Hey Bryce. I know you probably hate me(because who loves me) but this paragraph toke me 1 hour to write and I couldn't waste it. How long has It been since the incident? 4 months? Well I want you to know that I still care.

I haven't moved on, okay? I'm still here. Alone. I'm my house, drinking a cup of coffee while writing this long ass message that I've been planning to send you for three weeks now. But every time I did, I would select it all and delete it. So now, I give up and I'll just wing it and send it to you.

Yesterday my dog Fito said he missed you. That sounds stupid, but I was talking about you, and I swear my dog started hollowing. He wouldn't stop. And every time I said your name, he would yip and scream little innocent barks. I'm super happy that you're doing okay. I heard about your girlfriend...I'm so sorry. I noticed you still like my pictures on Instagram and comment sometimes on my videos. I'm just too afraid to reply to any of your comments or even go on your accounts.

I remember waking up to your beautiful face. It was the best thing in the world for me, it was. Your hair was always a super big mess, but it was cute. And funny. Have you ever thought of what we would've been if you hadn't met Bella? You said I was the one, and then you met her. Apparently, she was the one. And then she cheated on you.

Okay I'm sorry for that. I'm probably making things so much worse for you. My heart aches right now after saying that. I'm so sorry. Just leave if you want. But trust me, there's a lot more to say: I'm in a movie.

It's a small movie about love. I have to kiss some girl who's never acted before. I haven't either, but I feel like I'm good at it. She can't remember half of her lines, so I can imagine she must be pretty bad at acting.

Last night, I puked up blood. The doctor said it was because I've been crying so hard. The puke that came up was so hot, that it burnt some of my throat, causing blood to come out of my mouth. I'm sorry if this is grossing you out.

How's your week been? Can you message me back and tell me?

Thanks!
Love, Ryan.