All the words below are totally based on the real life of mine for what I have already been through or stuff I am struggling with. To be honest, it took me a lot of time to decide to confide my own experience without hesitance and I did it, ultimately.
After hearing the news of suicides committed by students in recent days, I was reminisced my sickness of depression during highschool period. I could not tell that I completely recovered but at least I could minimize it by trying to bear in mind that I had to survive under every circumstance for no reason which I found it hard to accomplish.

Depression is definitely a nightmare to me, which constantly happened both day and night for two years or even usually I met it until now. In addition, the consequences of that sickness took a toll on my feelings and attributed to mild bipolar disorder which I am trying to fight against. Therefore, it is undeniable that depression hinders human’s mental health as well as physical health, particularly in the modern world.

Specifically, one day I woke up and I felt nothing. I didn’t know what was going on except for bringing the thought of ending my life. Then I cried, like a river I would say and I had no idea for the reason why I cried. Things kept happening every day and every night, constantly. As a result, I got sleep deprivation and hair loss or even weight gain. I used to write a lot but it didn’t work. I jotted down all the nefarious things and cried at the same time due to being scared as well as confused about what happened to me. Apart from that, I even thought about how could I kill myself.

But then, I met my remedy, a mature guy who could teach me how to get through all obstacles. He is not my boyfriend but I consider him as my older brother and sometimes my teacher. He made me realize how wonderful the world is and taught me to see my ego to accept it sincerely. It must be hard to describe but it actually worked.

In short, there are a lot of problems surrounding you but please do not leave this world. If you find any mental-related symptoms, please go to the hospital to be treated by experts. Besides, believing in yourself and seeking help from your parents are essential keys to address that sickness. Please stay alive or at least exist because you still have a chance to explore a magnificent world from little things nearby you.