While some days are not that bad
And even pleasant, one might say

I can't control the thoughts I have

I can't control the present wave of emotion, anxiously hoping for something or someone

For anything at all

I can't imagine,
a life without familiarity

I can't imagine what it's like to live with certainty

I like to rewatch movies so I know the end of every scene

I know the end of everything I do because I won't ever leave

My room it's safer here, safety's all I want and all I need

Buried my issues here, deep within the walls and in my dreams

In my own atmosphere is where I'll die, so let me die in peace

I'm on my final breath, my final steps,
I've never felt so free

But my head's spinning

I can't help but think of who I'm abandoning

And suddenly my chest cries out in pure panic

It cannot end like this

I say with strength I haven't felt before, and that's when it finally hits

With my hands sweating

Climb down from the ledge of what's all so threatening

But it don't cause me fear no more,
my fingers touch the fabric of my jacket made of corduroy

Reminding me of Brentwood and the things that I would die to see again

Die to see again

My jacket made of corduroy

Not what I stand to lose my life, my soul, my time, my home, my thoughts, my sweet and sour youth

I can't let go of who I was but I can cut myself in two

And I can pick up all the pieces and let everybody choose

Yeah, it's all in your mind, boy, it's all in your head

Leave it all behind, you can finish when you're dead

I'll be waiting for you here when this madness finally ends

Remember who you are, don't forget her

When your head's spinning

Stuck in a room with the television on while you're tripping on shrooms

You got your thoughts spilling

But none of it's true, it's a façade, your heart can tear apart the parts that make it you
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