Lisa

Why did Jennie have to be so brave, my heart raced as she laid her hand on my thigh. Even the slightest touch made me go mad, it was then I realised I've fallen so deep for Jennie. Then she asked me, to open up. It was like she was asking me to expose myself to her, I lacked courage to tell her how I really felt though..."Well, there must be something on your mind. Why don't we take turns in revealing something."

It was a great suggestion on my behalf, it slowed down the process and gave me valuable thinking time. She flashed to me her amazing smile, and just like that I could smile too. "Alright, first things first." She twisted around on the couch to face me better, this was really quite nerve racking. "I'll start with something little... I currently have a crush on someone you are quite close too." She says, while poking my upper chest.

My heart started pounding, she could mean me, surely she meant me. "My turn, I suppose. As you may have figured, I like girls." This seemed to be uninteresting to Jennie, it was a wonder why. "We really all suspected it, you never quite said it aloud to us though." I understood entirely, it was obvious I wasn't secretive about it. But I also didn't state it.

"Well, further on that, girls are only part of the equation." She nodded, understanding my indirect note at me liking boys as well. "Couldn't be me, they're everything. So no silly boys in the way of all the beautiful girls." She answers back, followed a nervous laugh.

Jennie

We had both finally gotten something very important out of the way. At least my feelings for her weren't completely off the table for her. "You know, all this truth telling. It's nice, but I'm going to get a little more serious now." Now this was going to spice it up a little bit, you see. I've always felt different for and around Lisa, and just like we never discussed our sexualities, we never discussed us.

"Go on then, what is it. Enlighten me." I said, and I honestly rolled my eyes. Her flirty eyes and tone as if she didn't know where I was going with this. "Acting like you don't know I like you, you're my crush. Surely you saw it coming." Lisa says, shaking my shoulders.

To be honest, I hadn't expected it but I did hope for it. "Lalisa Manoban, that's very good to know." Lisa tilted her head to the side, now intrigued. "How come?" She asked, surely she would just be playing dumb. The way she looked and sounded told me straight otherwise, she couldn't be this blind. "Is that seriously something your dumb enough to ask Lisa?" She rubbed the back of her neck and bit her lower lip, I feel like she is aware but she doesn't want to come off as cocky. Maybe dumb wasn't quite the word I should've used, but it was out there now.

"You can't blame me for wanting an answer." Lisa says, and she's not entirely wrong. Maybe she really doesn't believe any of this is given, obvious even. "It's just nice to know that the feelings are, mutual..." I was still hesitant, and there was no real reason for it. I did have our future in mind though, the very back of it. Us being who we are, where we are, with whatever rules. I noticed a shift in how Lisa was holding herself up, she slouched down. Was it relief?

"You alright?" I ask, it's a simple question. "Where does this leave us? It's so nice knowing I'm not in this alone but, It's more than us just returning feelings." She sighs, falling back on the couch. "Why can't it be? Jisoo and Chae are the only people who need to know." I say back, grabbing her hands in mine for comfort. "And with the slightest chance we let it on too much and get disbanded? You know the rules, same as everybody else. We might be good Jen, but we aren't that good." I knew what Lisa meant by that. We aren't good enough to be excused from the dating ban.

"Can't we say screw it, for one night." I say, knowing quite well her mind was made. I wasn't going to push it anymore, I could tell we weren't on the same level. Or perhaps she was better at being more responsible with it, with all the feelings.

Lisa

I start leaning in closer to Jennie, just for one night. I place a careful kiss on her cheek. I look back up at her, her expression is soft. I could tell she wasn't going to push anymore, knowing how I feel about it all. "You make one night sound tempting Jen, I don't want you to think I don't feel the same. It all just worries me." I say, all she does is think for a bit. If she's anything like me, she'd be overthinking. "Don't think about it too much alright." I add, honestly just to make her feel better. "I hate this, every bit of it." Jennie shoots out, and it strikes me with guilt. "I'm sorry..." Is all I could say, she has said it with such sourness behind her.

She's an evident mixture of sad and frustrated, I reach out to her cheek with my hand to cup her face. Jennie comes in closer to me, she kisses me. Not for long, but I let her. "Lis, don't let me do that if you merely pity me." She says, pulling back avoiding eye contact. I lift her chin up with my index finger. "I'm not." I say, then trailing small kisses down her neck. I feel her arms warp around my waist, she comes forward resting her head on my shoulder. I stop what I was doing to wrap my arms around her neck, a hugs what she really wanted. Needed.

"We'll figure it out Jen, alright? I care about you I'll make it work. All of it."

(Authors Side Note)

A shorter chapter, so hard to re-write this because honestly it was so cringe so a lot of it got removed and replaced with a lot less. This has been the first update for a long time so I apologise for people who had waited so long. <3