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「　twelve ; i'm sorry。 」━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━

Taking the advice of attorney Han, I took off the gloves and walked into the police station to close the case. They did close the case and they put lack of evidence. However, they did tell me that they weren't exactly closing the case. Since it just lacks evidence, any investigator, lawyers and such, can open the case. It's just closed for now. The words of attorney Han ringed back into my memories when he said that no one will take the case. So basically, no one will re-open this case so it's closed at this point.

Looks like attorney Han was right after all.

As for Haru's funeral, I decided to bury her body at Ilsan, since this is her hometown. Not a lot of people came to the funeral. Actually, Haru didn't have that many friends. Her death was a mere spec here on earth. Me, Yoongi, and Hoseok, were the only one who attended the funeral. Haru's parents were deceased so don't expect them to come.

The three of us stood before her gravestone, heads hung low, tears stained our cheeks while our sobs filled in the silence.

I couldn't believe that I actually doubted Haru. She wasn't cheating on anyone at all. I found her phone and went through her contacts out of curiosity before handing it over to the police as they considered it as "evidence". I scrolled through them and she wasn't texting any other guy. But the voice of the man during our calls remains a mystery. I still remembered his voice, and if I happen to hear that voice on the streets, I'll find him.

"H-How c--could someone d-d-d--o this t-to y-you-u?" I heard Hoseok sob out. "T-that m-motherf-fucker should b-be imprisoned f-for l-life!"

I felt a wave of guilt crash onto my body. Not only did I feel bad that I didn't tell the two I closed the case, but I also felt bad cause I wasn't able to give Haru the justice she rightfully deserves — but I was selfish. Afraid that my innocent ass will go to jail for a crime I did not commit. Either way, justice will not be served.

"Are there any news about her case?" Yoongi asks as I feel his gaze piercing through the side of my head. "Are there any leads on who did it?"

To answer both of his questions, I shook my head as I lowered my head in guilt; not wanting to meet the both of them's gaze because I know they will only be disappointed, especially with my next reply.

"I told them to close the case..."

From the corner of my eye, once I broke the news to them; Yoongi's jaw drops and Hoseok's head quickly snapped to my direction, confusion and other mixed emotions were evident in his eyes.

"Are you fucking crazy?!" Yoongi shouted. "Why the hell would you—"

"I was trying to save my ass!" I shouted back. Grabbing every ounce of courage I had, I turned to Yoongi and Hoseok and met their piercing gazes impelling my soul. "I spoke to an attorney and he said fighting for her case was pointless! And it'll only put me in jail because if I continued to fight for the case. I'll become the suspect because I was the only one there!"

Yoongi tears his gaze away from me and stares into the skies. He shakes his head in disbelief as tears roll out of his eyes. "If you loved her, you'll fight for her case and serve her the justice she deserves."

Not letting me talk any further, Yoongi storms off without saying anything else. Almost immediately, Hoseok spared me a glance and met his eyes. It was clear that he was really hurt with the rough decision I made. Haru was like a sister to her, so I knew he wanted justice to be served for her too. Without a peep, Hoseok shuts his eyes and runs away.

They don't understand... If they were in my shoes, they would've done the same. Would they?

I turned my body to Haru's gravestone and felt the guilt all over again. But this time, it was more painful. Guilt along with regret took over my body. I should've given her justice — what if I found a much better attorney than attorney Han? They would've helped me, right? But could I really find a much better attorney than attorney Han?

Finding a better attorney than him is probably impossible, so closing the case was the right to do, right? Attorney Han was right, they just want to get over this. I did the right thing. Right? I saved money, everyone's time and energy. But, whenever I look at her tombstone, I'm reminded of the guilt that I ditched her ass to save mine.

I fell onto my knees and cried a never ending river of tears in front of her tombstone. My heart aches, my breath shaky as I slowly begin to regret listening to that lunatic. My hands shoved into the dirt her casket was covered in and I held them tightly in devastation.

If I begged her to stay with me and never leave, will she still be alive? If I just trusted her and never went to Seoul, would she still be alive? If I arrived earlier she would be alive. On the lovely fifth day of spring, the season me and Haru looked forward to, they took Haru; the love of my life, my euphoria, my remedy, away from me.

"If only I could bring back the good old days..." I trailed off, lifting my gaze to see Haru's name engraved on the stone.

"You could've been safe in my arms."

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