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The trip to Seoul was smooth but it took quite long. Despite the trip taking forever, I enjoyed every minute of it. I took in the scenery that passed by my very eyes and indulged in the beauty. Majority of it were just big ass trucks covering my view; but the breathtaking scenery just took my mind out of everything.

Well, at least for a short time. The thought sitting at the back of my head just left when I was mesmerizing at the scenery. All of my problems, troubles, worries, they seemed so small; but only for a short time.

At the given amount of time, I thought everything was fine. I thought life was well and I wasn't facing any problems whatsoever. But it was only for a short time.

When the scenery was gone, these problems came back to me and just attacked me. Living in my head rent free; like, what the hell? I haven't told Yoongi or Hoseok, but every time I get so immersed into my problems and worries, I get panic attacks. I just start hyperventilating, my heart beats so fast, my chest aches, and I get shortness of breath.

What's happening to me?

All of this started a week after the "incident". I thought talking it out with Yoongi would make me feel better, but why does it seem like it has gotten worse? His thoughts and predictions just came at me for no reason. They might be predictions, but I have a feeling that, some of it might end up being true. And the only way to find out the truth was to go to Seoul.

The unexpected traffic literally took a chunk out of my travel time. The sun was already setting and I don't think I'm near where Haru is staying. I let out a sigh before I rested my elbow on the bottom rail of the window and placed my chin on my palm. As I started to get bored, my eyes roamed around in search of something interesting, when I caught a glimpse of a cherry blossom tree. From the looks of it; it'll be all pink and it'll bloom tomorrow. Okay, that's not my prediction. I heard it from the person sitting in front of me. They were watching some sort of news on their phone and they said that spring will officially start tomorrow.

Isn't that exciting?

After sitting in the bus for hours, all cooped up, the bus finally came into a halt. Enthusiastically, my body jolts up; bringing all of the energy stored inside me back to my system before I look out the window. Almost immediately, my energy levels seem to go downhill when I realize; we're not at the right stop. "This isn't my drop off." I muttered to myself before I heard a bunch of passengers whisper the same thing.

As the chatter gets louder and louder, a loud clap courses through the noise and gets everyone's attention, including me. I turned my attention to the source of the clap and saw the driver of the bus standing up facing us. He lets out a sigh as if he's gathering every ounce of courage he has left in his system before announcing, "Attention everyone. I sincerely apologize but you must leave the bus immediately if you want to catch another one." the chatter immediately started. Some muttering words to their travel buddy, and some muttering curses to themselves.

"Unfortunately, one of our tires has flatten because of the bumpy road we took." Oh, uhmm... About the "smooth" trip to Seoul... Let's forget that I said that, shall we? Apparently I was so preoccupied with the scenery that I didn't realize it was a bumpy ride. "I already called a repairman to come over and he said it'll take him a while as the traffic on the way here has worsened. So I advise, if you're in a hurry; please leave. You have the option to stay, but please keep in my, it'll take a while. Again, I sincerely apologize." The driver gave us a big apologetic bow before he returned to his seat.

Followed by that were mutters and chatter of never ending complaints. Man, these Karens can't take a break do they? Sure, it's unfortunate and infuriating, but what can we do? That's life. We just have to accept it and move on. Deal with it y'know? Life goes on either way, and there's no point of stopping - you'll just miss out on the great stuff life offers, so don't be a baby.

Says the guy who cried over a girl who left him to go to Seoul - okay, I know. I'm a hypocrite. Shut up. But that's the beauty of it. Through these sad events, you get to grow and be a better person. So, don't be afraid to challenge life or go beyond your comfort zone once in a while. Or, if there's problems, don't worry about it too much. All of these will pass someday. I'm being a hypocrite again, I know - leave me alone. What do you want from me?

I grabbed all of my luggage before I proceeded to step out of the bus. I need to be there at Haru's place by today - or tonight. Shoving my free hand to my pocket, I pulled out my phone, swiftly pressing the power button; and opened Google Maps, hoping that this damn app will actually lead me to where she is. I started walking and walking to where my feet and the map would tell me; occasionally sparing glances at what's in front to avoid running into a pole - or a tree.

After walking for like, forever; I stopped at a nearby bench and sat down to catch my breath. Shooting a glance at my watch, it was 9:53pm and I don't think I will make it to Haru's. I was only a few kilometers away, but I have to stop; or else my legs will detach itself from my body and just leave me. On top of that, I was thirsty and exhausted.

I looked around my surroundings and noticed that I was at a park. No one was around, so I figured to hit the hay here. I couldn't afford a hotel or even a motel. I'm being very strict with my budget, so I have no other choice than to sleep here.

I brought my luggage underneath the bench then placed one of them on the bench before I rested my head on it to serve as a pillow. This is uncomfortable. My frame was too big for the bench, resulting in my feet dangling from the end of the bench. The metal built of the bench was far from a bed. It was like sleeping at the bed, but without the mattress.

I bet that prison beds are way more comfortable than this.

I pushed all of these complaints away and shut my eyes, hoping that after a long trip, I can easily fall asleep. Tomorrow will be a brand new day. All of my sufferings will finally pay off tomorrow.

Tomorrow will be the start of spring, and I get to spend the whole day with Haru.

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