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"Let's make out - let's do something amazing
Let's do something that's all the way
Cuz I've never touched somebody like the way I touch
your body
Now I never want to let your body go...

Let's make a night - to remember
From January - to December
Let's make love - to excite us
A memory - to ignite us
Let's make honey baby - soft and tender
Let's make sugar darlin' - sweet surrender
Let's make a night - to remember - all life long"

- "Let's Make A Night To Remember" by Bryan Adams

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Chapter-18

It took Timmy two days to coax out the permission from his mother for spending a few days in the “university dorm”.  He carefully dodged the questions that asked for details. Nodded obediently about all the dos and don’ts, and scoffed when his mother said, “Don’t you dare to make a girl pregnant and come home.” He thought of informing her that if anyone had the chance to get pregnant it would be her son but decided against it. No point in raising a hell just before he was about to start his sex holiday.

Timmy smirked at that thought as he sat outside JingYu’s apartment building. He had not told JingYu that he was coming over tonight, wanted to surprise his boyfriend, but if he knew JingYu would be this late he certainly would have dropped some hints. They had not met in these two days and he could hardly wait anymore. Timmy blew into the cup of his hands to warm them a bit. The weather was getting colder and colder; the scarf was nearing its finishing line. He never thought he was capable of loving someone so much. Growing up pampered, spoilt, somewhat aloof to anything that did not involve his music, Timmy never had the chance to test his heart. But after meeting JingYu, he knew that there was nothing he could not do for the man. There was no limit. JingYu was his infinity.

“ZhouZhou?”

The voice startled Timmy out of his thoughts and he looked up to see JingYu was standing in front of him with a surprised face. He got up quickly.

“What are you doing here? Why are you outside? It’s freezing!”

Timmy grinned widely and held up his duffle bag. JingYu’s jaw dropped.

“Really?” He asked with disbelief.

Timmy’s smile only got bigger as he nodded enthusiastically, “Really.”

JingYu came closer, face softening, and brushed his fingertips over Timmy’s cheek, “I am glad, but your cheeks are cold. How long have you been here? Why didn’t you tell me before? I would have come earlier.”

Timmy held the hand and brought it over his mouth, kissing the palm, “I wanted to surprise you. Thought this way you’d be happier. But what took you this long?”

JingYu sighed tiredly, “Boris. He kept bringing one thing after another about the projects. Gave me a headache.” Then his face lit up, “But I am happy, so much! I missed you.”

“I missed you too.”

Timmy was leaning in, hoping for getting a kiss but JingYu’s hand on his chest stopped him.

“Hold your horses, kiddo. Don’t really want to get arrested when we just got the opportunity to spend some time together,” he said with a mock exasperation.

Rolling his eyes massively, Timmy jutted out his lower lip in a petulant manner, knowing very well what that could do to JingYu.

Predictably, JingYu thumbed at that lip and said, “Once we are inside, I promise I’ll compensate you fully.”

Voilà.

With a smug face, Timmy gave his bag to JingYu and they went in.

JingYu barely managed to open the door and Timmy was all over him. Holding that long neck, Timmy brought their faces together and started to suck on JingYu’s lips. After pulling and scraping them with his teeth, Timmy inserted his tongue inside.

Not wanting to be the passive one, JingYu gave back as much. Holding Timmy by the waist, he sucked on the tongue, luring it in more.

Body flushed tight with JingYu’s, Timmy felt himself going hard and just when he pushed his groin forward to let his boyfriend know about the development, JingYu ended the kiss. Timmy followed the retracting mouth with his own and whined when JingYu refused to relent.

“We must eat something first. I’m hungry,” JingYu said breathily.

Eyes still zeroed on JingYu’s lips, Timmy moaned, “Yeah...me too,” and went to resume the kiss.

A finger on his lips stopped his advancement.

“I meant the food, you horny kitten,” pinching Timmy’s cheek, JingYu laughed lightly.

Timmy scowled, “I am food.”

JingYu licked his lips and Timmy traced the movement with his eyes.

“I meant something less spicy.”

Locking his eyes with his boyfriend, he cupped his hand over JingYu’s crotch.

“I can think of something less spicy and more protein.”

And had the pleasure of watching his usually reserve boyfriend turn a brilliant crimson.

“You’re perpetually turned on, aren’t you?” JingYu asked as he turned Timmy physically towards the kitchen.

“For you? Always.”

XOXOXOX

Once in the kitchen, JingYu began to set up two plates.

“You should have told me you’re coming. I only brought food for one person. It won’t be enough for you. Umm, okay, let me make you something else...what should....”

Standing by the kitchen counter, Timmy watched as his boyfriend puttered around, murmuring to himself. He sighed.

“JingYu, trust me when I say I am hungry for a very different kind of food.”

JingYu rolled his eyes without turning or stopping what he was doing but did not say anything. He set the plates on the counter, fried rice, sweet and sour chicken and egg rolls, and gestured for Timmy to dig in.

Timmy stretched his arms out.

What? He never pretended to have any shame when it concerned his love life.

JingYu blinked at him rapidly then, snorted out a laugh.

“What am I gonna do with you?” He asked while lifting Timmy up and putting him on the counter.

“Fuck me?” widening his eyes, Timmy suggested innocently.

He was expecting many things but not the kiss that JingYu gave him suddenly.

“Stay the way you are, ZhouZhou. Never change.”

That gave Timmy a pause. This kind of emotional blurting was more of his forte; JingYu was the silent one. But before he could ask about it, an egg roll was stuffed into his mouth.

“Eat up. You’ll need your stamina,” JingYu informed him with a wink that spoke volumes.

Both of Timmy’s eyebrows disappeared into his hairline as he stared at the man questioningly. JingYu took a bite of his chicken and went over the desk to take out something from his backpack. He came back after a moment and handed Timmy a white envelop. He did not explain anything. He needed not to.  Timmy knew exactly what it was.

“When?”

“Today.”

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

“I wanted to surprise you tomorrow.”

Without any more ado, Timmy started to gobble up his food. JingYu’s test report had come finally, which meant....

XOXOXOX

Timmy sat between JingYu’s spread legs, right hand holding JingYu’s cock, as he panted. The kiss that they had just shared knocked the breath out of him completely. Two days without seeing each other, touching each other proved to be really difficult for both of them, and it made Timmy immensely happy to know that JingYu was equally desperate for him.

“ZhouZhou, you don’t have to do it. It’s not a compulsory thing, you know,” JingYu tried to placate him again and Timmy could not help but gave a particularly hard squeeze at the cock he was holding. Honestly, his boyfriend could be such a wet blanket sometimes.

“What part of ‘I am dying to do it’ you don’t understand?” Timmy glowered at JingYu who was looking at him with uncertainty.

A thought suddenly occurred to him and he bit his lip.

“Or are you....afraid that it won’t be good as I don’t have any experience?” Averting his eyes from JingYu, Timmy asked.

The next moment he was pulled up and pressed tight against JingYu’s bare chest who framed his face with both hands.

“You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. Ever. You can doubt about my ability, my capacity or even my intention, but never doubt my love for you, ZhouZhou. I am not like you. The llexperiences I have gained from life have somewhat stunted me emotionally. I cannot express myself the way you do, but know that there is no half heartedness in my commitment.”

“JingYu....” Timmy’s chest felt tight. Not that he ever doubted JingYu’s feelings for him but sometimes spoken words were more potent than actions.

“I don’t doubt you. I never doubted you. It’s just....It’s just I want the best for you.”

“You are the best for me.”

And with that Timmy was kissed breathless once again.

Afterwards, when he positioned himself in front of JingYu’s cock, the said man held his chin and tilted his face up so that their eyes met and said in a soft voice, “I want it just as much as you do.”

Heart thumping with excitement, skin breaking into goose bumps with anticipation, Timmy pulled down the foreskin of the cock, revealing the slightly wet head and stroked the shaft a few times before tentatively licking a stripe off. It did not taste anything other than clean skin but the heady musk of JingYu that emitted from the cock made Timmy drunk.

He lapped his tongue around the head and heard the hissing sound that came from above. JingYu’s pelvis jerked up a bit. Satisfied with the first reaction, Timmy rounded his mouth into an “O”, careful as not to let his teeth come into contact, and took the head inside his mouth, tongue tip pressing against the urethra.

“ZhouZhou...aahhh,” JingYu moaned out.

A gel like substance filled Timmy’s mouth. He pulled out to see beads of clear liquid dotting the tip of the cock along with Timmy’s own saliva. He licked the precome off the tip. It had a tangy, strong flavour that reminded him of JingYu when he was angry. Timmy liked it immediately and swallowed the cock once again. He tried to suck on it like an ice cream stick but could not breathe around it and had to pull out.

“You’re doing great, baby, but don’t force yourself,” JingYu’s fingers played with his hair as he assured Timmy.

“I’m not forcing it but can’t breathe properly,” Timmy informed, licking the leftover precome off his lips.

JingYu’s thumb ghosted over Timmy’s lips, stopping only for a moment when Timmy’s tongue peeked out to get a lick.

“You’ll have to breathe through your nose, love.”

Hearing it, Timmy promptly put the cock inside again. Hollowing his cheeks, he sucked and tried to match his inhaling and exhaling with the motion of his sucking. It worked and he eased up into the act, taking a bit more length inside with every suck. But JingYu was hung like a horse and Timmy realized that he would not be able to take much of it.

With regular practice, I’ll be able to, he consoled himself and stroke the rest of the shaft that was not in his mouth.

JingYu groaned as Timmy’s tongue pressed over the underside of the head. Cock still in mouth, Timmy looked up. JingYu groaned again, way louder this time, when their eyes locked. Taking it as a groan of pleasure, Timmy concentrated more on that particular area and JingYu’s hips bucked forward.

“Zhou...Zhou..ohhh...fuck..aahh...”

JingYu’s hand pushed on his forehead and Timmy pulled out but did not let the cock go. Instead, he began to trail sloppy kisses from the tip to the root and finally took a ball in between his lips. Pulled the taut skin lightly before licking it. He did the same with the other one.

“Aaahh...good..it’s so good, baby...fuck...ZhouZhou.”

JingYu moaned and Timmy felt tugs in his hair that made his own erection so hard that it practically ached.  He licked his way up and swallowed the tip again and stroked it with his tongue and hand. His mouth was flooding with saliva and precome.

“Damn..ZhouZhou...please, baby...you need to stop..or...oh fuck...or I won’t be able to- aahh.. to stop.”

Timmy released the hard flesh with a wet pop, “Don’t stop. I don’t want you to. I want to taste you, Jin.”

JingYu’s hand was rubbing at his head, stroking the side of his face, fingers brushing over his wet lips. Without even touching, Timmy felt like he would come.

“But I have other plans for us, love.....and...”

“And?”

“And I want to taste you too.”

Said with that husky voice that sounded like liquid sex, JingYu was the epitome of every wet dream Timmy ever had.

He crawled upwards and JingYu hooked his ankle behind Timmy’s thigh and with the hand still in his hair, Timmy was pulled down for a searing kiss. His mouth filled with JingYu’s taste.

And then he was flipped on the bed with JingYu hovering over him.

“It’s my turn now.”

With that, JingYu kissed him but did not linger. He peppered Timmy’s face with soft pecking, nibbled on the earlobe, dragged his tongue along Timmy’s jaw line and all the while JingYu’s hand rubbed, squeezed, pulled at Timmy’s waist, abdomen, hipbones and cock.

“You taste like love.”

JingYu pulled at one of Timmy’s nipples and pinched the flesh, rolling the nub in between his index and thumb.

“Jin....Oh, Jin....”

Timmy’s left hand was hooked around JingYu’s neck, right hand sliding up and down that broad shoulder, muscled chest. JingYu ducked in, took the other nipple in his mouth and began to suckle on it like a hungry child. Their erections were pressing against each other every now and then. Timmy pushed his cock forward to get more friction and they moaned in unison.

After frotting for a couple of times, JingYu slithered down and biting around the naval he dipped the tip of his tongue into the depth. Timmy’s cock brushed against JingYu’s collar bone and he held his lover’s head with both hands, pulling at those ears every so often.

Timmy’s entire body was trembling, throwing him to a sensory overload. No amount of wanking could measure up to the feeling of being touched, being worshiped by the person that had his heart captive.

JingYu was tonguing at Timmy’s inner thighs now and by the feel of it, leaving a line of hickeys there. Timmy loved the feel. The idea of being marked by JingYu had his mind going blank and cock oozing more precome.

And then JingYu started to lick Timmy’s erection and he finally knew why people usually made so much fuss about a blowjob.

Because that was out worldly.

A warm, wet tongue pressing onto his cock, lapping it with spittle, tasting it like some kind of candy.

“JingYu......aaaah....mmmmmm...Jin- ohmygod!”

The exclamation burst out of him as Timmy felt and then, saw his cock enter into a hot hell that was JingYu’s mouth.

“Fuck! Ji- oh fuck.”

JingYu’s rounded mouth engulfing his hardness, head bobbing up and down, looking at Timmy with dilated pupils. Inside, JingYu’s tongue was doing sinful things to the cock.

Fuck indeed.

Timmy’s world began to shift. He could feel his orgasm building rapidly. He pushed his cock more in and it touched the soft and warm flesh of the roof of JingYu’s mouth.

“Jing- Yu...Jin...I’m ne- aaahh...I’m-“
JingYu withdrew his mouth, leaving Timmy splutter in shock.

“What the- what are you doing? What-“

“Other plans, told you,” JingYu said and licked his lower lip elaborately.

Goddamnit. This man would kill Timmy with his teasing.

Timmy whined, then, moaned when JingYu sucked his balls one by one and spent some time on them.

Lying there with heavy breaths and a body that screamed for release, Timmy opened his eyes when felt a soft kiss on his forehead. JingYu’s face came into focus.

Rosy cheeks, red lips swollen from all the sucking, eyes hooded, sweaty strands of hair plastered to the forehead, JingYu stole Timmy’s breath away like he did that first day Timmy saw him.

Without any warning or reason, Timmy’s eyes began to burn. Fuck.  JingYu would probably laugh his head off if Timmy began to cry right after getting his cock sucked. Who the hell did such a weird thing in the middle of sex? The fuck was wrong with him? It was the happiest moment of his life. Why the hell was he being a crybaby about it?

But he still could not keep the emotions at bay. Months of loving the man secretly, days of thinking that he would never be loved back, moments of drifting apart, and here he was now, in the arms of his love, who was staring at him like he was a reward JingYu never expected to have.

Timmy touched the face above as his blinked his tears away.....unsuccessfully.

“What’s wrong, ZhouZhou? Tell me,” JingYu asked softly.

Timmy shook his head, not trusting his voice.

JingYu leaned in and two light kisses were placed over his eyelids.

“You are my baby boy, my ZhouZhou. I can’t think my life without you anymore. I treasure every moment we spend together and relive them when you are away. And you have nothing to be embarrassed about in front of me. You complete me, ZhouZhou.”

Timmy let the tears fall. He hugged JingYu with all the force he could muster up as his boyfriend traced the tear tracks with his lips.

“Complete me, Jin. Make me a part of you.”

XOXOXOX

Timmy exhaled as JingYu’s second finger joined the first one and breached the first ring of his anus. The sensation was not particularly painful but shoving something up the arse was not a pleasurable feeling either.

That’s gonna change soon, he reminded himself.

“ZhouZhou? Is it all right? Is it too much? We can stop anytime you want,” JingYu’s asked for the umpteenth time.

JingYu was probably the most careful person on earth. He almost used up half the bottle of lube to smear it around Timmy’s rim and had taken every possible precaution to prepare him. He asked for Timmy’s permission constantly and would have received a scathing remark from Timmy at this point if not for his worried expression that practically melted Timmy every time he saw it.

“I’m perfectly all right, JingYu, don’t worry.”

“But you do not look like it.”

“Tell you what, kiss me whenever you feel like I’m not okay and I’ll be all right.”

JingYu blinked at him for a moment longer and swooped in for a kiss. Timmy smirked into the kiss. He had the best boyfriend in the world.

XOXOXOX

Okay, Timmy must admit that there was a huge difference between two fingers and JingYu’s cock. When his hole lost its tightness a bit after JingYu stretched it using two fingers, Timmy had told him he was ready. JingYu was doubtful of course, but gave in finally. Timmy even refused when JingYu asked him to lie face down as for the first timer, that position was said to be more comfortable. He wanted to be able to look at JingYu when they both come.

But now that the head of JingYu’s cock trying to make its way into his anus and the intrusion taking a toll on Timmy’s already tender arse, he could not help but rethink his decision.

He had closed his eyes in acute concentration but opened them when felt a soft brush of lips on the corner of his mouth.

“Baby, you can tell me if it’s too much painful for you and-“

“If you’re not gonna fuck me right now I’m gonna chain you to the bed and impale myself on your cock and fuck my- OHMYFUCKINGFUCKWHATTHEFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK!”

Taking the advantage of Timmy’s enraged distraction JingYu had pushed all the way in and now he was sheathed to the hilt in Timmy.

Timmy’s face must have reflected the pain he felt with the stretching because JingYu anxiously asked him if he should pull out. When Timmy did not answer, still trying to get his breath back, JingYu began to retract his erection and Timmy sprang to life.

“Don’t even think about it. I’ll let you out only after you’ve come inside me, so, you better settle yourself and give me few minutes.”

As if to make a point, Timmy scratched at JingYu’s bum, hard. JingYu winched at the sting and pinched Timmy’s nose in return.

“We’re trying to have sex, my cock is inside you and here we are still arguing. So romantic.”

“Your fault,” Timmy shot back instantly.

“Why are you always so stubborn?”

“Because you love it.”

“God help me but I really do.”

And the kiss started. It began as something slow and languid which picked up the speed within the blink of an eye. Timmy sucked on JingYu’s tongue hard, unaware that the pain inside his arse was fading rapidly. Biting JingYu’s lips, when Timmy pinched one of his nipples JingYu ground his pelvis involuntarily and they both froze.

“I- I’m sorry. Did I hurt you?”

Timmy shook his head, “No, you didn’t, no, but....can you move a bit again? Slowly?”

JingYu stared at him and Timmy knew he was mapping his reaction.

“Are you sure?”

“Yes.”

JingYu kissed him one more time, lifted his head to slide his strong arm under Timmy’s neck so that his large hand would frame the side of Timmy’s face. Interlocking the fingers of his free hand with Timmy’s own, he began to move slowly, very slowly.

The first sensation brought another bout of pain but when JingYu stilled, Timmy urged him not to.

“Don’t- please, don’t stop.”

And so JingYu moved and with every push and pull the pain faded, heralding a sensation that started from Timmy’s lower abdomen and began to spread through his body.

“Aaah...JingYu...It...it feels,” Timmy eyes widen in surprise as he murmured the words looking at his boyfriend’s face.

“What is it, baby? How it feels?”  JingYu asked, fingers raking through Timmy’s sweat drenched hair.

“It feels good...very good.”

JingYu increased the speed while nibbling on Timmy’s neck. He had his right hand on Timmy’s erection now and stroked it with a pace that set Timmy’s entire body on fire. The sensation escalated from very good to divine. Timmy’s eyes drooped shut with the pleasure and he began to push back too, with his hole, with his cock; lightly at first, then sped up when his body craved more.

“Ah...ah...ah..Jin...ah..Jin...more...fas- ter...Jin...ohhh.”

“Feels....good...babe? God.. ohhh....I...love...you...somuch...my baby...”

Timmy had both of his legs wrapped around JingYu’s waist now, ankles crossed to keep the pressure on. JingYu’s left hand was clasped within Timmy’s right one. Timmy brought their linked fingers to his mouth and put JingYu’s thumb along with his own inside. JingYu’s pace faltered for a second and he moaned.

With hooded eyes, looking straight at JingYu who was looking back at him with a hunger that made Timmy shiver with anticipation, his swirled his tongue around the fat digit.

“If you keep that up,” rolling his hips in a slow, maddening manner JingYu said, “I won’t be able to take things slowly anymore.”

Taking out the finger but keeping it pressed against his lower lip, Timmy replied, “Who wants slow? Fuck. Me. Hard....babe.”

This was the first time Timmy had used such a pet name for JingYu and it felt right. Suddenly their age gap, which had always gotten JingYu in a flip, did not seem to exist anymore. In this moment they were equal, in every sense of the word.

“Fuck me hard like you’ve never fucked anyone before,” Timmy said and lifted his lower body to pull and push himself on JingYu’s cock.

JingYu’s control finally snapped and he gave a hard, really hard, push.

And it hit something inside Timmy that had him seeing stars. As if every nerve ending within his body were lit with fire, he felt like tumbling down into the void. His cock, still in his boyfriend’s grip, grew even bigger. It was a pleasure he had never even imagined could be possible. His entire upper body arched up, pushing JingYu in the process.

“Jin! Ohmygod, Jin! What- what was that?”

JingYu licked his cheekbone and grazed the skin under his jaw with teeth before saying with a smirk, “That was your prostate, baby.”

“Hit it again, oh fuck, hit it, do it.”

JingYu pulled the cock all the way out and pushed it in with a hard shove that hit Timmy’s prostate again. Timmy shouted in ecstasy and kept moaning loudly when JingYu repeated the motion a few times more.

And then JingYu’s body began to tremble, pace becoming erratic, and he bit down on Timmy’s neck hard.

“I’m- I’m near...I-m gonna come soon,” JingYu ground his hips a few more times before moving backwards, intending to pull out but Timmy grabbed his waist desperately.

“No! Don’t. No. Come in me, inside me. Please, Jin, come inside me.”

“Oh fuck...Baby..but...fuck..I’m so close...so good...you feel so...ohhhh fuck..”

Holding JingYu’s neck to draw him closer, legs keeping their connection intact, Timmy inserted his tongue inside JingYu’s ear and whispered, “Come for me, love.”

He never thought anything could rival it but the feeling of JingYu’s hot come pouring into him, filling his inside, making him full was something way better than having his prostate hit.

Timmy’s own orgasm shot though like a firework. His vision went bright white.

He felt empty. He felt complete. He felt like a feather, drifting away by the wind. Felt like a boat that was anchored in the ocean.

He felt owned. He felt free.

Having no idea how long he was lost inside this feeling, he came to the reality when JingYu murmured “I love you so much, ZhouZhou, I love you so, so much,” and tried to extract his limp body from him and he realized JingYu was pulling out.

“No, Jin...not now...stay for a moment longer,” maybe he acted like a clueless child or a shameless slut but he did not care. This connection with JingYu, he wanted this to last forever.

When JingYu looked at him with a puzzled expression, Timmy said again, “Stay inside me for a bit longer, don’t leave yet....please...?”

JingYu closed shut his eyes tightly, then without opening them again, snuggled his face into the crook of Timmy’s neck. Timmy held him to himself with a force that only came with fierce love.

They stayed like that, connected in the most primitive yet purest way, letting their souls merge together.

XOXOXOX

JingYu was a cuddler. Timmy was too, but he never thought his big, tough, quiet lover would like to cuddle so much in bed. JingYu’s upper body was draped over Timmy, head resting just under his chin. They had showered already. Things got steamy in the shower and Timmy came to know this hot perfection called shower sex. Finally, with sated body and jelly limbs when they plopped down on the bed, JingYu spent a long time tending to Timmy’s sore and slightly swollen arsehole, covering it with ointment. 

“How was it? Was I....good?” Lazy fingers tracing patterns on JingYu’s back, Timmy asked the question that had been niggling at him since they got out of the shower.

“You couldn’t tell from all that coming?” JingYu mumbled into Timmy’s skin, “God, I don’t think I’ve ever come so much in my entire life.” He rubbed his face adorably and groaned, “I feel like a horny teenager now,” he lifted his head up slightly to glance up at Timmy, “You’ve turned me into yourself.”

Timmy’s pulled JingYu’s earlobe playfully and buried his nose into those soft hair.

“So what? Is that a bad thing?”

“Yes,” JingYu mumbled again.

“Hey!” Timmy slapped his boyfriend’s arm, “That’s mean! And why is that a bad thing?”

“Mmhm.”

“What ‘mmhm’? Tell me why.”

“There should be only one ZhouZhou, no one else....and..”

JingYu nuzzled his face again without finishing. And so, Timmy had to urge him on.

“And?”

“And if I turn into someone else, you won’t love me anymore. What will I do then?”

Stunned to silence with this confession, Timmy stared down at JingYu, whose face was still hidden. An inexplicable emotion was welling up inside him. Now he knew how JingYu felt while calling him his “baby boy”. Timmy was younger, less experienced, often naive but he realized that there was an even younger boy inside JingYu that never got the chance to breathe due to all the responsibilities JingYu had burdened himself with. But now that their roles were reversed, it was Timmy’s turn to protect, to soothe his boyfriend who always fought to be the stronger one.

He held JingYu more tightly to himself and dropped a kiss on the top of his head.

“That will never happen. I won’t ever stop loving you. My existence has blended itself with your life. My soul has merged with yours. If you change I will change with you. You said I complete you. The same goes for you too, Jin. You complete me as well. We are the two halves of a whole and that will never change.”

JingYu’s breathing pattern changed. It became slow and deep. The warmth of it seeped though Timmy’s skin and entered his heart.

“It scares me...” JingYu started then fell silent again.

Timmy did not interrupt, knowing that JingYu needed to compose himself.

“I can’t breathe without you and it scares me.....” he squeezed Timmy with a crushing force for a second, as if afraid to let go, “Don’t love me so much.”

Running his fingers thought JingYu’s hair, Timmy kissed his temple.

“I can give you anything, JingYu, but not that. Don’t ask me to love you less because I won’t be able to.”

JingYu did not say anything more, did not release his hold on Timmy either. But they both stayed awake long after that, listening to each other’s beating hearts.

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A/N: Thoughts?😀