doTheDarkRaysExist

𝅘𝅥𝅮𝅘𝅥𝅮𝙎𝙩𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙞𝙣' 𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙖𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙣𝙤𝙬, 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙚 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙙𝙧𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙖𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙙𝙄 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙖 𝙨𝙖𝙮 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙄 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙝𝙖𝙞𝙧 𝙙𝙤𝙬𝙣𝅘𝅥𝅮𝅘𝅥𝅮✿Charlene Alexandra Leigh. God, she feels like her parents definitely had a grudge against her.Charley has just moved from Texas to New York in search of a different life, a more exciting life, something better. Problem is, she just doesn't know what actually is a better life. Is it just she and her evenings with Xbox and Phoebe Buffay? Or is it pining over her hot boss from afar? Or just straight up telling this boss that she likes her, despite the fact that the latter has a lot of other things to deal with? ✿Comes in the hot boss, Evelyn Bridgers, tired of being defined as just "hot" and mourning the loss of a wife who committed suicide three months ago. She never actually knew what drove her wife, Lydia Ackles, to that point, and just when she's finally accepting that she herself must be at fault for this somehow two things happen at once:she finds that Lydia Ackles was having an affair, and she gets drunk and stumbles quacking into Charley's apartment, unleashing Lydia's secret on her.Now will these two women find it in themselves to just "be" together when everything seems to be working against it, even their own personalities? Will the love built in destruction survive?_______________________________________#55 in undiscovered #21 in lesbian romance #35 in lesbian love #6 in alexithymia#12 in gxg#1 in wswCOVER CREDITS TO @sarcastic-mess//COMPLETED//…

doTheDarkRaysExist

**𝙁𝙀𝘼𝙏𝙐𝙍𝙀𝘿 𝙊𝙉 𝙒𝘼𝙏𝙏𝙋𝘼𝘿 𝙐𝙉𝘿𝙄𝙎𝘾𝙊𝙑𝙀𝙍𝙀𝘿 𝙋𝙍𝙊𝙅𝙀𝘾𝙏 𝙁𝙊𝙍 𝙊𝘾𝙏𝙊𝘽𝙀𝙍** Our generation, more often than not, is branded with the title "moody", but really does that mean the things we feel mean nothing? We say the word "phase" to burn others' emotions with it, but tell me one thing that is actually permanent.I'm not saying that everything I felt while writing these was healthy, but it was true. As true as you can be in a terribly false mind.A poetry collection that mostly took place in the quiet hours of night in the mind of someone who actually loves noise more. _________________________________________𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘪𝘯 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘺 𝘱𝘪𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘴;𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘪𝘨𝘩 𝘱𝘪𝘵𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘮𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵;𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺; 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦_________________________________________𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐄𝐃 #1 in poemlove#25 in thought-provoking#17 in whimsical…

doTheDarkRaysExist

𝅘𝅥𝅮"ᴀɴᴅ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀᴅs sʜᴏᴏᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴋɪʟʟ ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ'ᴍ ᴍᴀᴅ, ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ʟᴏᴛ ᴏғ ʀᴇɢʀᴇᴛs ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ"𝅘𝅥𝅮𝅘𝅥𝅮"ɪs ɪᴛ ɪɴsᴇɴsɪᴛɪᴠᴇ ғᴏʀ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ sᴀʏ 'ɢᴇᴛ ʏᴏᴜʀ sʜɪᴛ ᴛᴏɢᴇᴛʜᴇʀ sᴏ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ?' ɪs ɪᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴀɴxɪᴇᴛʏ ᴛʜᴀᴛ sᴛᴏᴘs ʏᴏᴜ ғʀᴏᴍ ɢɪᴠɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ? ᴏʀ ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ɴᴏᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ?"𝅘𝅥𝅮-TS✿Title credits to her as well✿_______________________________________________________Alex calms down Mona when she's mad. He listens to her jagged, repeated sentences when she's anxious. He picks her up and dusts her off when she seems incapable to.Mona loves him, she knows she does. She has let herself be vulnerable with him far too much to actually doubt that. But what about all those times when she yells at him only because she knows that she can't ever be the perfect girlfriend he deserves?A good-natured advice, a discussion that was supposed to be healthy. And it all turns into a big nightmare when Mona can't control the things that come out of her mouth, so much so that she's bordering on being biphobic towards Alex.So now it's Alex's dilemma. What should he choose? The guilt of breaking up with a woman he loves who's clearly suffering? Or just . . . self preservation?//COMPLETED//#90 in anxious#91 in hispanic…

doTheDarkRaysExist

They're not so different, are they? If you've been in love with poetry you know exactly what I'm talking about.I believe that when you say "I believe/don't believe in God", you may not mean what the the other person means when they're saying the exact same thing.And that's how it works for poetry, for me"Is it the sea you hear in me, its dissatisfactions, or the voice of nothing" (Sylvia Plath) may mean something entirely different for you and me.___________________________________________Were I to leave one of them, I would choose a poem which is a poem, instead of a God who is nothing apart from being a God.___________________________________________COMPLETED…

doTheDarkRaysExist

those who are interested in stalking me, go ahead by all means.this is just super random, one hell of a "book" that gets touched by me when i'm feeling high af without going near anything that's weed.…

doTheDarkRaysExist

Distance has the power to enstrange even a child from her mother, so can it let romantic lovers last long? And how long can they even try to hold up?But.But maybe the distance that drove them apart can bring them close again when they are forced to live together. Who knows? Maybe one good can come out of the lockdown which is plaguing every life. Maybe the whimsical music playlists and highlighted lines can save a relationship. After all, beautiful lines are always the most powerful and music can save lives.There's a whole lot of maybes here.Emily and Warren wanted the music to end right away, but infinity is not here and the music only ends at infinity.___________________________________________________"𝐈 𝐬𝐨 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐡𝐢𝐠𝐡 𝐬𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐥 𝐜𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐞́𝐝 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫. 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬. 𝐓𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦. 𝐈𝐭'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭'𝐬 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧, 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐝𝐢𝐝. 𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐈'𝐦 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐢𝐭, 𝐈 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤."𝐕𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐬𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐥𝐲, 𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐞𝐧 𝐩𝐮𝐭 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐮𝐦𝐛𝐥𝐞𝐝, "𝐌𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐨."_______________________…

doTheDarkRaysExist

In this world, there aren't many people who can tear through the dirt and false assumptions to see you. They just don't SEE who you truly are.When you first love someone, you feel like, "Yes! This is the one person who understands me!" And it does happen truly.Question is: does it last? Because no one in the world prepared Julie or Oren to see each other as mere strangers after just a few years of thinking that they're going to be in love with the other one forever. _________________________________________ᴡᴇ ᴀᴄᴛᴇᴅ ᴏᴜᴛ ʀᴏᴍᴇᴏ ᴀɴᴅ ᴊᴜʟɪᴇᴛ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ɢʏᴍɴᴀᴤɪᴜᴍ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ɪᴛ ᴡᴀᴤ ᴛᴏᴛᴀʟʟʏ ᴜɴᴤʏɴᴄʜʀᴏɴɪᴢᴇᴅ, ʙᴀᴅʟʏ ᴀᴄᴛᴇᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡᴇ ᴅɪᴅɴ'ᴛ ʀᴇᴍᴇᴍʙᴇʀ ᴀ ᴤɪɴɢʟᴇ ʟɪɴᴇ ᴤᴛʀᴀɪɢʜᴛ- ᴀʟʟ ᴏғ ᴛʜɪᴤ, ᴄᴏᴍʙɪɴᴇᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀᴘᴘʟᴀᴜᴤᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴄᴀʟʟᴤ ᴏғ ᴏᴜʀ ғʀɪᴇɴᴅᴤ- ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ᴛʜɪᴤ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇᴤᴛ ᴍᴏᴍᴇɴᴛ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ʜɪɢʜᴤᴄʜᴏᴏʟ. ɪᴛ ᴡᴀᴤ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴏᴍᴇɴᴛ ᴡʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴤᴇɴᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʀᴇ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ɴᴏᴤᴛᴀʟɢɪᴄ ғᴏʀ ᴛʜɪᴤ ᴍᴏᴍᴇɴᴛ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ғᴜᴛᴜʀᴇ._________________________________________Julia Lynch and Oren Silver welcome the readers!COMPLETED.#40 in heterosexual…

doTheDarkRaysExist

The title promises a story, right? I'll give you one.No matter what we try, the not-so-good truth remaims that we can see the world only through OUR own individual eyes. We can never truly know what other person is seeing and seeking and thinking and feeling.I don't know about others, but this simple fact makes me sad._________________________________________He has a way of sayingthat you are the only person in his universe,when he looks at you._________She has a bad habit of assuming she's not therewhen she is everything that is there_________________________________________COMPLETED…

doTheDarkRaysExist

ᴅᴇᴀʀ sᴛᴀʀs, ᴍɪʟʟɪᴏɴs ᴏғ ʏᴇᴀʀs ᴏʟᴅ ʟɪɢʜᴛ ʀᴇᴀᴄʜᴇs ᴍᴇ, ᴏɴʟʏ ᴛᴏ ʙᴏᴜɴᴄᴇ ᴏғғ ᴍᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ʀᴇᴀᴄʜ sᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴇʟsᴇ's ᴇʏᴇs. ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇɴ, ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴇᴇᴛs ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ᴇʏᴇs ɪs ᴀ ᴘᴇᴄᴜʟɪᴀʀ ᴍɪxᴛᴜʀᴇ ᴏғ sᴛᴀʀ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍᴇ. ɪɴ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴏᴍᴇɴᴛ, ɪ'ᴍ ᴛʜᴇ sᴛᴀʀs._________________________________________Enjoy and let me know what you think. With love, Ray…