i disappear into my head sometimes

and then the world cuts off

for a minute

you catch me every time

but what happens if you don't

what happens when you close your arms
instead of opening them for me

and then i fall without caution

i fall and i crash to pieces and you watch me fail and lose your feelings because you get tired of me getting sad all the time and you swear someday i'll make you lose your mind and you just can't waste any effort on me anymore and for your own good you close the door and my hand slips from the handle because you're out of reach anyway now and i swear this is exactly how we will fall out because i just fall too much too deep and you have just wasted all of that love on me instead of giving it to people who actually deserve it and i know that you have always been too good for me and we just don't fit because we're polar opposites and as my key doesn't fit into your door your colors are warm and mine are just so blue and you deserve so much more than what i will ever be able to offer you