My mind was a swirling whirlpool of thoughts, ideas, and fears. Being Silver Trickster usually helped eliminate all of those things, but being behind my mask also required Jay to be here with me, and he wasn't. He was back on my earth, probably trying to figure out a way to get to me, but there wasn't a way. According to Wells, the breaches were all sealed up and couldn't be reopened.

I didn't believe him.

One thing Jay had taught me was to be able to read someone else's fear, and Wells was covered in it. I could tell that he knew how to reopen those breaches, but the fear of Zoom getting his daughter again terrified him. He wouldn't admit that of course, so he lied straight through his teeth.

That's why all I could think about was getting him to open those breaches as I stared at Wells across the room. Him, Barry, and Cisco were all talking about something, presumably Caitlin's skyrocketing downfall towards grief, as I sat there across the room, arms crossed, trying to think of a plan. Cisco had insisted on running a few tests to make sure I was okay, but I've never really been okay since the absence of my parents.

Finally, Barry's eyes caught my own, sparking interest to talk to me. I could tell that he was trying to get his mind off of what happened a few hours ago, but talking to me wasn't going to do much clearing of his head. Jay was close to me too; only I knew a different Jay.

"Hey," he says as he walks over to me, leaning up against the control panel they had in the middle of the room. Cisco walked back into the room where Caitlin was sleeping as Wells headed back to where I guessed where he has been staying all of this time over here. "How are you holding up?"

"I didn't really know Jay," I lie, another thing Jay taught me well. "Well, I mean, this earth Jay or my earth Jay. I hate seeing people die though; especially when I could tell that he was your friend."

Barry nods his head, thinking for a moment about what I said before changing the subject. "I think Cisco set up a room for you to stay in for awhile if you'd like."

"So this is it?" I say, my eyes meeting his. "I'm stuck here forever? No going back?"

"That's what Wells likes to say," Barry says, determined. "But I'm going to find a way to get back. No way are we letting Zoom get away after killing Jay right in front of us."

I lick my lips slowly, folding my hands. "Thanks for the room; I really appreciate it."

Barry nods, starting to walk away. "No problem. Just let me know if you need anything else, okay?"

"Will do," I fake smile, it almost hurting to stretch my cheeks like that. I couldn't remember the last time I had seen myself in the mirror smiling a real smile, but it didn't really bother me. Only made me think.

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14 years ago

"I can't do it," I groan as I lower my hand, my concentration fading on the soda can placed in front of me.

Jay places his hand on my shoulder. "Yes you can, Raven. I know you can."

"I did this on accident the first time," I reply. "How am I supposed to do it on purpose?"

Jay sighs before kneeling down in front of me, turning me to where I could see his face. "You have to want it bad enough, do you understand? In order to do the impossible, you have to believe in the impossible."

"You sound like my father," I say before the image of him being flashed out of the kitchen goes through my mind. I saw on Jay's face that he recognized my pain, so I asked him what was on my mind first. "Where did you take my parents?"

"They're locked away in a place that has to stay a secret," he answers me, his voice lowering.

I rock back and forth on my heels. "I can keep a secret."

"I'll trust you with a secret like that when you're older," he faintly smiles at me, but I could tell that whatever secret he was hiding behind that smile was dark. A part of me wanted to know badly, but the other wanted it to stay a secret...to keep my mind sane.

I glance back at the soda can over my shoulder. "I can't make that thing come off of the table."

"Let's take a break from that," he nods his head, standing again. "How about we-"

Suddenly though, he gets cut off when a loud noise bangs on the ground, causing both of our eyes to flick towards the sound. I barely had time to see a girl standing there with blonde hair before Jay is gone, running over to her, mask back on his face. The girl stands perfectly still, not seeming to be afraid, her eyes on me.

"What do you want?" Jay says, but his voice was different. It scared me to hear him like that.

The girl looks away from me and back to Jay. "I'm here to tell you that I did what you asked; I took care of them."

I was curious. "Good."

"Who's the little girl?" the girl says, still not showing any fear. I envied her strength.

Jay dosen't even look back at me. "My new little project. Now leave."

The girl looks at me one last time before waving goodbye, but it wasn't an ordinary wave. When she moved her fingers, they started to disintegrate into the air. After her fingers, next came her hand, then her arm, and then all of her was gone, just as if she was blown away into the wind. I was fascinated that she could do such a thing on command, and I wanted to learn how.

Zoom looks at where she disappeared before ripping his mask off once again, lighting still bouncing off of his suit. He looks back at me then before running back over, but I only had questions to ask.

"Who was that?" I ask, staring up at him.

Jay hesitates for a moment. "That was Dust Storm; she's another metahuman, like you."

"What else can she do?" I ask, curious to know more. It fascinated me to know that there were others out there like me, only capable of other things.

"She can arrange and rearrange herself in any form, usually she goes with dust, and can control the objects around her, like how you have anti-gravity," he informs me while pointing towards the soda can, reminding me that I needed to figure out how to do it on command.

"Maybe she could teach me," I suggest, but Jay's face just stays blank as he stared down at me.

"I'm going to teach you; she couldn't teach anyone even if she wanted to," he says now, determined to make myself do something. He turns my whole body around now to where I was facing the soda can again, it mocking me as it sat there on the table. "Focus, Raven. Focus on it coming up off of the table."

I repeat I can do this over and over in my head, making sure it stuck. I stuck my hand out in front of me as I focused on all of the energy in my hand, directing it towards the soda can. For a split second, I thought that this was pointless, but then the can shot up into the air before I lost focus, causing it to dance off of the table and land on the ground with a sharp ringing sound.

"I did it," I breathe as I stare at the can. Then finally, I turned and looked back at Jay, a smile on my face. "I did it!"

Jay grins down at me, a dark menacing look that stuck in my eleven year old mind. Something about seeing a smile on the devils face felt odd, especially when the Devil was standing right in front of me; someone that I had to stay with until the end of time.

But that was the last time I really smiled; the last thing that really made me happy.

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Present

I hear a knock on my door before I look up from the book in my hands, seeing Barry standing there with two cups of coffee in his hands. I quickly shut my book before shoving it under my pillow, nodding my head for him to come on in.

"Get that shark problem handled?" I ask Barry as he smiles faintly, walking over and handing me one of the cups.

Barry nods. "Yep; wasn't really all that hard."

I make a face. "King Shark always scared the hell out of me back on my earth."

In reality, King Shark was just another one of Jay's henchmen. What was so scary about a walking shark with pants anyways? "He's not all that bad when you can run fast."

It's silent for a moment as I take a sip of the coffee, surprised by the taste. I couldn't remember how long it's been since I've last had a cup of coffee. I must have made a face, because Barry instantly put on a sad look. "Aw man, I knew I put too much creamer in there-"

"No, no, no; it's good. I just haven't had coffee in awhile," I say, pulling the cup away from my lips. Barry takes a sip from his mug as well before his eyes land on my mouth, making me raise an eyebrow. It was too late for me to realize what it was before he was pointing at the corner of my mouth, smiling to himself.

"You have a little something there," he laughs as I quickly wipe it away with my S.T.A.R. Labs shirt sleeve, embarrassed for some odd reason. Why was I embarrassed? "So, what were you reading?"

"Just something I found on Cisco's desk," I say, grabbing the book from under my pillow and holding it out. I never really read the title until now, and I realized then how nerdy it looked.

Barry raises his eyebrow. "You found this on Cisco's desk?"

I nod my head as Barry takes the book from my hands, flipping it over and fingering through the pages quickly. "Have you read it?"

"A long time ago," Barry fades out. "This book was written by the guy who killed my mother; Eobard Thawn."

I widen my eyes, remembering Jay telling me about Barry's past, but I didn't know that this book was by him. "What? I'm sorry-"

"It's okay," he hands the book back to me. "He was my role model; I had read that book forwards and backwards. He really was a smart man."

I stare at the book for a moment before shoving it back under my pillow. "It wasn't that great honestly. Some of his facts weren't supported fully."

Barry smiles at me, changing the topic. "Have you gotten out of this room since you got here?"

"Nowhere else to go," I answer, praying that he wouldn't ask me to leave. I couldn't go somewhere I didn't know; everything here was tripping me out and it was strange to know that people were here that I might know, but not really know. "It's cozy in here anyways."

Barry stares at his hands for a moment before looking back up, his eyes showing something I couldn't recognize. "I'd be more than glad to show you around Central City if you're up for it. You might be stuck here for awhile."

For a split second, I almost took his offer. "Thanks, but I'm okay for now. I'll let you know when I need to get some vitamin D."

He laughs at my last part. "Alright, cool. I guess I better get back to work; I'm sure there's plenty of cases I need to work on."

"Wouldn't want to get far behind," I smile, raising my coffee. "Thanks for the coffee."

He nods his head before a flash of red lightning is running out of the room, leaving me alone once again. I stare at the coffee in my hands before standing up, walking over to the trashcan and dumping it in it. I didn't like coffee anyways; not to mention how strange it was to get something from someone I barely knew for free. I appreciated it, but I wouldn't accept it. I wouldn't get close to Barry Allen; I just couldn't.

No love, no trust.

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So yeah I skipped the King Shark episode because frankly, it was quite boring. I didn't want to bore you guys anymore than this chapter did...so sorry about that.

Oh, and dust storm will become kind of a flashback main character, I'm planning anyways. We'll see how it goes.

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