(A/N: a month ago today poor child has no idea) :'(

i want to give up.

for all you say,

i'm starting to wonder

if you mean every word?

what am i doing running back

and slowly my head

is being consumed by black

and every time i see you

it's only worse.

because something will happen

and i will go home

and my brain will fall

into its hole,

and every time it is harder

to climb out.

something can be

as addictive as sugar,

but too much sugar

can be a poison.

Lauren 💛