... you know, after two years after I recovered from my depression, I sorta gave up hoping for an apology from my ex-friend. I gave up the hope that she'd realize what she did to me and say sorry. But something happened the other day I think it's worth sharing on this story that's literally about my mental health and my story on how I faced my depression.

As you can tell from the title, after two years, I finally got closure.

To give y'all some background information, this is my second toxic friend from a chapter called "Storytime!!" where I talked about my story. We're gonna call her "Gen". Obviously, not her real name.

While I slowly began to stop talking to Gen, my best friend (Niya) was still talking to her. I didn't really mind that Niya was still talking to Gen, and I honestly hoped Gen changed. However, that hope was crushed when I found out Gen didn't change her ways. In fact, it got worse.

I won't go into details on what she did to Niya, because I feel like that would be an invasion of Niya's privacy. But I can say that what Gen was doing to Niya was similar to what she did to me, and I could not simply stand by and watch as that happened to my best friend of six years.

I know how much having a toxic friend fucks you up. I didn't want to see me in her.

I tried to avoid my past with Gen while trying to talk to Niya about Gen. Again, I'll repeat. I had given up on waiting for an apology from Gen and some part of me thought since it happened so long ago, I couldn't really care for the past. Right now, I'm just trying to talk Niya out of this toxic dynamic she had with Gen.

A few months go by, and I realize that Niya and Gen have an off-and-on relationship. I already spoken my advice, so I told Niya the facts and whatever she did with that was her own. Due to the off-and-on relationship she and Gen had, that led to some pretty ugly fights. One of which I had to interfere and contact Gen to calm the waters and put some logic into whatever argument Gen had made up.

I didn't really wanted to contact her after that, but because Gen didn't know what she did to me, she kept on contacting me. But you know, it's hard to be friends with someone who's literally making my best friend feel awful towards herself. So, I left her on read.

Earlier on yesterday, Niya and I were talking. We were on the subject of Gen (because she did something that made Niya uncomfortable) when Niya said that Gen thought I hated her because I didn't respond to her messages.

And I couldn't lie. I couldn't lie and weave some excuse. That wouldn't be fair to Niya, fair to Gen, fair to me. So after two years of hiding my depression, and another two more hiding the fact I took therapy, I told Niya.

I never wanted to tell Niya what went on with me because I was afraid how hurt she would be to find out her best friend didn't bother telling her what really laid beneath the surface. Talking about my past, present, and future problems is still something I struggle with, and I strive to be able to talk about it comfortably with a loved one day.

After finding out my past with Gen, Niya immediately brought it up to Gen. Which lead to this lovely screenshot right here:

The texts are pretty self-explanatory. Practically pissed off that Gen didn't even had the balls to say it, not even to my face, directly to me, caused me to directly text her and tell Gen that if she has something to say to me, say it to my face.

I wasn't really surprised by her reaction. I mean, she practically hasn't changed in four years. So Gen and I play this little game, where I tell her all that she has done to me, all the words I wanted to say to her, and she denies it. Denies it all and asks for when she made me feel the way I did even after I just told her.

However, the conversation comes into a falling action when I brought the screenshots I still had from "Storytime!!"

Gen wanted proof and I gave her proof. After that, she began apologizing, saying how stupid she was back in her younger years and that she was so sorry. I didn't forgive her, but I told her that what she said to me was all that I wanted to hear from her: "I'm sorry."

Gen began promising me that she'll change, and she'll be a better person from now on. And this might sound very optimistic of me, but I believe her. And I do hope that she'll follow through.

And I finally let go. Gen and I aren't on speaking terms, and I'm sure we'll never be. We aren't friends, but we aren't enemies either. I just sort of let go, and all I can say to Gen at the moment is:

Gen, I hope you're a better person now.