(Was written during school)

So today was the first day of my junior year -_-. There's a lot of new students but I've been hanging out with one of the only friends I have left. Lol but i did talk to Jaz.  We used to be bestfriends but last year she started being a complete bitch to everyone so we kinda grew a part. I never talked to J today. But he did keep looking at me during first hour and he sat by me in Chemistry, but we never said anything to eachother.   I wonder if he plans on talking to me this year. I want to be friends but i don't know if I can. After he left without saying anything...I really don't want to risk him leaving again. I wish nothing happened. Like if we never became friends then i wouldn't be writing this right now. Ugh, I don't know anymore . This school year is either going to be AWESOME or completely depressing. Nothing in between...i can already tell.

Right now I'm sitting in PE and the basketball guys (which includes J) are practicing while the rest of us sit here and we cant go outside because its raining. And my only friend at PE is a girl and they separated the boys and girls today. THIS SCHOOL IS STARTING OUT GREAT! -_- (sarcastic)

I miss 8th through 10th grade....everything was so much easier. I learned that the choices you make will most likely affect the future, big as small. If i wouldn't have told J i liked him in 8th grade then maybe we would still be friends. If i would've told her parents sooner about her depression and suicide plan then maybe me and Ash would still be close. Adults tell you all the time that the choices you make affect your future and i always took them serious but i never realized just how much ONE choice can do. One small decision can change EVERYTHING. Its scary. But i guess that's life...

Well that's it for today. Thanks for reading!

Till Next Time...

-R