A/N: Hey guys! Sorry for not updating for awhile. I'm a wreck and I just needed a break - thank for your support and love guys! :)

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Chapter Four

"What do you mean. Wait, what-" Bail struggles to speak. He still hasn't accepted the truth - nor has Obi-Wan.

"I don't believe it either. Apparently, Anakin was the one who killed the little children in training. You know to become Jedi's" Obi-Wan adds with a depressing tone in is his voice.

Obi-Wan knew that evil was lurking around the corner, he knew something was off - like rotten cheese. But no one thought it would be Anakin Skywalker. The little boy who was once a slave, on Tatooine with his then alive Mother. The boy who loved inventing things - created so many things, like C-3PO - the boy who dreamt of becoming a Jedi, the boy who fell in love with the senator. It is hard to accept something you don't want to accept. Not only did Obi-Wan lost his Jedi partner, a friend, but his brother.

Bail doesn't speak for few minutes. Bail's face is pale, looking like his going to faint any minute.

"Bail, are you alright? Sit down and catch your breath" I echoed.

I forgot why Bail came in without orders. I guess because his a father now, his job is to be the best father to Leia. I can only imagine the same for Luke on Tatooine. Alderran is a beautiful place, I'm sure Bail and his wife with the baby will cherish their moments with Leia, and Leia will have a new life, a new chance, the same only goes for Luke.

"I cannot believe it. This is madness" bail finally speaks after hesitation.

"I know. I didn't want to believe it either. But I knew something was off. Before Master Yoda told me Anakin murder the children-in-training, the pain was in Padmé Amidala's eyes".

My eyes began to turn into water. So much pain, so much loss and betrayal. This cannot be, but what is done can not be undone.

"Isn't love forbidden for a Jedi? I mean was it forbidden for Anakin to fall in love....with a senator, the queen of Naboo, Padmé Amidala" Bail raises deep shock in his voice. He still can not accept what is happening or what has happened.

I do not wait for hesitation to answer Bail's question.

"It's hard to explain, Bail. Jedi do not marry in order to avoid attachment you see - and so as not to create dynasties of those strong in the Force. It taught its follower to not give in to feelings of anger toward other lifeforms, which would help them resist fear and prevent them from falling to the dark side of the Force". I explain

"So it's forbidden to marry but not to love?" Bail answers back

"Why are you so interested in this? Is it right to talk about this right now?" I question.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. Um. I'll talk to soon". Bail echoes as he is leaving the room

There is too much pain. Anakin Skywalker is lost. He now lives with the dark side. As Obi-Wan sits on a bench with a view overlooking Alderran, he remembers something. Something special.

"There is no emotion, there is peace.
There is no ignorance, there is knowledge.
There is no passion, there is serenity.
There is no chaos, there is harmony.
There is no death, there is the Force"

It was a message from The Jedi's Code. He remember it so long ago when his former Master, Qui-Gon, taught him. All of Obi-Wan's life has been misery and pain but he taught himself to not think about it too much because he knew how strong The Dark Side was, he knew and only these thoughts were little broken pieces of glasses in his mind. If only Anakin could do the same thing.

As Obi-Wan sat on the bench looking at the amazing view, he thinks of Padmé. I cannot imagine what she was thinking at this time. Not only her love of her life was turning to the dark side but her friend, her friend who only wanted to protect her, keep her safe. As she was dying on the table giving birth to twins, Luke and Leia, her last words were "Is Anakin all right? There is still good in him". And to think I was on my way to hunt him down before anything else bad happen, and she took the consequences. I was on my way to do what's right, it was wrong of me to hide not knowing that Padmé knew I was hiding. I would like to blame myself but I was only do my job.

"STOP IT" I yell. I need to stop thinking. This is bad. It is not the Jedi way.

As Obi-Wan stands up from the bench leaving the amazing view, he walks toward the exist only to meet Yoda.

"Master Yoda, what are you doing here? I was just leaving" I echo

"Sit you must, we need to talk about what has happen" Yoda speaks as he grips his stick-like-walking-kane.

"Is this about Anakin? Master Yoda?" Obi-Wan demands politely as he sits back down on the bench.

Yoda pops up next to Obi-Wan, leaving his kane beside him on the bench.

"Anakin it is not. Worried for you I am. I can feel the anger, rage in you" Yoda speaks.

Obi-Wan shocked to hear Yoda be worried of him. No one has been worried for him in awhile, it's mainly Obi-Wan worried for anyone else.

"I do have some anger in me. I just cannot believe what has happened. Everything is falling apart" Obi-Wan speaks without hesitation. His glad to have Master Yoda here with him.

"Anakin Skywalker, anger you have" Yoda answers his eyes looking out to Alderran.

Obi-Wan stands up, gripping the balcony with his fists. Obi-Wan has a feeling that if anyone else mentions Anakin's name, he'll choke and fall apart.

"I can't. This can't be happening. Why him? He deserves so much better. His mother, once a slave, once alive. I knew he had bad dreams ever since she died. And Padmé, I can't even begin. I believe this is all my fault you know? I lost a good friend, a Jedi partner and a brother" Obi-Wan struggles to speak, pulling his fists slowly into calm position over his eyes kneeing over the balcony overlooking Alderran. He refuses to hold on anymore.

A few minutes past, maybe three until Master Yoda speaks. Yoda stands on the bench with his kane for support until he speaks.

"Ben. Worried you are, what has happen has happened. History cannot be changed" Master Yoda echoes as he exits the balcony.

It has been so long since anyone called Obi-Wan by his first name. Ben, it feels like the name doesn't belong to him. 'What are you doing? Keep you self together', right now everyone needs to be more steady with their emotions, this is the time to grieve.

A time to forget.