Author's note: here's to another story that i hope would be longer than the previous one and i also hope it would get more loves from you guys : ) 

 Chapter One

Before I heard the rumor, it was already on everyone else's mind and circulating fast about the company. It isn't anything new, is what I thought at first; Kongpob and I have experienced something exactly like this five years ago. It caused us to have a really big fight and I was sure I would lose Kong but I didn't. He chose to stay with me. That rumor came with a photo proof but this time Kongpob and I were careful, there can't be any pictures of us together.

Still, as I walked towards the cafeteria in the company where Kong worked under his father a general manager, I couldn't help but be uncomfortable.

The workers knew me now from my frequent visits—not because of Kongpob but because Kongpob's father and I have a working relationship. I come over most times for work related reasons and rarely to see Kong. His father thought we were just friends and has even welcomed me into his home to meet Kong's sister and mother. I felt like part of the family, and like an asshole too for deceiving them; they had no idea I was in love with their only son.

When I took a seat just by the window; the company's cafeteria glass windows that looked down to the busy road, I felt that the voices behind me were directed at me but not to me.

They belonged three, giggling young women

"Ah so he is gay?"

"But he looks so handsome."

"I know."

I was tempted to leave and just never return until the rumors died down. I didn't want anything that could ruin the peace we had tried so hard to create and stabilize over the years. Besides, I wondered where the rumor could have stemmed from and if leaving might just confirm those rumors.

"P'Arthit," I didn't even hear him come close to me yet I looked up at the sound of my name and his face was in front of me and of course too close.

"Kong," I tsked as I pushed his face away. He chuckled like he found me funny and I could only glare at him. I glanced around and found that those gossiping set had left still I didn't feel comfortable doing this so close to home.

"Kong, let's go somewhere else," I said before he could say hello.

He paused, still smiling and his eyes left mine to take in the cafeteria. "Why? Is something wrong with the place?"

I didn't want to have to explain. I knew how much Kongpob resented having to hide how we felt for each other. He thought I was stupid and unfair for being the way I was and it was a cause for many of our big fights. I didn't want to start one of those, not here.

"Nothing, I just thought we could use some variety," I said nonchalantly. I wanted him to think I didn't really care either way.

"Our company's cafeteria has a pretty big list of food. What do you want to eat, P'Arthit, I will ask and maybe they have it."

"No," I said quickly, "I mean it's not about the food, just the... ambience. Yes, we've been eating lunch in the same place for too long." I made a face to show how bored I was of it.

That seemed to please him a lot, his black eyes fairly glowed and pulled one of those love smiles from me, "yeah, let's do that. I have been thinking that it's been so long since we went out on a date P'Arthit. How long... hm it's been almost a whole month."

I laughed at how he exaggerated it. "that's because you and I have been too busy."

He nodded, "yes, but I have some free time so let's squeeze it in."

"Okay, let's just go now."

We left quietly and found a restaurant that was not very far from the company so Kongpob could easily return.

He ordered his typical bland food and I still made fun of him for it and forced him to eat my own food instead.

"Kongpob, "I started after a few moments of silence. He looked at me and I thought about whether I should breach the subject.

Casually I said as I rolled my spaghetti on my fork," have there been any rumors flying around the company?"

"Rumors?"

I almost slapped my head. Of course he had no idea. Kong was so wrapped up in his work he rarely had time. This lunch was even my way of forcing him to eat because I caught him in the habit of skipping lunch. It wasn't like him but he said he needed to make his father proud so that he could have what he wanted. What he wanted was of course me. He wanted to tell his father about us, somehow he envisions that conversation going well. Stupid Kong.

I admired his determination to fight for me and to be a good son but I needed to be the clear headed one in this situation. There is no man who would be okay with letting his only son be with a man. None, let alone an influential man like Kong's father.

I let my Kong do what he wanted with all my support, but I had no plans of letting him do that, no way.

"Never mind," I said. He looked at me thoughtfully.

"What's wrong?" I avoided his eyes and reached for my napkin. "What do you mean?"

I should have come up with something because that was all it took to get Kongpob to smell a rat. He grabbed my hand.

"Arthit," why was it in moments like this that he called me that way. I met his eyes and knew I couldn't lie my way out of this one, and I didn't like lying to him anyway.

"It's nothing, I was just sure I heard people talking about us at the company," I said truthfully.

"That's not possible," Kong said with such certainty that confirmed what I already suspected.

'"You don't know that," I said.

"We've never done anything at the company, I hate it but I have been careful," he pulled his hand away. "Everyone thinks we are friends."

I could sense the hurt and resentment in his voice; he was getting unbearable to deal with when he got like this.

"Yeah well, it's okay." I hastily said to recover the situation

"So that's why you wanted to leave the cafeteria."

He fell silent while looking at me in that way that told me anger was brewing in there. " Kong," I reached for his hand.

He shook his head, "if it will set your heart at ease I will find out what the rumors are about. I'm sure it is not about us."

I loved him just for that, for being so supportive of me even though he hated what I was doing. I was terribly sorry for it, but I was also doing this for Kong, he just didn't understand.

"You don't have to do that, "I told him. "Don't be mad please?"

"Why would I be? Is it because of the fact that you would do anything to make sure that everyone sees us as friends instead of the lovers that we really are?P'Arthit you are my boyfriend, until when are we going to hide that?"

I could see his frustration and I disliked myself for it. I always told Kongpob that we would tell only those that mattered once I was in a good place at work and once he was working properly at the company. I thought it was a good thing, I wanted us to be strong enough to take whatever criticism that came with people knowing about us, but that actually achieved the opposite. The more I climbed up the ladder at my work place as the team leader and assistant manager, the more I couldn't picture it going very well.

"I'm sorry okay, but I don't think we are ready."

"Okay," Kong leaned on the table with his fingers clasped. "When do you think you will be ready? Because I have been ready from the day I knew I liked you. The day I fell for you P'Arthit, so tell me when you are going to be ready."

I knew Kong didn't understand, he was always reckless like that. When he talked to me I always felt like he forgets that we were not the only people that were involved in this. There was his dad, his family, his colleagues. Did he not care about how this could affect his relationship with them?

I no longer tried pointing this out to Kong; I loved him so much so I took all his anger and argument that I was unreasonable. "Kong please, not here." I said to end the topic.

He looked like he would argue but I saw his resignation before he pulled back. At that point we had both lost our appetite. I felt like crap for not being able to give Kongpob what he truly wanted and I didn't know what he felt.

When I dropped him at the company he didn't immediately leave like I thought he would. He sat staring out the window.

"P'Arthit," he finally spoke. "I know that you want to do what's best for both of us, but I think it's time that you come to a decision."

I said nothing. He turned," are we never coming out? What is our future going to be like?"

"Kong," I began to complain,

"no, don't tell me that this is not the time or place. You think I've not notice that you do that a lot whenever this comes up? I don't know what you are thinking but hurry up already, okay, before I get tired of waiting."

I blinked, what was that supposed to mean. I didn't get a chance to ask. He leaned over and kissed me. A soft kiss, a perk, but because it has been quite a while my body reacted harder.

He pulled back and saw the look on my face before he slowly leaned back in to take my mouth deeply. I opened to him and let him lead. My hand moved to pull his face closer and to take more of his familiar taste and his deep kisses. He tilted my head back and licked my mouth. Only when I heard myself moan did I remember where exactly we were.

I pushed at his chest insistently even as he turned his head and claimed my mouth hard again. I was breathless. Then finally he pulled away. I looked away and stared out through the windshield. My car wasn't even tinted I thought, blushing terribly. I was feeling so hot and I moved to fuss with the button of the shirt I had worn.

"You know," a smiling predator said beside me.y

"What?" I asked cautiously, pulling away from the face closing in.

"I still have an hour or so, let's go to your place for a bit."

I avoided his gaze. I was doomed to agree if I met his eyes. There's this look he gives me when he is hot for me and that always strokes the fire inside me.

"No way, we are already here."

He chuckled and leaned into me, his hands traced my chest in a way that sent my heart running wild. I licked my lips. He turned my face to him. "Please? It's been so long"

I moaned and nodded. He was about to kiss me when a loud honk tore us apart. I looked behind through the rear-view mirror. I hadn't meant to park there for long so I was blocking the entrance to the area.

"Go Kong, we'll see tonight," I said quickly. He perked my cheek and I glared at him before he left laughing.

I drove out of there without looking back.