SONGS

toxic vibes

1. heartbeat - childish gambino

Are we dating? Are we fucking?
Are we best friends? Are we something in between that?
I wish we never fucked, and I mean that
But not really, you say the nastiest shit in bed and it's fuckin' awesome

2. hard for - kevin gates

You're the only one that my dick could get hard for
I'm confused, what the fuck you want my heart for?
You're the only one that my dick could get hard for
I've been misused, what the fuck you want my heart for?

3. panic room - au/ra

Welcome to the panic room
Where all your darkest fears are gonna
Come for you, come for you
Welcome to the panic room
You'll know I wasn't joking
When you see them too, see them too

4. drugs - lil aaron

Spent all my daddy's money
Making sure my nose stay runny
I only say I love her when I wanna fuck her
We pop a couple xannies now she's taking off her panties
I only say I love her when I wanna fuck her
I only hit her up when I'm taking drugs

5. stay away - mod sun

Stay away from me, away from me
And I'll stay away from you
Stay away from me, away from me
And I'll stay away from you
I went through hell and back
With both your hands wrapped around my neck
I walked through the flames and
Just my luck, I was soaked in gasoline
And people like to change with the seasons

6. dread - nothing, nowhere

And now these pills got me feeling asleep
When I'm awake, can't get away
Even when I sleep I feel pain
Vivid visions in the past creeping into my brain
About to break, I just want to feel like I'm sane

7. imnotyourboyfriendbaby - 3oh!3

I'm not your boyfriend, baby
I ain't your cute little sex toy
I'm not your lion or your tiger
Won't be your nasty little boy
I'm not your boyfriend, baby
I can't grant your every wish

8. straight to my head - you me at six

I wanna be, wanna be where you are
I wanna feel, wanna feel twenty-one
Going straight to my head like you used to
Wouldn't change anything that we've been through

9. love it if we made it - the 1975

Oh, fuck your feelings
Truth is only hearsay
We're just left to decay
Modernity has failed us
And I'd love it if we made it

10. worst of you - maisie peters

You got me right in the palm of your hand and you know it
Oh, it's what you do
So let me drown, I'll be there with the band, hit the sea bed
All I'd see is you

11. strange love - halsey

Everybody wants to know
If we fucked on the bathroom sink
How your hands felt in my hair
If we were high on amphetamines

...Everybody's waiting up to hear if I dare speak your name
Put it deep beneath the track, like the hole you left in me
And everybody wants to know 'bout how it felt to hear you scream
They know you walk like you're a god, they can't believe I made you weak

12. the good, the bad, and the dirty - panic ! at the disco

If you wanna start a fight
You better throw the first punch
Make it a good one
And if ya wanna make it through the night
You better say my name like
The good, the bad, and the dirty

softer
1. cinnamon girl - lana del rey

All the pills that you take
Violet, blue, green, red to keep me
At arm's length don't work

...There's things I wanna say to you
But I'll just let you live
Like if you hold me without hurting me
You'll be the first who ever did
There's things I wanna talk about

2. young god - halsey

He says, "Oh, baby girl, don't get cut on my edges
I'm the king of everything and oh, my tongue is a weapon
There's a light in the crack that's separating your thighs
And if you wanna go to heaven you should fuck me tonight"

3. trouble (stripped) - halsey

Would you bleed for me?
Lick it off my lips like you needed me?
Would you sit me on a couch?
With your fingers in my mouth?
You look so cool when you're reading me
Let's cause a little trouble
Oh, you make me feel so weak
I bet you kiss your knuckles
Right before they touch my cheek

4. emerald - rini

Just like your mother
Your beautiful soul
Always cared for another's
Even on your own low
This time I'll be the one looking after you so

5. buzzcut season - lorde

And I'll never go home again
(Place the call, feel it start)
Favourite friend
(And nothing's wrong, when nothing's true)
I live in a hologram with you
We're all the things that we do for fun
(And I'll breathe, and it goes)
Play along
(Make-believe it's hyper real)
But I live in a hologram with you

6. save yourself - birdy

Heaven knows, heaven knows
There's no way to save us
Look at what we have become
Empty hearts that spare no one
Save yourself my darling
Just be gone by morning
Save yourself my darling
Kill the love that's dying

8. i come apart - a$ap rocky & florence welch

Always there to catch me, but I'm never coming down
Reconstructing all the pieces I left in my way
I guess you know, in control
Chaos I create
I come apart and you keep it together

9. a little death - the neighbourhood

Touch me, yeah
I want you to touch me there
Make me feel like I am breathing
Feel like I am human
Dancing through the night
A vodka and a sprite
A glimpse of the silhouettes
A night that they never forget

11. my body - lemin.

So I won't listen to my body
Not this time, no
And just by ignoring my body
I'll be fine, woah
I'm never aching for you, but my body is
And it feels pain for you
On all the parts you used to kiss
The spots you used to touch

12. give - you me at six

I've been wasting all this time
Trying to keep you off my mind, yeah
You off my mind, but no more
I've been wasting all these nights
Trying to keep you off my mind, yeah

AESTHETIC

It was Harry, in a way that only Draco had ever seen him. Harry, beautiful, but torn apart and angry and wrecked. Harry's soul on the page.

"Staring at something, Potter?" he lashed out at the dark-haired boy, who was sat, open-mouthed with horror at the scene that had unfolded. "Wanna lick it off my mouth?"

He was beautiful when he was cruel, but kindness morphed him from Malfoy to Draco in Harry's eyes, and made him ethereal.

"I hate you, I really hate you-"
"Come to bed, darling."
"I hate you so much."
"Come to bed."

And they collide, those fragile boys who look too much like their Mothers and act too much like their Fathers.

Then one day in late May, Draco did come home to him.