(inserts Joshua's voice)

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You pop in when I am alone,
Shaking me right out of my mind
Now is the perfect show time,
So make it yours

- Jeongyeon-

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- Eunbyul's POV -

We spent about 600 dollars.

Jisoos Christ.

It would have been more than 1 million dollars if I haven't said no to pretty much half the shit they gave me. They made me wear so many clothes, I don't even know me anymore.

They even got me makeup and contact lenses. I was actually still wearing makeup and the contacts because they wanted me to. Ugh, what did I ever do to them to deserve this torturous feeling!

"This was awesome~" Hana cheered happily, skipping and waving the heavy ass shopping bags around. Of course she was happy, she got to pick the craziest clothes for me, and she didn't lose a single penny.

I might go bankrupt if we do this again.

It was about 5, we were walking back to Auntie Yae's place.

I was exhausted from all the dragging, the nagging and the complaints of my simple clothing ideas.

"I can't wait to see you wear those high heeled pumps I chose," Hana chirped, "They'd look so badass!"

"Yeah, match them with that leather jacket and silver accessories Jun got you, you'd be like a dude magnet," Minghao giggled, clapping his hands. I gotta say, his giggles are freaking adorable.

Jun's reply got me completely off guard, "She is already a dude magnet."

I looked at him questionably.

He shook his head in disappointment.

Actually, they all did.

"I'm two years younger than you, my IQ isn't as high as yours, but pretty sure my EQ is way better than yours," Hana rubbed her temples, giving an annoyed face.

What the fuck are these three talking about?

"Seriously, you don't know or you do know but you're pretending you're not?" Minghao squinted his eyes.

"Know about what?" I replied. Truthfully, I got no idea what they were talking about.

"She wrote like what? Countless songs about love, and yet here she is being clueless," Jun shook his head and they all continued walking.

I feel offended and confused.

But I kind of understand what they were talking about.

I just didn't want to bring it up by then. I was embarrassed.

For months, I didn't utter a single word to those who have confessed to me. Not that I was shy or anything, it's just that I didn't know what to say to them, I still haven't known my answer, so how could I possibly answer them. And if I did, I'd break their hearts.

They are so very perfect, they were both my best friends and my family. They protect me and love me for who I am, no matter if I'm normal or mute. And it would hurt me more than they'd think it would to ever break their heart.

It's been so complicated for me. I just... ugh, I just wanted to take it slow...

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We arrived at Auntie's mansion sooner than I thought. I guess it was because of my deep thinking process.

We walked through the golden gates. They looked so huge. The reddish yellow of the sunset shined the place, making everything much more romantic.

The place was awfully quite. It wasn't noisy and crowded as usual. I found it unfamiliar, it's odd though, I used to love the silence atmosphere. Now, I can't stand the place I live being so quiet, without the boy's little arguments or their noisy games.

"Shit, I forgot my backpack in the thirteenth store," Hana freaked out.

And yes, we went to over seventeen stores. That's why I was going to explode when I heard Hana's little accident.

"Seriously Hana?" I rubbed my temples, almost cursing in the process.

"Sorry, unnie. You can just head inside first. Jun oppa, Minghao oppa, please come with me, I'm pretty scared of going alone..." She gave an apologetic look and held Minghao's wrist.

There was something suspicious so I asked, "Why do you need both of them to go? Can just one of them go?"

"That would actually be very awkward to walk with just one oppa..." She shyly replied.

Well, she does have a point.

I rolled my eyes and shooed them away irritatingly.

They ran at the speed of light, leaving me with tons of shopping bags. How fucking great...

I sighed, picking up the bags up, one by one.

Where is gentleman Joshua when you need him?!

"Anyone home?" I shouted. I knew I shouldn't be shouting, as I just restored my voice, but I really needed help.

No reply.

I looked through the glass windows, the place was quiet and there were little to no lights inside. Maybe they went eating somewhere? It is New York, you haven't been to New York if you haven't had the food anyways.

I walked through the big wooden doors of my aunt's crazy mansion with countless paper bags in my hands.

The place was creeping me out a lot. Quiet. Dark. Mansion. If that doesn't sound like a horror movie, I don't know what does.

I even heard my heart beating so fast.

For some unknown reason, I felt like calling Jihoon. I remembered Mingyu telling me he stayed home today to do his project.

"J-Jihoon...?" I called out, stuttering in the process. I was actually so scared dang it.

The bags were stacked up till my face, so basically, I couldn't see anything. My heart was racing, I was petrified.

Suddenly, I heard the back door connecting with the pool creaked open.

I panicked, yelled and dropped all the bags. I myself dropped to the ground, covering my ears.

I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE!!!

At one point, tears started streaming down my face.

But I stopped and looked towards the door when I heard a familiar voice that I grew to like.

"Don't be scared, it's just me," the soft, familiar voice said, "You called out to me..."

I had no idea why, but I started crying harder once I saw Jihoon's smiling face.

And from the corner of my eye, I saw him panicking and running towards me.

I stood up unintentionally and hugged him as if it was my last time hugging him.

"Please don't leave me all alone..." I cried out. I HAD NO IDEA WHY I SAID THAT BUT I DID.

We stayed like that for a while.

It wasn't as awkward as I thought it would be. I mean, I was literally sobbing into his shoulder.

It was comfortable. I felt much better, and also embarrassed for being so easily scared.

"I-I'm sorry for being such a crybaby, I didn't know what the fuck happened to me..." I said, unable to make eye contact with him. Part of it's because I was embarrassed, the other reason was that his smile was blinding me.

He chuckled softly, "When you haven't found your voice, I never would have guessed you could curse like that," he smiled, "No wonder the others say you're my lost twin."

Bitch he was giving me a laugh and it was making me blush so hard geez.

"Where are the others?" I suddenly remembered.

"Do you trust me?" He asked out of the blue.

Today has officially been the weirdest day ever.

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a/n: yes i am back from my absence.

please don't blame me, blame it on the educational system hah-

i'll upload an explanation chapter <3 i hope you all would read it and understand my situation