In getting a tad sick of my dad. I love him to death but he grumbles a lot and complains about everything and makes me feel useless when he gets ticked off because I can't find something because I don't understand or I don't know what he's talking about. It also makes me want to be alone more and more because I can't do jack shit right. He yells at me and my brothers for doing one small thing wrong or we forget something.

Y'know when I got Abby to announce that I wouldn't be on because something important came up? My mom had to go to the hospital. But I didn't want to worry Abby so I told her it was important. What does this have to do with my dad you ask? Well I heard some commotion so I decided to check it out and dad was literally trying to hit Jonathan because Jonathan was freaking out since the blood pressure thing was saying Mom's blood pressure was really high or low idfk. So mom was in pain and her blood pressure wasn't right and she had to yell for them to stop while I was sitting beside her scared and crying. Mom's ok btw it was just her olester (or however you spell it i don't fukin  care anymore) and yes I was worried and I still am because certain things could send her back to the emergency room but Abby if you're reading this she's fine. No need to question her or dad just keep it between you and me k? Please promise me.

Any ways I think my dad is bipolar af and yeah. This is the what? 15th time I've complained about my dad on here? I don't think it's the 15th but still. I've grown up with this and I'm used to being yelled at for a small thing but it still hurts me. Actually I think that's the reason I'm more sensitive. It's either that or the depression that came out of no-fukin-where.

I love my dad but he needs to control his patience and his temper. Though I can't say much for myself about the temper since I need to control mine.
Anyways thanks for reading this vent thingy and yeah. See ya.

P.S to Abby: don't say a word about this, please.