jieun.

it was the next day already. And something changed in me a little. I realized that i felt mostly down and quiet around soobin nowadays, trying hard to avoid occuring with him all day. It was tiresome but it just didn't feel right. i wonder myself too, why am i like this?

a deep sigh left my mouth as i closes my locker, it was finally P.E class. After all that effort to avoid him, i still had to face him in P.E for the entire one hour in just the field doing whatever related to physical education.

Miss Jeong was all hyped up to start the lesson, instructing the class presidents and a few more students to go fetch the balls for today's activity. "we'll start our warm up in 5 minutes! call the others to hurry up" she howled vividly as some students volunteered to go call on the others that are still busy changing clothes.

i felt my body aching a little for sitting too long in class as i started stretching a little, making loud cracking noises from the knuckles.

An eerie vibe came to the side as goosebumps chilled through. Tilting my head to witness soobin sternly giving a stare. Fluttering my lashes a little, having a weird feeling inside, "why are you staring at me like that?" i started off, snapping him to reality again.

he closes his hung-opened mouth but still kept his attention strucked at jieun. "...i don't know why... but you're inspiring me.." he suddenly cooed out, getting a weird glance from me. Is he some kind of pervert or phsycho?. Stepping closer towards him, "hey, soobin-ah" i alarmed him. "are you sick or what?" putting my palm over his forehead to check his temperature which felt mostly fine as i compared it with mine. 

"OKAYY! 2 LAPS RUNN! NOWW!" Mrs Jeong screamed her lungs out, instructing the class to move instantly. Most of the students groaned in tiredness, especially with the two laps of the huge and broad field.

Giving soobin another weird look before brushing it off and started my run, wanting to run away from him and the unwhelming emotions burning inside. The first lap was calming, especially when the cold breeze past by my whole figure and the fresh air filling my inside. Well, at least until soobin managed to catch up eventually.

The total disturbment of my calming moment. Picking up more pace as i sprints off to the front. Making fast reflexes as i pass through some of the students and also apologizing to some that were unfortunate enough to get slapped by my hair and got bumped at. 

Yet, even after all that sprinting soobin still managed to catch up, popping by the side with his sheepish smile. he sure is the school athlete. a smile crept up for a while with that thought. "hey, jieun-ah" soobin called as i maintained my breathe and focus in front. "why are you so pumped today? ya'know you usually would be calmly jogging by the back...." 

"i don't know.. i guess my adrenaline is rushing today for a run" i managed to mouth out between my pants, avoiding eye contact with him. 

nodding, "hmm... maybe" he mumbled, agreeing with my statement. We went back to jogging for the last half round. "hey, jieun-ah! there's something on your feet!" soobin shrieked out, startling me in terror as i jumped my way to remove whatever was on my feet. "hey! hey! what is it?!" i cried.

my jumping came to a stop after getting caught into soobin's arm, hearing a snicker came out. "it's nothing. it's just a dried leaf" he exclaimed. Dumbfounded with his gestured just now as i gave a strong punch against his arm, pushing me out from his embrace. He moan in pain before bursting into another snicker.

Taking a deep deep breath to inhale in all the embarrassment and patient despite now would be the perfect time to get back at soobin. But pride seems to be the main priority especially with what has happened these few days. Shrugging it off and quietly jog back to the meeting point to catch back my breathe. Laying my head low while stretching some knuckles.

"For today, we're going to play a game of knight and princess dodgeball but without the queen this time. I know you all are getting stressed out of school and work. So please find a partner and decide who will play knight and princess." she clapped, signalling the cue to find a partner in an instant. 

one thing for sure. i would want to avoid any interaction with him for the time being. Almost everyone got their partner and stood in a line. I was about to panic, but luckily my best friend came to the rescue as she pulled me by the wrist and jolted to lined up. "5... 4... 3... 2... 1..." Mrs. Jeong does her usual suspense countdown. "time's out! okay you four form a team and do a 20-push up now for punishment" nobody wants to joke around with Mrs. Jeong's countdown nor punishment... they might be rather deadly.

With the line formed, we were all split into two groups. Luckily, soobin was on the opponent's team. But what disturbed my mind was his partner, it was the girl he was laughing with when i last saw him during club activities. was she the one he confessed to? they look.. rather close... and fit for each other...

"hey lee jieun!" my best friend snapped me from my train of thoughts. I was thankful though. "who would doze off during P.E.? seriously.." she sarcastically spoke out before pulling me to our position. There was two balls, each for one side. Thankfully my dear friend here voluntarily chose to become the knight in shining armor to protect me-the damsels in distress. Thus, sports is kinda her thing so she wouldn't want to be the damsel yet instead the hero saving the day. (cue... nEW THANGS! NEW THANGS LMFAO)

But the idea of having to play with two balls is scaring me. legit. "don't be frighten... oh dear damsel, this knight is willingly to protect you till the end of the game because i am invinsibleeee!" she sarcastically quote out with an evil laugh before getting choked on her own. Catching her breath, "well that was embarrassing..."

"i wholeheartedly trust you... my knight" i snorted, following with the flow as i end with a curtsey.

"is everyone readdyy?!!" Mrs. Jeong alarmed us both. Rushing to our place as we calmed ourselves down for the game. 

x x x x x

so the game started ages ago and we're halfway through. And the most absurd thing happened, we were still alive and that got me shookedt. Usually i would be bad at dodging and flexing, but my body is all flexible today.

There were three couples on our side and two on the opponents. Soobin's is still alive too, they look happy... and close... as they hugged each other tightly... soobin is on fire today... they look great to-

"hey jieun!" 

a screamed caught me back to reality as a fast rounded ball came flying my way. My best friend couldn't protect me as another ball came flying from her view too. A loud thud went as it hits my arm hard, pushing with force as i tripped on my feets, falling off to the ground.

The game came to a pause as all attention was on me. Sure, the throw didn't count for hitting the upper body part. But it was obvious that i almost cried myself out. 

"hey, lee jieun! are you okay? are you hurt?" soobin came pushing through the crowds with force. Holding up my head, making direct contact with him. Seeing him face up close..made my inside crumble down... a soft weep hummed out from my mouth as tears formed in my eyes.

Jolting up from my position as i sprinted off from the crowd toward the nearest toilet. Pushing open the toilet door with force as i walked to the corner, facing the wall as i let all the tears falls down. 

why..why...why do you look at me like that?

punching the left-side of my chest with my fist hardly, "stop... stop... stop thinking of him..." i bawled out. "... stop beating for him.." 

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