Candies, Coffee And Onions

Mayesha's POV

I secretly made my way into the party that was being held for Jungkook's birthday. I kept his present with the other gifts and looked around the place to look for the birthday boy.

"Noona! You came!" I heard a excited shout from behind me, making me jump. I immediately tuned and clamped his mouth shut with my hand. "Shush bunny boy! Keep your voice down."

I looked around to see if he had attracted a particular person's attention. I sighed in relied when I did not see him and quickly removed my hand from his mouth. "Happy Birthday Kookie-ah. Sorry I can't attend the party, I have somewhere to go...." His smile fell, which instantly produced guilt inside me.

Aish I can't see this doe-eyed bunny boy sad. It kills me!

"Noona is sorry Jungkook but I have to leave now" I said before hugging and quickly making my way out of the party. If I stay there any longer and watch his sad face, I will surely stay.

But I need to get to Palawan right now. I can't stand this place at the moment.

I got in my car and quickly drove away to the airport.

(time skip)

"Pass please" I handed the guard my pass, who tore it into half and gave me back with one half remaining in his hand. I thanked them before going through the doors and towards my plane.

"Mayeshaaa!" I heard Johan shout from the distance, waving his arms violently. I laughed from how funny he looked before waving him back. Once I reached him, the stewardess took my bags while Johan and I hugged.

"Sorry for making you come so suddenly" He waved his hand brushing of my apology. "You are my boss and a very good friend so anything for you but I need an extra pay" I laughed at his words before patting his back harshly.

"You greedy bastard!"

"Hey! I have a family to feed!" He said with an offended tone while putting his hand on his heart, making me laugh loudly.

I can already feel myself getting a bit better.

"Let's get ya to your island!" I climbed up the stairs and into the plane. Within a few minutes, the plane started and before I knew it, we were in air.

(time skip)

"Mayesha!" I immediately looked right to see Aurney making her way towards me. The whole flight was filled with talks with Johan, occasional sad plus happy moments and some games, other than that the plane was completely quiet.

"Hey gurl! Is my car ready? " I asked as soon as we broke the hug. "Yeah its outside, here are the keys and...." She handed me the car keys and looked at expectantly. "Yes, you are free to go. I don't know how long I'll stay so be ready to be back when I call you" I said making her squeal.

"Finally! I found you babe!" I heard a deep voice say from behind Aurney. Aurney stiffened visibly and turned around to see her.....hubby?

"Oh hello" A fairly tall guy with dark skin, blue eyes and blond hair walked towards us, extending one of his hand to shake for me and another wrapped around a now blushing Aurney.

"Hello I'm Mayesha and you?" He gave me a grin before saying "I'm Miguel, nice to meet my girlfriend's boss." I looked at Aurney with amused eyes and she turned away.

"Now I know why are you were so happy huh" I teased Aurney making her slam my arm. "Owee woman!" I hissed and pinched her stomach.

All the while, Miguel laughed at our interaction.

Pretty sure he never saw a employer and employee bickering like old couples.

"Alright I'll be out of your hair then, text me the details" I whispered the last to her, making her face turns completely red. I laughed, quickly running away when she was about to beat the hell out of me.

I got in my car and drove away to my place, with a small smile on my face.

(time skip)

"I missed you too my babies!" I laughed as my little dogs ran upto me and licked my face. I ruffled their fur, hugging them and kissed their black noses.

I missed them, so damn much!

I am a dog lover but also I can never say no to cats, those cuddly animals makes me all soft and mushy.

"There there babies, I'll just take a short nap before we play" I said and stood up to go to my room, they kept on trailing behind me wagging their tails and stood just outside the door.

See? My babies know what privacy is unlike some people.

And I'm pretty sure you know who I am talking about.

I fell on the bed face first with a refreshed face and top and shorts. In a few minutes, I was out.

"That stupid motherfucker!" I heard someone mumble from beside me. It was familiar at the same time it was not.

I peeked an eye open to see myself sitting in front me with legs crossed. "Oh good you're awake" She said making me grumble. "Wh-who-you-" "Shut up idiot and get up" She groaned making me shut up and rise slowly to the same position as hers.

"Why are you disturbing my precious sleep?" I grumbled as I tamed my wild hair.

"We need to talk."

"About?"

"Jin."

"Hell no."

I am now glaring at myself as she glared back at me with equal intensity.

"Yes we are"

"Now we are not"

"Who the hell do-"

"You live in me so the least you can do is shut up!"

If looks could kill I would be dead right now.

"But he-"

"Cheated on me and so I came here and so I stay here until I'm completely fine. The end." I said with a determined voice, making her sigh before slowly nodding.

"Great then, I guess we are done here."

My eyes fluttered open and they met the wall, which instantly got blurred.

I don't even know why the hell I am crying?!

What's wrong with me? I never cried this much after my rehabs, I-

I need Dr. Kim!

(time skip)

I stood in front of the small clinic which I have promised to not visit anymore after my last rehab.

But here we are again.

I sighed and walked into the hospital and made a beeline towards the reception.

"Hello how may I help you?" The nurse asked with a monotone voice. I cleared my throat before asking "May I see Dr. Kim Sunwoo?" "Do you have an appointment?"

That made me sweat but I tried to stay calm.

"No I-uh-" "Then you can't see hi-" "No! Please! Tell him Mayesha is here and if he does not agree to meet then I-I'll leave" I said with a firm voice, even though I stuttered a bit.

She sighed tiredly before picking up the phone. "Hello Dr. Kim, sorry for disturbing your lunch but there is a woman named Maye-" Her eyes widened before she nodded quickly. "Y-Yes yes sir, noted!" She put down the phone before telling me where to find Sunwoo but I already know his room.

Kim Sunwoo/Sunoo is 30 years old and happily married to his college boyfriend Jake Shim/ Shim Jae Yoon. They had the most typical meet up. Both of them were shielding each other from the rain and running from their dorms to their campus but ended up bumping into each other, making both of their books fall and become wet. Sunoo said it was love at first sight and he could not even take away his eyes from Jake from that moment.

And as if they were destined to be with each other, one of their books even got swapped which made them meet up for the second time. From then on they became friends and eventually lovers when Sunoo was being too pushy.

Jake is threes years older than Sunoo so you know who's dom in bed.

But I think its just some made up shit to hide their painful love story.

In every angle, it looks bullshit to me. Love looks bullshit to me.

He is a psychiatrist at this small clinic. He was supposed to die four years ago due to brain cancer but he miraculously survived after the intense operation. He is a such a bright and jolly person so it was easier to talk to him.

When I first came here, I had not talked with him for two months straight. I just came here and sat through my appointment and then left, even though I was the one who appointed him as my doctor. He also did not say anything but only kept telling me about himself. Slowly, he warmed his way into my heart and before I knew it I was spilling my problems to him.

I thought I was a goner forever but Sunoo gave me hope and made me better which that stupid ugly asshole of a doctor could not do.

I'll give you the bricks but you have to build the walls, and they should be unbreakable.

I knocked on his door and went in after I heard him say 'come in'. "Hey doc! Long time no see!" He gave me a bored expression at my greeting and I happily took a seat in front of him without his invitation.

I looked at his table to see his lunch sprawled out on it, each box containing a very delicious looking food. I spotted a gimbap in one of the boxes and before he could stop me, I plucked one up and plopped it into my mouth.

"Yah! J-" "Jake cooked that, I know that's why its so delicious!" I exclaimed before planning to sneak another one, but he already knew what was in my mind and he slapped my hand away and gave a 'I'll kill you' look.

I huffed and leaned back in the char, while holding my abused hand.

My poor hand.

"So why are you here?" He asked after a moment of silence. All of my thoughts disappeared and replaced themselves with a certain someone.

"I-uh-I fell in love Sunoo" I said, making tears build up in my eyes.

I never said it out aloud but now that I have, my chest felt light.

"Oh? Isn't that a good thing? Why are you crying then?" He asked with his doctor voice.

"Because he doesn't love me but he loves his ex. He even promised to love me but then WENT BEHIND MY BACK TO FIND HIS EX! We were dating for six months....SIX MONTHS and this was what he was doing all along. The moment I knew the truth, it felt like I was the only one hoping for something to happen in between us and it even felt like I was forcing myself and this relationship all along. I-I'm heartbroken! I hate him! I hate him! The walls-" I hiccupped as I stopped to catch my breath.

Sunoo leaned up from his chair and looked at me with worried eyes." The walls....they broke?" I nodded my head and he sighed.

"Tell me, tell me everything."

And I spent the last hour telling him everything from the Mahi incident to him taking my virginity and the horrible break up and more.

But not once did he ask who that man was and I am so happy he did so that.

Sunoo rubbed his temples, as he thought about it while I sat there silently crying.

"Sunoo....why am I crying so badly? I never cried this bad after....after" I gulped nervously trying not to remember those horrible memories. "You are hurting Mayesha..."

"No shit Sunoo" I said, wiping my cheeks but it was no use as the tears kept on falling.

He thought about it for a moment, before he opened his drawer and pulled out some things, no not some things....three things.

"Candies, Coffee and Onions? What are these for?" I asked sniffing loudly. He motioned with his hands to take the things one by one.

"Let's build those walla again but these time stronger" He gave me a bright smile, which stopped the tears from falling.

He was always a bit philosophical and I am curious for what he has in store for me today.

I sneaked my hand towards the coffee beans before keeping them in my fist.
Both his hands then covered my fisted hand and he squeezed it a bit.

"There, I made a few bricks with your bitter memories. Now choose the next one..." I looked t him with a confused stare but did what he told me to.

I picked the onions and he did the same motion again. "There, I made bricks from your sad memories and now the candies...." He fisted the candies in his on hands and gave them to me. "I made some bricks from your happy memories too...." He said.

I sighed painfully.

"You and I both know that I have no happy memories" He shook his head disagreeing with me. He lifted my chin and looked me in the eye.

He said some things which changed my life forever.

(time skip)

"Good boy!" I ruffled Husky's fur as the dogs ate away their dinner. I, on the other hand, was waiting for my dinner to show up. I was dressed in a bikini with a glass of champagne in one hand, I felt like relaxing and thinking about the things Sunoo said. I took a seat on the edge of the pool and recalled his words.

FLASHBACK STARTED
He lifted my chin and looked at me in the eye. "Believe it or not Mayesha but you were happy when you were in love and now you will find happiness in simple things. Love gives you the most happiness and so whatever you like to do you will find yourself happy."

He let go of me sat back on his chair. I looked at him intently to explain it further.

"The walls we made before were strong but they only had sad memories, painful memories and so when the guy with whom you fell in love with cam knocking on one particular sad memory of yours, you became curious as to what a person like him wanted from a person like you."

"Even if your friends and family loved you and you loved them but there was these constant fear of losing them, of them not wanting to see you after they find out what type of person you were, how much of an emotionally unstable person you were."

"You feared to be judged and these fear blocked all your happy memories with them so ultimately you never had any happy memories." He explained.

I simply listened to him.

"But when it came to this person, you did not care about being judged, that fear could not overtake you so simply did not care about the consequences of falling in love with this person. This person came knocking on your emotions which were sad about the fact that you will never be loved because that is what your parents cursed upon you when you were young."

"These person came and smashed that brick and extended his hand to take you to his world. He saved you, he broke those sad walls of yours and brought you to a world filled with love, care and hope. You found happiness with his world, within him and within you."

His words made sense at same time sounded nonsense.

"So you are telling me, because of love I am happy? Because of love I appreciate all the little things? I have hope and care? That I love myself who I am?" I asked and he nodded his head.

"Have you watched the Korean drama 'Its Okay To Not Be Okay'?" I shook my head 'no'.

"You should watch it, its awesome like really awesome. I have a really favorite line from there which you will actually find in the first five episodes I think."

"The line is taken from the book 'The Boy Who Fed On Nightmares' and it says 'A person can be truly happy when they have bad memories in their hearts, only then can they overcome it and truly be happy.' Even though its not the same case as you as you you did not let anyone in your heart except the that person."

"Even though you have painful memories but you still got your happiness. Here the line meant that 'due to a person having painful memories he or she becomes emotionally strong and flexible, and so they are able to overcome their painful memories and make happy memories with an open heart.' You did not overcome your pains but instead avoided it by hiding within them so ultimately you could not find happiness."

"But now that you have I can assure that you will find happiness in everything.....even in this breakup."

He smiled at me brightly before saying that the session is over and kicked me out of his clinic.

I reached my home in a dazed state.
FLASHBACK ENDED

"Its okay to not be okay huh? Sounds interesting, I might watch it now" I sipped back the rest of my champagne and covered my body with a silk red robe as I heard the bell ring. I opened the door took my food and immediately slammed the shut in his face.

I do not want him to see my half naked self.

I quickly opened my food and dug in. I moaned at the delicious taste and I know if I had looked at myself in the mirror, my eyes would have been twinkling.

I never felt this happy while eating, and that too fatty food. Humph! Must be because I'm hungry!

You will find happiness in everything.

Sunoo's words suddenly echoed in my head and I thought about it for a moment.

He was right.

I do feel happiness in everything. Just today when I saw my dogs after a long time, my heart burst out of happiness when I finally saw them, then the teasing and talk with Johan and Aurney, and now the food.

I did feel a little bit of happiness honestly and that was even without me realizing it.

I quickly rushed up the stairs and grabbed my phone from my jeans pocket and a stand before rushing downstairs. I looked up a site to watch that drama and immediately I found a secured website. Within a few minutes, my phone was playing the drama and I was eating my food while watching it.

I just hope its worth spending my time on it!

A/N:
While Jungkook is naturally a golden maknae, Mayesha here is not. She forced herself to be one and you will know why when she opens up her past to Jin, if they get back together.

Next chap➡️ Jin's POV

I want you guys to understand my female protoganist and also understand why some things happened.

PS. I'm sorry but ENHYPEN will not be here as idols but as normal people and I might add the I-Landers too.

Stay safe and healthy!

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