Authors note

This chapter is hella short and hella filler pls bear with me djmd the next chapters are full of drama so i wanted to make this one about...uh...society's view on certain girls? I guess?

All women are queens btw. ALL.

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It's Saturday afternoon and my body can still feel his hands all over me.

I was texted by some of the girls I somehow call "friends" to join them at the mall. Although I secrely don't like them, I find their company somewhat bareable and essential to both my online and real life popularity. (Because it doesn't matter how pretty you are, you need other hot girls to hype you up.)

After taking photos to post on our instagram and snapchat, we go to Burger Kingdom. Natalie; the chronic instagrammer who's self esteem is secretly as bad as mine, takes a picture of her burger before digging im.

"You know that new asian guy Baekhyun?" Sasha the gossip (to fill the loneliness in her life, I can tell) giggles. "I heard he's gonna ask you out, Natie."

Natalie looks up from her phone, "OMG. What do I do?"

Kylie twirls her blonde hair around her finger, barely touching her salad in front of her. She may annoy me most times, but I do worry for her health. "Say yes when he asks, duh. And tell us the juicy deets later."

A group giggle that I don't join, because I'm the bitch of the group.

"What about you, Lola?" Sasha flips her raven hair over her shoulder. "How's things going with the Kim Taehyung?"

Immediately his name is mentionned a collective dreamy sigh is made by the other girls. And I don't blame themㅡthe man's hot.

I'm happy they can't notice it when my face heats up. "The fuck do you mean?"

Sasha rolls her eyes at my guardedness. "Oh come on. Everyone in school heard about the truth or dare kiss, and you two have been strangely close since then. So spill, are you dating the Kim Taehyung?"

It takes a lot to not roll my eyes. My dumb school should know by now that any boy I take an interest in is not hot gossip, because at the end of the day I'll dump them anyways. And although Taehyung is one of the best I've had, he still is but a flavour of the month. So what if we hangout more? So what if he understands my loneliness? So what if he sees through my walls in ways that no one else can?

It doesn't mean shit.

"He has a big dick and that's all there is to it." I shrug, but immediately regret my words when the group collectively "ooohs".

"You whore!" Kylie "playfully" slaps my arm, but I can feel the contempt behind it.

"Oh my god! You'e already had sex with him?!" Sasha should close her damn mouth.

"Yeah, why don't you say it louder, I don't think China heard you very well." I shoot her a glare. "And no, I haven't had sex with him, you morons. And Kylie, even if I did, that doesn't mean you get to call me a whore."

The group is silent for a while as Kylie desperately tries to mend her error.

"Ah...I didn't mean it that way, but you have had sex, right? It's just kind of weird, because you're still in highschool...but you act kind of, kind of, well...slutty."

"Ok, rude. Lola, like all women, is queen." Natalie defends me. Huh, I guess social media culture has a positive side to it after all.

"No one said Lola isn't queen, Nat." Sasha pipes in. At this point my burger is probably cold. And it looks really tasty. "Kylie's kinda right though. I mean, have you heard what people say about you? They call you the afro slut. Afro because well...you're blㅡ African."

I really was looking forward to eating this burger.

It had beef and everything.

"Earth to Lola? Hellooo?"

"Huh? Oh." I deadpan. These bitches be judging me like they're not living stereotypes of the female spectrum either. Natalie's the instagram star,Sasha's the gossip, and Kylie's the anorexic. I'm the slut. People judge us by that basis alone because it's the only trait they've beed led to believe girls like us have, and that it suddenly makes us evil.

We're all in the same boat, so why criticize only me?

"Yeah Kylie, I don't really have any fucks to give about your opinion. And Sasha...yeah actually I also don't give a fuck." I turn in my chair. "My burger's cold. Do you think they'll warm it for me? Maybe I should just take it home."

Kylie stares at me like I've grown two heads and Sasha looks like I offended her and her ancestors.

Natalie still be instagramming.

I whip out a black leather bag from my purse and their expressions become even more shocked.What? They don't carry leathers with them to pack food at restaurants?

"Everyone sees me as a slut because I'm comfortable enough to explore my sexuality and I have a bitchy attitude. But Sasha, people hate you because they think all you know how to do is spead stupid rumours. Kylie, you're the skinny dumb bitch of our school and the only time people talk about you is when you gain a little weight. Natalie, you're the arrogant instagram star and every girl secretly hates your guts because you unknowingly set unrealistic beauty standards. I'm not the only girl they hate on; they hate on you guys as well."

The chair makes a loud screech as I get up, putting the burger filled leather into my bag and dropping a couple of bucks on the table. The girls in front of me now hold unreadable expressions.

"So what you hear about me shouldn't bother you guys. Worry about what you hear about yourselves." I stop. "Oh and, Sasha."

I give her the look. "The word you were looking for is black. I find it funny how white people find it harder to say black than to say nigga."

With that note, I leave the fast food restaurant.

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Taeboy: girl where u @

Me : at the mall checking out clothes

Me : why?

Taeboy: wanna meet my brothers?

Me : whew chile slow down

Me : u only licked my pussy

Me : we're not dating

Taeboy : haha lol i know

Taeboy : but i may have mentionned you and now they wanna meet you

Me : y

Taeboy: sowi

Me : ugh

Me : if i come over will u eat me out again

Taeboy: nah lets have sex

Taeboy : and do it like dogs

Me : sksksks no u is virgin

Taeboy: imma boy i dont do virginity

Me : pfft

Me : hey taeboy

Taeboy: ye?

Me : do u think im a slut

Me : like be honest

Taeboy : hm

Taeboy : u have sexual relations with multiple men so yes u a slut

Me : oof

Taeboy : but that doesnt make you a bad human being

Taeboy : sex is normal therefore sluts are normal

Taeboy : u decided not to be ruled by society's judgement

Taeboy : and if society didnt have that inhibition

Taeboy : then everyone would be a slut too

Me : soo...im a slut?

Taeboy : wow, ignored a whole ass speech

Me : do u think its bad

Taeboy : nah

Taeboy : i think it makes part of who u r

Taeboy : and i like who u r

Taeboy : and i kinda like u too /message deleted/

Me : wut did u send

Taeboy : nah ignore it

Taeboy : i just said that being a slut isnt a bad thing & u should own it

Taeboy : i like it when u do