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I'm barelling through the crowd of sweaty and jumpy bodies, searching for one person in the midst of hundreds. The concert is about to start and people are getting more restless by the second. I don't know why though–the musicians performing are highly un-famous singers.

"Jungkook!" I hold my phone close to my ear. Even as I shout I still cannot hear my own voice over the wild shouts of other people. What the hell are they screaming for? No one's even on stage yet! 

Maybe if I knew the people performing I'd be excited, but I'm just the girlfriend of the guy's friend who dragged us all here because he didn't want to go alone. 

Screw Jimin, honestly. 

"Lola! Do you see me? I'm near the hot dog stall."

I look around, and true to his word, Jungkook is standing by the hot dog stall next to his two other buddies. Taehyung and Jimin.. 

One to love and one to hate, I guess. 

Taehyung sees me and wildly waves, pointing to himself and smiling like I can't see him. I snort at his adorable humour. How can someone so handsome be so goofy? 

I make my way towards them, pushing a lot more bodies (and possibly starting a fight because of my shoves). Once I reach them I give Jungkook the biggest hug.

He returns it and I feel completed. 

"Hey baby." He says, kissing me on the cheek as he  pulls back. 

"Missed you, Kookie." I saw him yesterday, but it doesn't matter. 

Love makes you addicted, it seems. 

"Bleeerrghhh. Disgutangg. " Jimin pulls me out of my lovestruck daze, and I pull back to glare at him. 

Jimin and I have been mutual enemies since the day we met, and it's not because of me. For some unknown reason, Jimin has made it his personal mission to make me feel as unwelcome as possible in their group. 

It doesn't affect me though. After all, I'm dating Kookie, not tiny dick Jimin. 

"Problem?"

 He rolls his eyes as if the sound of my voice alone repulses him. Who knows? Maybe it does. "No PDA. I'm allergic to that shit."

Taehyung snorts."Don't mind him. He's just pissy over the fact that he doesn't have a girlfriend."

All of us laugh, except Jimin, who goes red with irritation and whacks Taehyung in the head.

"You creep, stop smiling. You'll scare all the children away." 

I turn my attention back to my (annoying) boyfriend and scoff playfully. "By children do you mean you?" 

Jungkook's mouth drops open, as if personally offended. (It's hilarious how easy it is to rile him up.) 

"I'm only one year younger than you!"

"365 days, Jungkook. A whole 365 days."

Taehyung laughs at both of us, making Kookie pout adorably. I squish his cheek to remind him of how much older I am and he whines so cutely even Jimin chuckles. 

While Jungkook whines, Jimin taunts and Taehyung laughs, I take a moment to let everything sink in. 

One month ago if someone told me that I would be in a committed relationship I would have asked them what they were smoking (and where I could get some). It's surreal how quickly my life has changed just because of one boy–because of one boy I have someone to share my emotions with, because of one boy I understand what real friendship feels like. 

Because of one boy life doesn't feel so lonely anymore. 

This moment, this feeling, is nothing like what I've felt with anyone else before. It's not pain, loneliness or worthlessness. 

It's comfort.

: :

It doesn't matter if Taehyung feels some type of way about me, what he feels right now is only a rebound from Jessica. 

Just like the way I feel for him is a rebound from Jungkook. 

"I need to talk to Jin for a sec. Be right back."

Taehyung leaves me alone in his room, allowing me to take in the detail of my environment. On the couch there are fashion magazines, and I'm guessing from the cover page are old editions–no, antique collections. His table has lots of books and I think I see a drawing tablet. And his walls clearly state how big of an art geek he is. 

Unlike Jungkook, his interests seem more… creative? Jungkook was more into fitness and music, and I liked it, but something about Taehyung's just interests me? 

Maybe because I'm curious to know more about what he likes. 

'No, wait.' I push the thought away. 'Focus, Damilola, focus.'

It's not about getting close to Taehyung anymore. That plan has been scrapped, because obviously it's doing both me and Taehyung dirty. 

New plan : get Jessica to cheat on Jungkook with Taehyung. 

Once that's done, I can get back together with Jungkook, and Jessica will be single again, meaning Taehyung could easily sweep her off her feet. 

And this whole charade I have going on with Taehyung will be over. 

Ignoring the bitter feeling in my stomach, I get up and look for Taehyung's phone. I don't know how long it will take till he gets back, but I know I have to be quick.

I search through his WhatsApp, but I don't see any chats with Jessica. Instagram is the same, and Snapchat has cleared all their messages. Going through his images isn't in my options because I know Jessica would never send nudes. 

Nothing that can implicate them both is on Taehyung's phone. 

But I need something. 

As if God decided to just help me out this once, I come across a text between Taehyung and Jimin on Kakaotalk. 

(Kakaotalk? The fuck?) 

Yesterday 10 : 34 pm 

Chim chim :💁ok bro I've been pretending that i wasn't seeing it long enough 

Chim chim : tf is going on between you and Jessica? 

Chim chim : you both been acting weird for a whiiiiiillee now 

Taetae : wdym 

Chim chim : bitch dont play dumb with me

Chim chim : bc you will fail

Taetae : lel

Chim chim : 😑

Chim chim : bitch–

Chim chim : ugh 

Chim chim : you and jessie keep looking at each other like you got some secrets 

Chim chim : also when I was chewing Lola out for kissing you 

Chim chim : Jessie was acting like you cheated on her even tho y'all aint a thing

I sigh in relief. Finally someone else notices. 

Chim chim : so like, bro 

Chim chim : just be honest and tell me

Chim chim : i wont tell Jungkook i swear  

Taetae : promise you wont?  

Chim chim : promise 

Taetae : dont get mad

Chim chim : i wont? 

Taetae : ok so

Taetae : remember like three weeks before that big party at Jungkook's? 

Chim chim : the one where Lola fucked Jungkook? 

Taetae : ok one they didnt fuck they just kissed

Taetae : and yea 

Chim chim : whatever get to the point 

Taetae : so like before that

Taetae : lol 

Taetae : Jessica and I kissed 

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1 : 03 am

Chim chim : WHAT THE FUCK YOU FUCKING BITCH WHAT WHY WOULD YOU EVEN DO THAT AND JESSICA OH MY GOD I SUPPORTED THAT BITCH WHY ARE ALLL OF YOU JUST A BUNCH OF WHORES WTF 

Chim chim : AND THAT BITCH HAD THE FUCKING AUDACITY TO BE MAD AT KOOKIE FOR KISSING LOLA OMGGG 

Chim chim : YOU FUCKING SLUT ASS HYPOCRITE TAEHYUNG WTF 

Taetae : i know i suck so bad 

Chim chim : Jungkook doesn't fucking deserve any of you tf 

Chim chim : I CANT BELIEVE YOU WOULD BETRAY YOUR BROTHER LIKE THIS 

I stop screenshotting and send the pics to my phone, all the while with the biggest scowl on my face. 

"So when I was getting attacked for kissing Jungkook this fucking bitch kissed Taehyung before?" I chuckle darkly. 

Now I'm fucking pissed.  

Why did he keep this a secret? 

(Why does it bother me so much?) 

Clenching my teeth, I go straight to whatsapp, searching for the name of the girl who I now have a vengeance for. At first, I wanted to expose Jessica and ruin her relationship with Taehyung, but why stop there? Why not fuck with everyone some more? 

If I'm going to expose Jessica for cheating, I'm going to use more than one piece of evidence. 

Through Taehyung's phone, I text :

Taetae : hey, jessie

Taetae : could you like come over? 

Taetae : i have something important to tell you 

Just as I've pressed the delete button the door swings open. 

Oh fuck. 

I panic and throw the phone on the bed, screaming internally when it bounces off the wall and unto the floor instead. 

Why does life do me so dirty. 

Taehyung stands by the doorway, watching me awkwardly try to find something to lean my hand against only to almost fall. 

"Wow, you took your time." I try to look casual, emphasis on the try, because my hand is on my hip and the other is doing wild gestures. 

Taehyung looks at me oddly, but still laughs. "Sorry, Jin just gives really long advice." 

"Oh?"

He doesn't elaborate further and I don't bother asking for more information because my brain is still in panic mode. And I guess Taehyung notices my jittery state because he grabs my hand and pulls me into his chest. 

I try to ignore the warmth spreading through me as he strokes my hair. 

"You okay?" His voice is like butter. "You acting kinda… shifty."

I bite my lip, not wanting to lie but not wanting to tell the whole truth either. 

Okay it's time to practice what you learnt from all the niggas who cheated on you before. 

Only tell half the truth, and make sure that truth doesn't get you in trouble. 

"I knocked your phone off the table and I was trying to check if it was alright, but when you came in I got a shock and threw it towards the bed…and it ended up falling on the floor again because apparently I have no aim."

There's a long pause. 

Then he pulls away and immediately races to the side of his bed to find his phone. 

So I guess I'm in the clear now. 

"My baby, my love, my everything. Did she hurt you?" he madly taps on the phone, then sighs in relief. "It's fine, nothing broke. So glad I didn't buy that iPhone." 

"Sorry."

"It's ok, nothing…" he trails off as he comes closer, all while looking at his phone with a confused look in his eyes. 

"What… what's the matter?" Did I forget to delete something?

Taehyung looks up, giving me a smile that seems sort of guilty as he points his phone at me. 

Jessie : I'm coming over

Jessie : we really need to talk anyways

A victorious smile tries to break through my calm facade, but I don't let it. 

"That's good. You can finally get that alone time you always wanted with Jessica." I wiggle my brows at him. "Who knows? Maybe she's coming to confess her undying love for you."

I expect to see a bashful smile, or a blush, or any sign of excitement really. Instead I get an uncertain look in his eyes, like he's having an internal warfare. 

"Taehyung?" I furrow my brows. "Isn't this what you wanted?" 

"... I see the way you look at each other."

"This…" Taehyung frowns. "I wanted to hang out with you today, not deal with some stupid Jessica drama."

I frown. I mean, yes I agree Jessica's drama is fucking pointless but – 

"Taehyung, this is a good thing. I know you think Jessica only loves Jungkook, but I see it dude, she has feelings for you too."

He still says nothing and at this point I'm getting frustrated. 

"Tae–I know Jungkook is your brother, but consider your feelings too." Don't fuck up my plan. 

"You love her–" 

" No."

"Eh?"

Taehyung shakes his head. " No. I don't love Jessica."

"What?"

Taehyung finally looks up from his phone. "Look, I know I have feelings for her, but whatever it is, it isn't love. Maybe infatuation? But no, Jin helped me realise it isn't love I feel for Jessica."

"What?"

Taehyung chuckles at my dumbfounded state as if it's funny. How is this funny? 

" I'm a fucking confused dumbass, that's for sure. I couldn't figure out my feelings for you until Jin whacked me in the upside of my head."

What the hell is happening?

Taehyung takes a bold of my limp hand, tapping the ring on my middle finger. He bites his lip, contemplating. 

"Dami, I like–"

The doorbell cuts Taehyung off. 

"What the fuck?" He groans and rolls his eyes. "Okay let me try again. Dami, I li–" 

Once again, he is interrupted. This time by Jin's loud ass voice. 

"TAEHYUNG! IT'S JESSICA! THE FUCK SHE DOING HERE?!"

" Just don't hurt Taehyung."