Sanzu stumbles around the halls of his dimly lit apartment, his hands gripping onto a bottle of beer. He can barely make out anything around him especially after he downed a few pills without counting how many he took. He doesn't care though, his life is a trainwreck and possibly overdosing on drugs wouldn't make it any worse. His legs give in despite him not making much progress before he falls onto the floor, his back leaning on the wall behind him.

"Haru you look like shit," a violet haired man chuckled as Sanzu opened his eyes to see him crouching in front of him.

"...Rin.. you here to laugh at my pathetic ass or what?" Sanzu rolls his eyes as Rindou sighs.

"I'm a dick but not that big enough to not care about you," Rindou stands up as he lets a hand out to Sanzu.

However the pink haired man refused and stood up on his own, he didn't need support, especially not from Rindou. Sanzu began walking back to his bedroom, previously it belonged to both him and Rindou. He could hear Rindou sigh before following along, he knew Sanzu had a facade of looking stronger that he was sometimes.

Sanzu opens the door to reveal a messy bedroom, sheets undone, dirty clothes scattered all over the floor and boxes stacked on top of one another containing belongings that weren't even Sanzu's. A disaster, just like the one living in it. 'Haru you haven't cleaned the place..?' Rindou wanted to ask but he kept it to himself.

He watches as Sanzu plops onto the bed, finishing the remaining sips of beer left in the bottle. Rindou just quietly sits beside him, not wanting to leave.

"...Rin.." Sanzu calls softly as tears begin to stream down his face.

Since young he had always learnt how to hold back his sadness, he wasn't soft inside and rarely cried even when devastating things happened in his life. He grew more and more apathetic and cynical, he found that there was no point in crying or getting attached to anyone. Yet he found himself crying over Rindou. He couldn't control himself or hold back the tears for longer than he already has.

"Haru everything's alright.." Rindou's words made Sanzu feel peaceful and warmth even though he knows he shouldn't feel that way.

"You'll never leave me... right..?" Sanzu asked as he looked Rindou in the eyes.

The violet haired only smiled and nodded, "Don't worry Haru, I'll never leave I promise.." There was a tint of hesitation at the end of Rindou's words.

Sanzu sits up and laughs to himself, it sounded more like a self deprecating laugh more than one of happiness. "You're a fucking liar you know that?"

"...Haru I know I'm a huge dick sometimes but I promise I'll stay with you-"

"Stop fucking saying that if you won't keep you're promises!" Sanzu shouts as the tears keep streaming down his rosy cheeks.

He takes a deep breath before he starts laughing to himself again, "I'm going insane aren't I Rin? I'm unbearable to the point even you left me. It's funny isn't it?" It wasn't a question, more a statement.

Rindou's face shifts to a concerned frown as he takes a deep breath. "I'm sorry Haru... I'm sorry I left you, I never intended to.." Rindou wishes he could hug Sanzu right now, yet he knows he's unable to.

After all he was dead , the Rindou that Sanzu pictures is nothing more than a hallucination from all the drugs and pain he felt.

"...I'm a wreck without you Rin, if I went with you that day would you still be alive? I'm a knight meant to protect the king but If I can't even protect my queen then am I really worthy to be Bonten's number 2...?"

Rindou places his hand on Sanzu's cheek, but he couldn't feel the warmth like he used to in the past when Rindou was still around. Sanzu wipes his tears away as he looks back at Rindou.

"Even if I'm not alive I still won't leave you. You know I'll be waiting for you in whatever depths of hell we ever go to, but you have to move on even if you miss me. I can't stand seeing you ruin your life even more. Promise me that please Haruchiyo?" Rindou smiles as Sanzu gives him a reluctant look.

"..I promise, I'll somehow fix myself.." he shows a small smile back.

"Good, and give the damn boxes to Ran or something the rooms mess as well." He says before Sanzu laughs as he closes his eyes and falls onto the bed.

"Maybe.." he reponds.

Rindou wasn't there anymore, he knew it. Sanzu knows he's still watching over him though, staying by his side no matter what.

"Oi Hajime, can I ask you something?" Sanzu calls out as he hears Kokonoi groans.

"What do you want?"

"Can you recommend places which have anti-psychotics...?"

"... You're insane, I'll send it to you later."

"I know you're a reliable friend!"

"We aren't friends."