Xavi's POV

"Tara ITC," Addi said while we are walking through the drive way of school. I made a small pout with my lips while looking directly on the ground, holding both the straps of my backpack.

"Ge, tapos naman na ang exams e." I heard Aila said.

"DSPC naman kasunod." Tera said,

"Ikaw Xav? ITC?" My head snap at their direction. I put my lips back to normal and raised both my brows at them.

"Hmm?" I confusedly ask while bitting my lower lip.

I heard Addi flick her tongue, "Tingnan mo 'yang babae na 'yan. Lutang nanaman," she said in a certain tone.

"Lagi ba 'yan si Xavi, nawawala na ata sa tamang pag-iisip." Yen said, a small smiled formed on my lips before chuckling.

"Uy hindi ah, maayos pa naman ang utak ko." Pabiro kong sagot bago hinawi ang ilang hibla ng buhok ko papalayo sa mukha ko.

Addi scoffs, "Asus, tigilan mo kami Xaviana, may problema ka." She said and my eyes widened. My brows furrowed and I shake my head.

"Wala 'no, wala nga kasi sabi. Oks lang ako." I said, Addi rolled her eyes, nakalabas na kami ng gate and already walking on the side walks when I suddenly realized something.

"Uy, baka ma-demerit tayo. Lumabas tayo nang hindi nagsasabi." I said a bit panicking since I never sneak out of the dormitory. Heck kahit nga anong violation takot akong gawin. Except sa magdala ng pagkain sa dorm room.

Aila scoffs, "Xavi naman, grade twelve na tayo. Hindi naman na tayo mga bata para pa tanga-tanga sa daan at mababangga." Aila said and I hear Yen laugh.

"Oo nga, ano ka grade seven? Edi ma-demerit tayo kung mag de-demerit tayo." Yen added, I just pouted and look straight ahead. In just few more meters ay nakarating na kami sa Town Center.

We immediately decided to head to the milktea stall first.

"Okinawa po sa 'kin. 75% sugar, large." I told the vendor in the stall. I pull out my wallet and get the amount of money I need to pay for the milktea.

"Oy, after natin dito? Saan tayo kakain?" Aila ask,

Addi put her hand under her chin and rub thumb on it. "Uh.. sa Wild Wings, game?" Addison ask, her point finger pointing at us.

I nod once, "Game ako," I said, I hear the vendor call for my name and hand me my milktea and next is Aila's and Yen's.

"Dapat pala lagi natin aakitin si Xavi dito, kakain siya finally." Arven said, her arms crossed in front of her chest.

"Oo nga, Xavi kasi, kumain ka naman." Addi whined, stomping her feet on the floor.

I chuckled a little and take a sip of my milktea, "Nakain kaya ako." I said while chewing on the pearl.

I hear Tera scoffs, "Two times a week, breakfast ng Tuesday at Thursday." Tera said before rolling her eyes. And soon her name got called.

"Tuesday and Thursday, oh diba, TT." Addi said, we all almost choke on our drinks. Napahagalpak naman ng tawa si Arven at Addison while us  4 choke on it drinks.

"Parang tanga," Arven said in a little high pitched voice which makes it even more funnier and make us crack even more.

"Tara na nga, hindi na maganda ang lagay ni Arven. Lumalala na tawa niya." Aila said, Arven let out another laugh before we head to the stairs.

Nasa second floor and Wild Wings and gladly, kahit Friday ay may mga available tables pa rin. We put two tables together para mag kasya kaming anim.

"Kami na ni Aila ang o-order." Addison said while standing up from her seat.

"6 pieces chicken wings sa akin." Tera said before giving Addi some cash.

"Ganun din sa akin pero barbecue," Arven said giving Aila her money.

"Chicken legs and thigh sa 'kin, barbecue." Yen said while getting money from her wallet.

"Xav ikaw?" Addi ask pointing at me.

A small pout formed in my lips as I look on the menu.

"Shuta puro kanin." I mumbled as I go through the menu and saw most of them are chickens, of course it's the speciality of this restaurant.

But I want and need something that have no rice.

"Ultimatum," Yen said pointing at the order. I scrunched up my nose as I remember it was a bit too oily.

"Fries?" Tera unsurely said. I bite my lower lip as I scan through the other menu.

Arven peak to the menu I'm holding, "Burgers," Arven said and I slowly nod.

"Yep I'll get.. oh boom, Sisig burger combo." I said as I finally find something I like and not rice.

"Okay, 70 pesos." Aila said and I slowly nod before reaching inside my pocket and pulling out the exact amount.

The two went to the cashier as us four wait at them. Getting busy at our phones. Minding our own businesses. Awhile ago I was planning to work on something here while we are waiting. But I realized that it's not that important and I've been working so much this week.

"Oy, Arven, ang cute niyan." I hear Yen said. My head snap up and look at Arven and Yen who ate both looking at Arven's tablet.

"Ano yan?" Tera ask. Arven smiled and show us her tablet screen.

"Huy, ang cute niya." Tera said, I squint my eyes and look closer to the tablet.

Then I gasp, "Hala gagi oo nga! Naol drawer." I joked and Arven and Yen laughed.

"Mukha kasi akong galon ng tubig." I said before shaking my head and chuckling.

Soon the two came back with our numbers.

"Ano ginagawa niyo?" Aila ask when she sat beside me.

I sigh, "Waley naman, scroll- scroll lang, baka may makalap na chimis." I said and I hear Aila's little 'ahh' before pulling away.

Soon our orders arrive and we dig in. We were chit chatting and talking. Laughing and having fun, despite the fact that we just sneak out the dormitory.

Natatakot din ako na baka may makakita sa amin ay isumbong kami. But then I realized, we are twelve graders. Makita man kami ng iba, they will probably think na nagpaalam kami and we signed to our log books and have our dorm pass to get out.

"Parang tanga yung pinapanood ko na video  nung minsan." Tera said, we all hum and look at her almost synchronized which satisfy my shallow feelings.

"So like.. there's this girl, it's a shot film project from other school. So there's this girl na parang she  easily get attach on people. 'Yun ang sabi sa video eh. But she met this boy  in a camp, then they hanged out and stuff. Then, within three days natapos yung camp. Then she easily get attached to the boy then 'yon, she was sad, kasi hindi na ulit sila nagkita. Tapos may text sa dulo, na parang, lesson or something pero hindi ko na inintindi." She said and we just all nodded.

Narinig kong sumingap si Aila, "Para naman siyang tanga. Three days, nahulog agad siya. Ang rupok niya." She said and we all burst into laughter.

"Aray ha, masakit, tinamaan ako sa last sentence." I joked and I feel a slap on my shoulder that came from Tera.

"Oo nga pala, may kasama tayong marupok dito." She said and I already drop the knife and fork I'm using   I'm using from laughing too much.

I wipe my tears that i didn't even know I'm already crying. "Wag ba, tama na nga 'yang usapang marupok." I said before taking a bit of my burger.

The laugh lie-low and we just stare at each other, chasing our breaths since we were out of control while we were laughing.

Yen clear her throat, "Pero seryoso, ang bobo niya sa part na in three days na fall siya sa lalaki." She said and we can just nod in agreement.

Kahit maski sa akin ay ganoon din ang nangyari. Worse, cause he's kilometers away from me. We are just talking for months now, I don't know him personally, I just saw his picture and heard his voice. I know his birthday and school and place where he lives but other than that, none.

Heck wala na nga akong natatanggap na message from him these past few days. Well, maybe he's really busy. Sino ba naman ako para istorbohin siya? Kahit mukhang tanga, I would always send him a good morning and good nights and ask him if he ate already or if how his day went.

Cause I feel like, if I do that. He will realize my sweet side and.. like me back.

Tho I haven't confessed. I didn't, I don't want to. I'm scared.

Scared of being rejected. Cause I know, I know there are better girls than me in his school. Sexier, prettier, have that feminine attitude and voice, smart, have a good fashion sense and stuff like that I don't have.

Even his ex is so pretty.

So wala akong laban. The battle isn't starting, yet I already feel like I lost.

Tsaka, what's the use of fighting? I mean, battling with those pretty girls. When I know in the end we will just stay as online friends. That we won't be able to see each other in personal.

That we won't really end up together.

"Oy Xavi? Okay ka lang? Lumulutang ka nanaman." My head snap at Aila's direction.

"Naiyak ka?" I heard Addi ask, my eyes widened and immediately wipe the tears on my cheeks. Heck, I didn't even know I'm crying already.

"Hindi ah, humikab lang ako." Pagpapalusot ko.

I pursed my lips as I want to ask that one question in my head. I'm afraid they will laugh or judge me. But they are my friends, right? They might laugh, but what if I turn into a serious face?

Will they get the hint that I'm serious with my question?

I take a deep breath, "What do you think about LDR?" I pursed my lips as those came out of my mouth.

Aila put down the cup of her milktea, "Naku girl, hindi 'yan mag wowork. Huwag mo na subukan." She said while shaking her head and pick up her utensils.

I faked a laugh, "Of course I won't I'm just asking!" I said in a joking tone.

I'm not, I'm afraid to try. But the problem is, I already fell in love with him. Months of talking, and I fall deeper and deeper to him. And now, I'm in pain and at the same time confusion. Cause what the heck am I suppose to do?

People say, well some says, that if you love someone, go fight for it. But what about my situation? I'm afraid of confessing. He's far away from me. And I have nothing against the girls in his school.

I'm just a girl, a fat girl rather, kilometers away from him, but falling deeper to him.

We finished eating and went out the restaurant. We make sure we throw the cups of milktea before we even reach the dorm. The whole walk I was just silent. Gladly no one notices it. Cause if someone ask me if I'm okay, I might start talking about the thing bothering me.

We entered the gates and went to our dormitory building.

"Ginabi na ata kayo ah, may ginagawa pa kayo sa school?" The matron ask. We just chuckled awkwardly before Addi nod.

"Yes nay, busy po e." She said before signing  the attendance and so we do too. We went upstairs and we split up to go to our dorm rooms.

"Hayst.. wala ng tao." Aila said before putting down her bag on her bed. I walk towards my bed and sat down, looking around.

"Lilipat nanaman tayo kila Addi." I said and the three of them nod.

"Oy.. Yen, di ka nga pala umuwi?" Aila ask. Yen faced her direction and nod.

"Ngayon mo lang naman? Haha, kanina pa tayo magkasama sa Wild Wings." Yen replied.

Aila flick her tongue, "Oo nga, I mean, bakit hindi ka umuwi?" Aila ask. Even me is surprised na hindi umuwi si Yen. Malapit lang naman ang hometown niya that's why she would always go home.

Pero ngayon hindi siya umuwi which is new.

"Wala lang, trip ko. Balak ko kasi gumawa ng news dito." She said and my eyes widened when I heard their conversation.

"Ay shet, oo nga. Malapit na nga pala ang DSPC, I need to work on that na." I said before getting some pajamas and going directly to the shower.

While taking a body wash. I heard then entered other cubicles too. Since I started first, I finished first. I fix the things I need to bring to the other room such as my laptop, phone, charger and pillows and blanket.

"Alvarez, baka dala mo nanaman ang buong form B." Our heads snap at nanay's direction who have entered the room. She turned off the lights of the bathroom and gladly no one is there anymore.

"Lilipat na kayo?" She ask,

"Yes nay, wait lang po." Aila said before picking up her things.

I did the same to mine, at dahil maraming akong dala ay halos mahulog na ang mga gamit na dala ko. I even dropped my stuffed toy but gladly Arven got it for me.

"Yow," I greeted when we entered Room A.

"Saan kayo tutulog? I mean saang bed?" Tera ask, I would usually sleep at Addison's bed kapag umuuwi siya at ako hindi. But since she's here, sa bed nalang na malapit kay Tera ako tutulog.

"Here," I said before throwing my stuffs in the bed of a grade seven.

"Sige dito nalang ako," Aila said before putting her stuffs beside Tera's bed.

"Ako dito," Arven said, throwing herself on the bed beside me.

I slightly chuckle before setting up my laptop and other stuff.

"Nanay.. pwede po ba lumipat ako malapit kila Alvarez?" We heard Addi whine from the other side of the room.

"Sige, pwede naman." Nanay replied, naptawa kami nang dali-daling kinuha ni Addi ang mga gamit niya at dinala sa kama katabi ni Arven. Yen is beside Aila kaya magkakasama kami sa isang gilid.

"Ang tigas naman ng kama nito." Reklamo ni Addison which made us all crackle up.

"Wag kana mag reklamo, nakikihiga ka na nga lang." Aila said, I started scrolling on my phone to get some hot news and chuckle as I heard Aila's reply to Addi.

"Ay oo nga, hayaan na natin. Anong ginagawa mo Xavi?" Addi ask.

My head snap at her direction and smiled. "News," I simply replied and she just nod.

They talked for minutes and I just sat there, gathering some hot, new news. Then convert it to another one and type it to my laptop. They were laughing so I can't help but to laugh as well and get distracted.

Around 9:30pm I finished with 3 news that I forwarded to our teachers who will critic our works. I put away my stuffs and put it on the floor and lay down on the bed.

"Xavi, may extra ka na balita?" Aila ask, I look at her direction before pressing the hole button of my phone.

"Meron, send ko sayo sa messenger." I said and she nod. I sent her the screen shot of it like what I said.

"Dumating na?" I lazily ask.

She stared at her phone, "Yup, salamat." She said and I just nod before looking back at my phone when I saw Bright's account.

"Ano kayang pinagkaka-abalahan mo?" I mumbled. I press on my home button and open my Facebook app, scrolling on things.

When I suddenly pass over Bright's shared post. It's a post where they it says, one dot, and he'll tell who he likes the most.

But his caption says different, mahal na daw niya hindi lang gusto.

And ako, feelingera. Over-reacting, thought its me. Cause why not? I mean.. we've been talking for months. And his sweet words and messages. Yung mga pa-alala niya.

Come on, I would really and definitely fall for that. Specially marupok nga ako, remember?

And that's not just it.

I saw other post, such as, he's saying that he already loves her. But who's her? He's single, wala naman siyang nabanggit sa akin noon na may nagugustuhan ulit siya.

I was smiling the whole time, thinking and being delusional that I'm the one he's talking about. Sino pa ba?

When I realized, I'm just no one to him. That could be another girl? He haven't mention any other girl to me, cause why would he? Hindi naman niya kailangan ipa-alam sa akin ang mga bagay na 'yon. Cause I'm just his friend.

But the thought of him, liking other girls is.. such a pain in my heart.

Why?

Seriously, I already love him.

No jokes, jokes aside. For me, he's so.. perfect. Even he would tell me he's such a mess or he's not handsome. Or he fucked up something. For me, he's just.. already my something.

My eyes immediately fly towards the upper part of my phone when I saw a notification pop up. And what made my heart beats fast is that it's from Bright.

I quickly tap at it and read his message.

From boi:
Hey
I'm sorry for being so busy.
Btw yes I already had my dinner.
Hbu?

A smile immediately formed on my lips as finally after days of waiting he finally replied to me.

To boi:
Yup, kumain kami ng friends ko sa  restaurant kanina.
I had a burger and milktea.
You?

From boi:
Chicken adobo, I enjoyed it.
How bout you? Did you enjoy your dinner? You probably did.

Napatawa ako ng bahagay, of course I did! It's sisig we are talking about here. My favorite!

To boi:
Yeah I did, sisig burger is good.

From boi:
Woah, that's really nice.

To boi:
Yeah, btw I have something to ask.

From boi:
Go on..

To boi:
Uhh.. I saw your shared post, and.. I saw that you like? Love someone?

Napakagat ako sa pang-ibaba kong labi nang i-send ko iyon. I'm nervous to open this topic to him. Cause what if it's not me? I'm not gonna ask if he's talking about me, I'll ask him if who is he talking about.

From boi:
Ah yes, me and Ianna got back together.

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