I woke up, I don't know how I managed to sleep, but I did, it still rains today.

What happened was weird, but it's over now there's nothing I can do about it, he's gone, and I must continue to live like nothing happened.

I need to go to work and think about something else, I can't stay like that forever, I don't feel good.

"Hey Kate!" I hear a familiar voice as I step outside, it's Douglas?

"How are-" I don't let him finish his sentence and take him in my arms.

"You're alive!" I said, almost in tears. After realizing what I was doing, I step back and calm down.

"Why wouldn't I be? Are you okay, Kate?"

"It's Katelyne not Kate, I'm sorry I don't know what happened, maybe it was a bad dream." I really need more sleep.

"It's okay, I wanted to tell you I'm going out of town tonight. We could have a drink before I go?"

He said that yesterday, I remember. It couldn't have been a dream, how could I dream of something that didn't happen yet?

If everything happens like yesterday, that mean that he will...

"You're okay Kate? You should rest for today."

"No, I'm okay, I might be able to take a drink after work."

"Really? Thanks, I'm happy I can see you more before going to another town." If I'm right, he won't go to another town, but that mean I can change the outcome of today.

"I need to go. I'll see you later today!" Said Douglas before going back in his house.

I head to work too.

Today is Monday, I see it on my phone. How can this be? What am I doing here? It's supposed to be Tuesday today.

Douglas sent me a text, he wants to meet up at 2pm. I'll ask Olivia if I can take a break to go see him, I won't let him alone this time.

"Katelyne it's you?" Olivia asks me from the back of the shop.

"Yes, it's me. I'm sorry, but can I leave earlier today? I have something important to do at 2pm."

"I'm sorry, but someone needs to take care of the shop and I need to rest for today."

"Oh sure, I understand." If it's the same day, no one will come aside from that guy.

I'll just sneak out without anyone knowing and come back before he arrives, nothing bad could happen. I hope...

Olivia left for today. It's 8am, I need to rest. I've been thinking too much today. I accepted to see Douglas, but will that really help?

Thought are, what will I do once I see him? Should I tell him I already lived this day?

If I tell anyone they won't believe me, I can't tell anyone, especially him.

Ah! My phone ringed, I was so focused it scared me, It's Douglas he asks me where I am.

I didn't see the clock, it's already 2:30pm, Of course he's worried. I rush to his house as fast as I can, after running under the rain I knock on his door.

"Kate, I thought you wouldn't come! You're all soaked, you should come in."

I'm so embarrassed, I should have come earlier to change my clothes.

As I enter I see his house for the first time, I see a lot of weird stuff.

"I'll go search something to drink, you want something?"

"I'll just take water."

"Oh, okay, I'll get some for you." He left and that's when I realize what I'm doing.

I'm in a guy's house, alone with him.

I've never been in a friend's house, I always lived my life alone. Why did I accept, I should have found another way to help him, maybe I could have just tell him to go outside or something? I really should have thought about it more.

"Here's your glass of water, you're not an expensive guest, haha!"

"Thanks." Well now that I'm here I need to find a way to know about why he's about to end his life tonight. How can I ask without appearing weird?

"Everything's alright in your life?" Was it obvious? Does he know that I know about his plans tonight? Am I thinking too much?

"Not bad, it's just that it has been hard since I lost my job last month."

"What was your job?" I think he doesn't suspect a thing, it should be alright.

"I was a guitarist in a group, but the band split up, So now I'm just searching a job."

"I didn't know you played guitar." I should maybe have tried to learn more about him.

"Not only that but a lot of instruments! I have plenty just here, there's my synth there, I have my saxophone and drum in the corner of the room, I have..."

I don't understand a word of what he's saying, he's really passionate about music. Maybe I should have tried to learn about music too, since I work in a music shop. 

"... but the real love of my life is my guitar. Let me show you." He shows me his red guitar, it's really pretty. Wait, I've seen it before, it's the guitar the guy at the music shop brought.

"It's your guitar?"

"Yeah, I got it since I'm a child."

"So you would never sell it?"

"No, I wouldn't, I don't want to lose it." Why does he seem sad? Is it his guitar I saw yesterday?

"You can always get another guitar."

"No I can't." I can see he starts to get nervous when I talk about it, maybe it's linked to his suicide somehow?

"It's important for me, my mother gave it to me after she died, She wanted to see her son play guitar like her."

"Oh, I'm sorry to hear that, may I ask how old you were?"

"I was 10, She passed away after giving birth to my brother."

"I didn't know you had one."

"He doesn't come see me often. He still lives with my father, he spoils him too much, but I can understand him. He misses His wife too."

A lot happened for him, and it looks like he didn't have a lot of people to talk about it.

I feel like he's like me, it may be the first person that could understand me.

"You should meet my brother one day, he's called Lucien, He's rude sometimes, but he's still a good guy."

Lucien? That was the guy in the shop, that remind me, it's 5pm. He's going to go to the shop soon, and I need to know about him more.

"It was nice being with you, but I need to go, I have work to do."

"Oh yeah, I see, it was nice of you, so thanks for being here, it was nice meeting you."

"Don't say that, it's not the last time we see each other."

"What do you mean?"

"You will understand one day, I'll find a way to save you." He looked confused, but I left before he could say anything, I will save him.

It's the first time I want to help someone like that, it doesn't feel so bad to help others sometimes.

I'm at the shop now, it's 5:20pm. I need to know more, Douglas's life wasn't easy, but why did he commit suicide in the end? There must be a reason.

"Hello, I've come to sell this guitar." It's Lucien, Douglas's brother. I need to know more from him.

"Yeah, show me your guitar." As he shows it, I'm sure now, it's Douglas's guitar. But why does he have it?

"I need to take your name."

"It's Lucien Doremi, can I have yours too?"

"You don't need it, aren't you Douglas's brother?"

"How do you know?" 

"He's a friend of mine." He looked pale, did I say something to make him like that?

"What did he tell you about me?" I didn't know I could make someone angry like that.

"Nothing, just your name."

"Oh okay." He seems to have calmed down, is he hiding something?

"Where did you get this guitar?"

"You don't know?"

"No, I've never seen it before." I've seen it before, but I need to get more information about it.

"My father gave it for my birthday, but I don't like it." What? That can't be right, that's Douglas's guitar.

It doesn't seem I'll get any new information for him, he's hiding something.

The rest of the day happen like yesterday, as I go home it rains a lot.

I'm afraid to read the journal, I think I know what's in it already.

I buy it to confirm what I was scared of, Douglas committed suicide today too.

Maybe I didn't manage to understand why, but I feel like I'm getting closer now.

I go home, the police are in front of my apartment, but I ignored them.

At home, I brew myself a cup of tea while watching the rain fall, will it ever stop?

And what if I do save Douglas? Will that day repeat? Is there anything I can do?

It's almost midnight, I start to get sleepy. I hope I'll get a chance to know more tomorrow, I need to understand what happened.

I don't know what I can do yet, but I'll see tomorrow. My eyes close themselves.The rain still fall, it's scary.