July 4th was my birthday! I just turned 17! And I still don't have a vehicle or drivers license or a job! Lol I used to have a job but that didn't work out.

Ok, so I am about to be talking to a specific person. They know who they are. I haven't messaged them back in 5 days...and I did it on purpose. You can get mad all you want, I don't care.  You can post more chapters about me and send me all this crap on message I DONT CARE. But we can't do this anymore. I can't do this anymore. I don't really have an explanation. I'm not on Wattpad ALL THE TIME like I used to be, I have counseling every week, I have to take care of my dog and the other one and the cat, I have to clean the house...chores basically. And I'm about to start running again before school starts. I don't have time to get on here EVERYDAY and post things and send you messages left and right all the time anymore. We can every now and then but not like we used to. You were gone for a month and a lot has changed already.

Just like I told you, my life changes pretty quick and this is what I was talking about. You'll probably say "But those are things that you can do later you can still talk to me and have time to do all that." or "Those are things that you don't HAVE TO DO" but that's not the case. I'm 17 now. Its time for me to quit laying around being lazy and focus on my life and find out what I want to do if I can't become a singer. Because right now I HAVE NO IDEA. Which isn't good because I'm a Junior now. I will miss you. Hell the first few days you weren't here I would go to check my messages and realize you were on vacation. I did that for about a week and then y schedule changed. I'll still be here for you. I'm not walking away. But no more phone calls or fighting. I messaged you to help you with your depression...but I guess you caught feeling for me. And I know that feeling. In fact I know exactly what you'll do when you read this (well there are 2 things you might do)

1) Post a chapter saying that I said I would always be there and now I'm walking away and all that (even though I said I wasn't...you do that often)

2) Be sad about it,

You'll most likely do #1 because that's what I did when I lost the one I loved so much. That's what I still do. I'm not saying you're in love with me, but you act like it. And when I tell you I'm busy don't ask what I was doing. I was busy and I didn't have time to sit down and talk. Sorry but you're not my girlfriend.

Maybe if our stories were different and I lived in your state and we were in the same grade we would be a thing. But you live so far away and I can't have a long distance relationship with someone who wants to know my every move. And don't go and say you'll try and stop because 1 you said that last time and 2 its not gonna work.

(For all of you that is reading this right now...you're probably thinking I'm an asshole but I promise you I'm not. I have tried to have this conversation with her before and she wouldn't listen so this is it. I'm getting it all out there)

So I hope you can understand and we can stay like we were before I called you. Like I said, I am here for you still. If you need me then just message me and when I get on and see it then I will talk to you about whatever it is.

Till Next Time...

-R