30 | mindless

(adj) acting or done without justification and with no concern for the consequences

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                    The music moves me like I'm a puppet on strings, my head mashing so hard my brain is in shut down mode. There's so much sweat on my skin and not all of it's mine. My skimpy dress which I wear, moves around me, dancing along with me. My pearl necklace bouncing on my chest and my round golden earrings hit my cheeks as I move.

The music is a drug that brings me higher, higher until my mind buzzes with pure joy. I feel as if my soul will shine so bright my skin will start to glow, like my aura would become visible. But the night is so young, my limbs have so much energy I could dance for millennia and then some more.

I feel the part of me that's really me come out to play, to feel the vibe of the music and let my body go free.

I'm obsessive when just one thought of you comes up
And I'm aggressive just one thought of close enough
You got me stressing, incessantly pressing the issue

I came to this club exactly three days after meeting with Ivy. She had told me that I would definitely bump with Joker any time here because its his club.

So, I have been clubbing for the past three nights.

I wanted to make myself irresistable. So, that he would have to give in.

And, I told myself not to give in to alcohol but I was drowning and self-pity and sorrow.

So, tonight I drank. I drank as if I was going to die the next day. And, I let myself free. I felt powerful like I could rule the world as I twist and turn my body to the heavy beat of the music, not caring about a damn in the world. I could feel bodies moving beside mine, but my mind was so trapped in the music and the beat, that I brushed it off as dust.

'Cause every moment gone you know I miss you
I'm the question and you're of course the answer
Just hold me close boy 'cause I'm your tiny dancer

Suddenly, two very familiar blue eyes caught my sight and I whip my head around to confirm my doubts.

It was him.

You make me shaken up, never mistaken
But I can't control myself, got me calling out for help

He was wearing a white shirt, unbuttoned, his dark tattoos visible on his porcelain skin. His blue eyes glistening in the dim light of the club. He was seated in a sofa. A white sofa, leaning back on it.

The most important part of it was that he was staring at me.

Just looking at his eyes made me feel crazy already. They were full of lust and desire, surprise and wonder, curiousity and thrill.

I knew so damn well that it was all because of me.

God, I loved that man.

S.O.S. please someone help me.
It's not healthy for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making this hard,
I can't take it, see it don't feel right
S.O.S. please someone help me
It's not healthy for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making this hard
You got me tossin' and turnin' and can't sleep at night

I smiled, a wide grin and turned around continuing to dance, because I was enjoying it and I enjoyed it even more now because I know he was watching my every move.

This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind it's got me losing it
I'm lost, you got me lookin' for the rest of me
Love is testing me but still I'm losing it.

I smile wider when I realise when I realise that this song was perfect for my feelings. I am completely and utterly lost in loving him. I don't think I can find the old me anymore. I don't ever want to rescued, because I love it.

Just your presence and I second guess my sanity
Yes it's a lesson, it's unfair, you stole my vanity
My tummy's up in knots so when I see you I get so hot
My common sense is out the door, can't seem to find the lock

I closed my eyes and feel my body give into the music. I dance, the beat filling me from my head to toes and I peek my eyes open to see him, still staring. I didn't have any idea when he got here and how long he has been watching me. But, I hoped I didn't look like a girl who smashed her face into a tree.

Take on me (uh huh) you know inside you feel it right
Take me on, I could just die up in your arms tonight.
I'm out with you, you got me head over heels
Boy you keep me hanging on the way you make me feel

The lyrics were so right. They were perfect, infact, I felt like Rihanna had written this song for me. I swayed my hips side to side, and a pair of hands rest on my hips. I didn't bother to look at who the man was. I only cared about one man tonight and he is right there, across the room, watching me dance.

S.O.S. please someone help me.
It's not healthy for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making (Y.O.U.) this hard,
You got me tossin' and turnin' and can't sleep at night

The man's hands aggressively explore my body and I drown in the pleasure, batting my eyelashes, I look upto see Mr. J, but he is not there and I frown, but still continue to dance nonetheless.

This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind, it's got me losing it ('Cause you on my mind)
I'm lost, you got me looking for the rest of me,
Got the best of me, so now I'm losing it

"Ooh." The man moans in my ears, "Want to go home?"

Before I could respond, someone huge with brown hair, looking like a bouncer, yanked him away from me. In the darkness of the club and the heavy alcohol in the system, I tumble, a hand clutching my wrist and dragging me away. I tried to pull my grip out of it and dance, but I couldn't and I pout.

Boy, you know you got me feeling open
And boy, your loves enough with words unspoken
I said boy I'm telling you, you got me open
I don't know what to do it's true
I'm going crazy over you,
I'm begging

The music plays and I get dragged somewhere, and pushed into a room roughly and I hear the sound of the door locking behind me. I sigh and see that it is a huge lounge. I look around me and frown, confused when I see nobody.

I feel something hot near my neck and a warm mouth lays on it, nibbling the skin gently, a hand slowly snaking on my hips, curling around me and pushing me back to his body. I felt his defined muscles and toned chest poking into my back, along with his chains. I immediately realise that it is him just by his touch.

I sink my neck further into him, drowning in the ecstasy of the pain. He growled and I bit my lip from moaning from the sense of vibration it cause all over my body, desire filling me up.

The last time I saw him was when he ... abandoned me.

Snapping back to reality, I open my eyes which I never realised I had closed and push myself from his burning and haunting touch.

I turn around, and gave him a hard glare, moving a few feet away from him. His eyes lit up immediately and his bright red lips grinning wildly, which now slowly turned into a pout, as he took in my expression.

"Aww." He groaned. "You just ruined the fun."

S.O.S. please somebody help me.
It's not healthy for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making this hard (are you making this hard for me, baby?),
You got me tossin' and turnin' and can't sleep at night

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Hola!

Thanks to @prettylittlelayla for nominating me to the Suicide squad fanfiction awards! (:

I really enjoyed writing this chapter. I felt like Rihanna's S.O.S really matched her feelings and it was perfect for the scene so I added it.

MR. J IS SO HOT IM GONNA DIE.

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