(A/N: thank you misssuisidal69 for the request and also for giving me a title so I dont take a day to figure out what to call it, anyway there will be self harm, you have been warn. Also you're related to Lance. Also also, please listen to the hiveswap song I have its calming)

Shiro x Suicidal!Reader

Shiro's P.O.V:
(Y/N) has been acting strange recently, I was sort of a training partner for her since her job in the war is backup and look out, but recently her mood has change a lot the past week.

She's been eating less, I hear footsteps outside my bedroom door multiple times before, and every time we start training she would be the first one to get knocked down, the gladiator didnt even hit her. She was starving herself to death, I cant let that happen.

(old fashion time skip)

I knocked on her door, I grabbed some food for her since she wasn't at breakfast this morning. I didnt get a response, all I heard was crying. "(Y/N), can I come in?" I said with concern, my fingers started to twitch.

"Leave me a-alone." She said whimpering, she cant stay in there much longer. I banged on the door a little, then came out a scream, I need to get in there.

I was finally got the door, what I saw was devastating. (Y/N) was crying a waterfall of tears, a knife close to her heart, and rolled up sleeves with slits.

"(Y/N), STOP!" I yelled to her, taking the knife out of her hands. She whines and tries to get the knife back, but I picked her up bridal style and rushed her to the bathroom to wrap her wounds.

"GIVE ME BACK THE KNIFE!" (Y/N) whined louder, trying to take the knife out of my hands. I try to keep her still and wrap her cut arms with bandage wrap.

I look up at her face, her eyes became read from so much crying, she's breathing like she's dying, and she is. I need her to tell the truth.

"(Y/N), what were you doing?" I asked with concern (Dad mode activated) "N-nothing." She quivered, she's lying. I ask again, but more loud. "What were you doing (Y/N)? Tell me the truth."

Apparently, my voice startled her and she started to cry again, I flicked her tears and looked at her dead in the eye. "Tell me the truth." I said softly.

She finally spoke. "I'm not special, I never was," I kept listening, "I'm useless, my own brother doesn't notice me, im not taken seriously, everyone even you treats me like a child." Her words become whimpers

"(Y/N, look at me," I picked up her chin so she can look at me, "you are special, you're not useless, everyone has a role to play at war, we care about you, we all care about, Lance cares
about...I care about.

She starts crying again but it wasn't sadness, it was tears of joy. She pulls me in for a big hug, I pet her hair the calm her down. "Don't leave us so early."

(A/N: YOUR BOI IS BACK and she absolutely hates when homework gets in the way of writing. I know the ending was 'eh' but its what I got. I hope you like it and see y'all later.)