{Some spoiler ahead . Some are spoiler some are my thoughts . Oh and this will probably be saaaad....
And either a very long one shot or a 2 shot....}

Ichi- one
Ni- 2
San-3
Shi-4
Go-5
Roku-6
Nana-7
Hachi-8
Kyu-9
Jyu-10

I dont know if I should laugh or cry , be sad or be happy , or listen to what people say , my heart or my mind .

'Can the situation get any worse ?'
I thought as I finished cleaning my sword . I sighed putting it back in its shield as I set in the fancy room .
" Yo! How's it going ?"
Goji asked entering the room . He was being his usual cheerful self .
" Why hello there . Im fine ."
I said , forcing a smile .
" are you sure?"
He teased and I bit my lip .
" Stop teasing her goji"
Niji said entering the room , his face was pissed off . I smiled a bit . He was the closest friend I had .
" Hello there my sweet precious (y.n)"
He said facing me , his expression softening .
" Hi niji . How's it going ?"
I asked . He smiled and faced goji .
" I believe poison pink had some business with you"
He told him frowning . Soon goji left . Niji threw himself on the couch letting out a sigh .
" You know you dont have to put that mask on your face . You're human too . You have feelings just like any other . And now with him being in the game again...."
He drifted off . I looked at him with tears blurring my vision .
"Niji....it hurts....."
I said as we hugged eachother tightly . He started rubbing my back .
" Ssshhh im here for you . You know I love you so much , I want to see you smile"
He said . I wiped my eyes and let out a chuckle .

~☆flashback☆~
I walked to mr. Vinsmokes office . He had summoned me . Who am I ? An assasin raised by the Vinsmoke . They found me when I was a midget and raised me up . However they dont know my true identity , lucky me .
" Enter"
He said before I could knock . I took a deep breath and opened the door entering his office . He was sitting on his badass boss chair facing the window smoking cigarette .
" im here since you have summoned me ."
I said .
" Oh yes . I wanted to tell you that sanji will be back prwtty soon ."
He said coldly , like sanji has gone shopping and now he's returning . My heart skipped a beat and I tried to keep my cool .
" And he's getting married to Charlotte pudding ."
He said . My eyes widened and my jaw dropped , causing my cigarette to fall . He was getting married to big moms daughter. ....
" And the wedding is two weeks from now . I need everything at its best . If anyone was to interfere I want you to eliminate them . And even if sanji wasn't doind as he's supposed to , kill him ."
He said . How can this man be so cold ?! Sanji is his son !!
" Y-yes , I understand ."
I said pretty sadly .looking down at the ground
" I was wondering...."
He said and I raised my head .
" Yes ?"
" Dont you ever want to get married ? You know you could get married to yonji or niji or even goji..."
He said as he turned with his chair , facing me as his hands were on his knees . a cold sweat ran down my back . What was I supposed to tell him ?! That I love his soon to be married son ?! No....

(Lets say sanjis dad looks something like this....)

" I....um....-"
He cut me off and started laughing .
" HAHAHAHAHA , dont push yourself you have lots of time to think ."
He said . I smiled .
" Yes , thank you for your generosity mr. Vinsmoke ."
I said bowing my head a bit . He then dismissed me .

~☆flashback ends☆~

" Yo!! Yoo!! Ya hear me ?!"
Niji said and I snapped out of my thoughts .

(And lets say niji looks like shizuo with curly brows . But both of his brows are the same and not like sanji , a little swirl in the end .)

" Yes im very sorry ."
I said and he sighed .
" Damn that stupid sanji is only trouble. .."
He said .
Me and sanji were the same age while niji was two years older than us . I giggled .
" Yes he is.... I remember when we were kids..."
I said .
" Yeah and sometimes I think how things wouod be if that didn't happen on that day"
He said and my smile dropped .

~☆flashback☆~

" Hey stop running sanji!!"
I said as I chased him through the woods .
" Hahaha~ either catch me or stop trying"
He said .
" Sanji we're deep in the woods lets go back its dangerous"
I said .
" Relaaax.... we'll be-WOOOOOH!!"
He shouted as he fell from the bridge . The bridge we were standing in was tearing apart . I grabbed his hand as I screamed his name .
"SANJI!!"
He looked at me and gave me a toothy smile . The ropes were going to snap . The bridge couldn't take both of us . I looked at the sky then down at sanji .
" Hm ? What is it ?"
He asked .
" Sanji just grab onto something"
I said and he gave me a puzzled look .
" Im sorry"
I said and pulled him up , throwing him in the sky . Yeah I was strong , I mean , I did train my ass off every day .
And as I threw him up the impact caused my hand to go loose and I started falling.....
Falling into that unknown darkness .
Falling into that black hole....
The only thing I could hear was sanji screaming my name and his cries .
" Im sorry that I had to leave you"
I muttered and everything went black .
When I woke up niji was sitting next to my bed holding my hand . When he saw me awake he blushed and let go .

" You were in a coma for 6 months now . We found you a week after the bridge incident . Apparently an old lady had found you and she tried to keep you alive . After sanji got home he was in shock and refused to eat . And after two days....."
He frowned and looked down . Fear overtook me . I got up and grabbed his shoulders , ignoring the killer pain in my body .
" He what ?!?! What happened to him ?!?!"
I asked scared to death . Niji gently pushed me down so I was laying again .
" He left us . He wrote a letter . He thinks you're dead . Dad has been searching for him but we can't find him . The clues say hes alive but hes always steps ahead of us"
Niji said . At least he was alive....
I got a scar on my eye and countless other wounds and scars that day . I might even have problems giving birth . But I couldn't care less . As long as sanji was fine.....

~☆flashback ends☆~

"So, what will you do ? About his marriage I mean...."
Niji asked .
" Im in no position to interfere"
"Aw come on . He doesn't even want to get married . And we both know you have feelings for him..."
He said .
" Niji.... im stuck . People ask me to guard the marriage so things go smoothly , my mind tells me to help him run away and go to his crew , and his girlfriend.... and my heart tells me to keep him to myself. .."
I said . He had a pained yet confused look .
" Girlfriend ?!"
"Yea isn't that orange haired girl in his crew her girlfriend ?"
I asked and he shrugged .
" Look even if things turn out ugly , im here for you..."
He said .
" I....im still not sure niji.... im sorry.... im not sure if I can love you or no..."
I said and ran away .
He confessed to me when I was 15 . 8 years after sanji had left us . But I couldn't help it , I still loved sanji....

~☆9 days later☆~

We reached all cake island . I looked at the palace . Sanji was there.... we were going to meet him.... my heart was pounding . I was both sad and happy .

I walked around the palace memorizing everything . It always comes handy to know about the ground you stand at .

" Oh my sweet beautiful lady~ your eyes are so mesmerizing im lost in them~"
I heard a voice .
'That yonji will get us all killed with his flirtings....'
I thought as a tick mark appeared on my head and I slammed open the door .
" HEY YONJI YOU DUMBASS HO-....."
I paused as I looked at the man .
"-when did you change your hair style ?!"
I asked raising an eyebrow . Yonji was frozen as he was about to kiss the maids hand .
" Did you call me yonji ?"
" Duuh of course !! Did your perverted mind finally stopped working ?!"
I asked .
" But im not yonji..... im sanji...."
He said and my heart stopped beating .
" Ha ha ha..... not a funny joke yonji..."
I said .
" As I said before im sanji ma'am . And who are you ?"
He asked with hearts in his eyes as he noodled to me . The poor maid had ran away by now .
"S-sanji...... I.... im.....have I changed that much ?!"
I stuttered .
"Have we met eachother before ? I would surely remember a beauty like you..."
He said .
" Sanji its me.... (y.n)....."
I said with tears in my eyes . His eyes widened and I saw anger in them . I took a step back .
" DONT MESS WITH ME! !! (Y.n) is dead.... I killed her.... shes dead"
He yelled at me and my blood froze . I didn't knew what to say .
"Shes telling the truth . (Y.n) is alive and standing before you little bro"
Niji said . How did he appear behind you in a flash ?!
Sanji took a step back . He was confused . He was happy . He was shameful . He was scared.... every emotion at the same time .
"I should've known. ... im sorry to have interrupted you , Mr. Vinsmoke ."
I said without any emotions in my eyes as I bowed . He wasnt the sanji I knew , he wasn't the sanji I had in mind . We were just mere strangers with some memories now....
" (y.n ) I....-"
I cut him off .
" niji , I accept ."
I said . Sanji was confused and niji smiled a wide smile .
"I accept your proposal"
I said taking a deep breath . Sanjis jaw dropped .
" Proposal ?!"
He asked .
" After 6 years and 8 months you accepted my feelings . Im so happy"
Niji said . I looked at sanji and I think my look was scary as his face said so .
"Hold it niji you cant just-"
" I cant just what ? Do you have a problem with me getting married ??? Last time I checked you were getting married as well..."
He said grabbing my arm ever so gently as we walked out .

I broke down into tears as he held me tight and whispered sweet things . He had his chin resting on my head .
" Im sorry niji.... im sorry.... im sorry.... im not gonna lie , I haven't lost my feelings for him , but I know I can never be with him . So I want you to at least reach who you love , even tho im such useless bad person"
I cried in his chest . His hug tightened .
" You are the best person in the world in my eyes . You will be my queen"
He said .

~☆writers POV☆~
Sanji yet delivered another kick to the poor wall . She was alive and now getting married to niji ??? He thought about his mistakes and looked over his regrets as he kept kicking walls .
He still loved her , she still loved him ? Or at least he thought so . He wasn't sure anymore . He wasn't sure about anything anymore....

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Part 2 coming right up !! I hope you enjoyed and tell me what you thing .

Inspired by autumn-ya . Her latest sanji x reader gave me a hint and I thought about a sanji x reader , coming up with this one .

〰Donquixote_Joker 👿