you're sweating?" Ashley slowly said.

"We can get off on the first floor and walk the rest of the way, would you like that?" Mona frowned raising her eyebrows at me. Before I could even protest, Mona had already stopped the elevator on the first floor, and pulling me out.

"It's okay, my Mom is exactly like that." Ashley smiled at me. "T-Thanks girls." I mumbled, fixing my hat on my head, Mona nodded. "You don't need to stutter, Justin. I'm not even scary." Ashley giggled, patting my arm.

No you're not, but you make me really nervous. I wanted to say. But I just nodded and kept my mouth shut before I end up sounding like dying mouse trying to get it's favorite cheese. Let's just hope this ends well and Ashley ends up falling for me I can only hope.

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😊 I'm so sick, got a cold yesterday :3 but hey I hope you enjoy this update 😄😇😄

-Nazanin