mom: *notices how dull i am today* hey jena you ok

me:...mmph...

dad: jena whats wrong

me: *moves my mouth like saying "eh"*

mom: are you still on your period?

me: no..

mom: any pains?

me:....no....

mom:let me know cause you might have a sis

me: mmhm...

does a pain in my soul hurt?

cause i just keep thinking like:

"what will i do if my family dies and something happens to roxy?"

"what would i do?"

"we're can we go to be safe?"

"i dont feel safe."

"why do i feel so disconnected from my family?"

"why do i want to cry so much?!"

"why do i feel like i lost motivation to live?"

"what would i do if all of my friends suddenly betrayed me?"

"what if everyone forgets me?"

last thing i want to do is have my parents see me cry or see my own reflection

and i dont want to talk or do anything 

what is wrong with me right now???