So you guys/girls all know about J if you've been reading all my stories. And you know that things are really okay between me and him and i kinda want him back in my life but then again...i don't. I talked to my friend Har about it and she told me to NEVER let him back in. She said that we could be friends but nothing more. Like if he tries to tell me something personal, don't let him. Me and J's friendship revolved around situations that we needed each others help in. If he needed advice with his girlfriend then i would give it to him and if i needed someone to listen then he was always there. He was always there up until last year. Last year, something changed and he started pushing me away and didn't tell me why. We stopped talking on the phone, stopped talking in and out of class, he barely even looked my way. Now school started again and i have no choice but to see him EVERY DAY. The teacher put me across from him in first hour and he sits by me in Chemistry. We've barely talked outside of class and when we do its like a 1 minute conversation and we part ways. This is why Har said not to let him back in. She thinks it'll turn back into the way that it was and he'll only use me for the advice that i give him and when he doesn't need me again, he'll walk away...just like last time.So i asked my friend Gracie what she thought i should do and she said that she doesn't know but she doesn't know J like i do. She told me to make a list of Pros and Cons and try that. We did it together and they just equaled each other out and made things worse.

I've done everything that i can for this guy. He literally stopped me from killing myself. He helped me to stop self-harming. He knows everything about me and then some and he used to always be there. And i was there for him to. There was a time whenever i moved and he called me right before we left the old house (we didn't disconnect the house phone yet) and i used moms phone to talk to him for over 4 hours. He was wanting to kill himself and i talked him out of it.

I just don't know what to do...can any of you give me your opinion?

Till Next Time...

-R