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There I was, sitting at my beloved husband's funeral. A surplus of emotions were churning in my stomach. We had known each other for about 5 years and gotten married about a year after, we had met when I was at subway station, struggling and in debt as I formally was a gambler and alcoholic with a smoking addiction, attempting to gain money to get more insight on my older brother's disappearance, he asked me to play a game of Ddakji.

Although our relationship was extremely toxic and not an ideal relationship at all, him refusing to meet my younger brother whatsoever as he referred to the middle-class and lower-class as "non-human", which influenced my views, I still loved him.

I watched them commemorate the funeral service, to which several memories rushed through my head.

5 years ago:
I had time to kill before my subway arrived so I explored the train station out of curiosity, I then got stopped by a mysterious, good looking, tall man in a suit whom hovered over me.

"Excuse me Miss, would you like to play a game?" He asked me and smiled widely, although I could easily tell his smile was fake.

Such an attractive and tempting man had asked me, how could I say no to such a request? Of course I accepted.

"Sure, what game?"

"Ddakji, I presume you know how to play, the winner of each round receives 100,000 won, deal?"

"Deal." I smirk, excited to be gaining some money, knowing damn well I have absolutely no money to give if I lose.

"Which one are you going to pick?" He holds out a red and blue ddakji.

Red represents blood and murder, blue represents sadness and weakness, so I immediately take red.

He then places his blue ddakji tile onto the dirty floor, I then accept the red ddakji he gives me and aggressively attempt to flip it over to which I fail.

"Do you have any money on you?" He asks, gesturing his hand out.

"I have no money." I bluntly reply.

"You can always use your body." He smirks.

Is he a full-on sadist? What the hell? Fucking dick.

I attempt to slap him across the face, but he quickly defends my move.

"Let's keep playing and we'll see."

I decided to keep playing, to lose 3 times and to win 2 times.

"Looks like my odds out rule yours."

"Fuck you."

"You will."

I attempt to walk away, but his hand grabs my wrist tightly, not letting me walk off.

"Anyway, I have this business card with my number on it, I'm giving you a chance to participate in a game called Squid Game."

"You think I wanna play a pathetic game?"

"Not as a player, as the person who eliminates players. Call the number to secure a spot, as they fill quickly."

"This seems stupid."

"Aren't you currently about 200,000,000 won in debt trying to search for your brother with a crippling smoking and alcoholism addiction? I suggest you take up on my offer, it pays well."

"I suggest you shut the fuck up."

"Feisty, huh?" He steps towards me, licking his lips, our mouths are merely inches away, then suddenly, he whispers, "I shouldn't be doing this, but you're extremely hot."

He then pulls me in for a passionate and short kiss to which I don't hesitate to kiss him back, although the kiss is short-lived, it was extremely intense.

The following morning, I woke up next to him in my bed, peacefully fast asleep, with his briefcase neatly arranged on my nightstand. I see all of the money lying inside, but I knew what he was capable of, considering what had happened the night before, I had decided not to take the money. I don't need what happened then to happen again, that was humiliating, the first time in my life I actually felt mortified and like my non-existent innocence had been stolen from me, but something about him unfortunately drew me towards him more.

Then after that, I ended up calling the number he gave me, out of curiosity, and I ended up becoming a guard in Squid Game, I derived pleasure from mercilessly killing people, their screams of terror and pleading giving me joy, but it was a shock to me when I found out my older brother, In-Ho, was the front-man. He made me swear not to tell our younger brother, Jun-Ho about this ever or else he would kill me without hesitation.

I then ended up dating the man, to which his name turned out to be Hyun Dae. He recruited people for the annual Squid Game for a living, even though it was an annual occurrence, he made enough money for the year with his job as it paid well.

4 years ago:
Me and Hyun Dae got secretly eloped, not revealing to anyone that we were married. We swore off kids and refused to have them, in such an ill world, what was the point?

Our relationship was what would be considered unhealthy, but for me, it was just the way I liked it. We had constant arguments and physical fights each day but it would then end in us making up temporarily and it was the same thing over and over again. We both found pleasure in seeing the other's pain.

3 years ago:
Jun-Ho then told me he wanted to find out more about our missing brother, In-Ho, I advised him against it, knowing that he could potentially die if he attempts to play in Squid Game, but I then realised he was a guard when I overheard him asking Gi-Hun a question about In-Ho, I was relieved, he wasn't playing this game like a peasant and risking his life.

He then revealed to me In-Ho was the frontman, to which I pretended to act surprised to and that he shot him. I didn't have to fake my reaction to that, I was in shock but understanding that he was just doing his job, but he said he was miraculously saved by a fisherman, looks like In-Ho has some sympathy for his little brother after all.

a few days ago:
Jun-Ho told me a recruiter from Squid Game committed suicide after playing Russian Roulette with Gi-Hun and lost, I immediately knew who he was referring to, my husband. This was all Gi-Hun's fault, that miserable winner couldn't let go of Squid Game and dragged my husband into it? When I found out from In-Ho that Gi-Hun was playing the games, I didn't hesitate to ask if he could make me a player, it's not like they'd kill the front man's sister. Even if they did, I have nothing to lose.