14 years ago

"What is happening to me?" I say as I stare at my hands, thinking back to what had happened before this man in front of me had taken my parents. My mind was spinning too fast for someone my age, and I could hardly handle it.

Jay kneels down in front of me, his dark mask in his hand. "I'll teach you, Raven. You just have to let me."

I look up at him, unclear of what to do. My mother's voice was ringing in my ears: run Raven! I wanted to turn and run far away from here, but something was making me stay. "Teach me what?"

"How to use your gifts," he states, his eyes locked on my own. His gaze almost had me hypnotized, and I assumed that that was the reason why I was still here. "What you have, Raven, is something that everyone would kill for. You have to use what you're given."

I shake my head. "What if I don't want it?"

His gaze turns sour, making me wince. Something about him was compelling, but another part of him scared me half to death. "I know you don't get it now, but you will. What you have can change the world Raven; that's all that I'm trying to do."

Change the world.

"I can change the world?" I breathe, thinking about how I had seen superhero's rise lately in Central City. I always wondered what it was like to be one of those people, and now I had the chance.

Jay nods his head. "Yes, you can with me. We can work together; we can make things right again."

I nod my head, sure of what I wanted now. "I want to help you."

"Great," Jay smiles, that smile hiding a story that I wanted to know. "But you have to promise me something first."

I was always great at keeping promises. "What?"

His eyes stay on my own, darkness behind them. Blue lightning continued to dance around his skin, but it didn't seem to bother him one bit. "You have to stay here with me. You can't go back to the life you once knew, do you understand?"

I started to nod my head, but after I thought about it for a moment, I stopped. I didn't want to leave my life behind. I wanted to feel my mother's embrace after coming home from a long day at school. I wanted to remember that joy I had felt every Christmas when I opened a new present, my parents basking in my excitement. I wanted to be Raven Black.

A single tears runs down my cheek. "I miss my parents."

Jay stares at me for a long moment, trying to figure out what to do with me. I could tell by his face that he was heartbroken to see me cry, but then with a swift hand, he rubs my tear away with his thumb. His skin grazes against my cheekbone as I sniffle, managing to keep myself under control the best that I could.

"You parents are gone, Raven." Jay lowers his hand. "You and I are similar, you know. I lost my parents too. I watched them get ripped away from me."

I was marveled that he knew the pain I was going through. "Really?"

"Really." Jay nods his head. "And the sooner you can come to terms with it, the sooner we can get started. I'm sorry that it has to be this way."

I needed to be strong. My father had always told me to be strong; to not let anything get to me. I could never figure out how to be strong when kids at school bullied me, but for some reason right now, I knew that I could be strong for him. I could be strong for both of them.

"I'm okay," I say to Jay, nodding my head. I stopped crying. "I want to do this. I promise I'll stay here and not go back."

Jay smiles once again, chilling me to the core. "You really are a strong girl. I can tell you'll be a good student."

The saliva in my mouth thickens as Jay stands then, stretching his arm out for me to take his hand. I contemplate for a moment, but then my tiny hand grabs his larger one, symbolizing an unbreakable bond I knew we were going to have.

I trusted him.

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Present

"We gotta get out of here," Cisco says, running around S.T.A.R. Labs frantically. "Zoom is coming."

Barry appears to be frantic as well as he turns to Wells and Jesse. "What about you two?"

"We're coming with you," Wells says, not letting his daughter have a say in the matter. I stare at Jesse as she gives her father a crazy look, but then she pulls him to the side to talk to him more about his decision.

Barry looks over at me next. "What about you?"

"I'm coming," I say, making sure I sounded firm in my answer. "I'm not letting Zoom take me again."

Barry nods his head before looking back up at Wells and Jesse, seeing that they finally made their decision. They don't get to speak before an alarm is sounding, indicating the only thing I knew that it could.

"Zoom is here," Wells breathes, slapping a button on one of the control panels to make the beeping stop. "We need to go, now."

Cisco starts to run. "Don't gotta tell me twice."

Chaos breaks out as we start to run towards the breach, which was only a few rooms over. We all stopped right in front of it before Barry was running first, grabbing Cisco and Jesse before running them through the breach. I wondered if it was my cue to grab Wells and run through as well, but before I could, my eyes widened when I saw a flash of blue lightning run forwards and pick up Wells.

I continued to play my part. "Put him down!"

"Wells is staying here," he says in his demonic voice. I never did like that voice, since it masked who he really was on the inside.

Barry was back then, staring at the scene unfolding in front of us. "Zoom-"

"Go, Barry," Wells gasps, losing air. "Forget about me."

We all knew Barry wasn't going to leave him here. I considered proving my worth to Barry by getting Wells, but that was before Wells pulled out a syringe and jammed it into Jay's leg. Jay falls down on one knee before Barry was running forwards and grabbing Wells, darting back into the breach. I needed to follow them.

I look back at Jay, my heart breaking for him. But I had to be strong. "No love, no trust."

His dark eyes look back up at me one more time before I was running through the breach myself, running through space and time. Images of the past, present, and future danced all around me before the next thing I knew, I was on the ground in another version of S.T.A.R. Labs.

"Close it!" Barry screams, and when I looked up to figure out what was going on, I saw this version of Jay step forwards and throw something into the breach, making it twist and bend in all different types of directions. That was when it hit me.

They closed my connection with Earth 2. They separated Jay and I; two worlds apart.

"No," I breathe under my breath, reminding myself to stay in character. I wanted to scream, to rip their hearts out, but I stayed calm. I was going to be stuck here forever. I lost Jay. I lost my only friend.

"We did it!" Jay shouts, throwing his hands in the air. Barry and everyone else smile and laugh as they high-five one another, more than glad that they just cut me off from Zoom. I hated seeing them happy. I vowed to myself that they would forget what the word happy was after I was done with them.

I scramble off of the ground then, staring at the sphere of blue light start to fade away. Jay walks up to it then as he grins, turning around and proud of his accomplishment. It was weird to see another version of Jay so happy like that; happiness was a foreign concept on Earth two.

"Wait, who are you?" someone asks me, but before I could even give an answer, I watch as I dark arm rips through the blue light, penetrating earth one Jay. His eyes go from joy to despair in seconds flat as Zoom drags him back into the breach, the ball of light disappearing for good.

"No!" I hear someone else yell, sounding exactly like KillerFrost. When I looked, I realized that it was Caitlin, tears rolling down her face. I looked back at where the breach had been moments ago and stared in confusion and rage. I lost everything. I lost Jay.

It was strange to watch Jay kill Jay. It was one of those things you had to really think about to fully grab the concept. I never wanted to see someone kill Jay again, even if it was a different version of himself. It was almost impossible for me to bare.

"Jay," Barry fades out, staring at the empty space. It was then that I realized Caitlin had collapsed into Cisco's arms, letting her sob into him. I put the dots together then; that she must have really loved him to be crying like that. I wasn't sure if I was jealous or outraged, but that didn't change the fact.

I see Iris standing there then, tears rolling down her face. She looked a lot different than the version on my earth, that's for sure. She must not be a cop here, because her outfit could say otherwise. Joe was standing next to her, staring at the space just like how Barry was. It was weird to see him standing there as well, since KillerFrost had killed him yesterday back on my earth.

"I'm so sorry," I say to no one in particular, but I needed to say something. The room was too tense not to, and saying that at least got the image of Jay being killed out of my mind for a moment.

"This wasn't supposed to happen!" Caitlin shouts in Cisco's chest, gripping his shirt out of rage. "Oh God, this wasn't supposed to happen..."

To see Caitlin crying was strange as well; KillerFrost never cried back on my earth, that's for sure. Hell, KillerFrost didn't even have emotions back there. Everyone in the room was either holding one another or crying; everyone except Barry and I.

I walked up from behind him, staring at the space with him. He was silent with despair and rage as his eyebrows dipped down, confused for the most part. Zoom just took his friend, but little did Barry know that he just destroyed the connection between me and my friend.

"Jay's death won't be in vain," Barry speaks finally, not turning to look at the rest of them. Caitlin's sobs continue to fill the room. "Zoom will pay for what he did here today, I'll make sure of it."

"But the breach is closed," Cisco says, still holding Caitlin. "We can't go back even if we wanted to."

Barry looks back at him now, eyes stern. "We'll find a way."

It was music to my ears. No, I didn't like the idea that Barry thought he was going to get back at Zoom, but I did like the idea of reopening the breach so that I could go back. I wasn't fit to live on this earth, and for Jay to send me over here was crazy. I missed home.

I missed Silver Trickster.

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I'm planning on having more flashbacks of Raven's past, so expect those. They're really cool/fun to write, so I hope to have quite a few.

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