Christmas eve

i got to open my presents today because we have shit to do tomorrow

i kinda now feel like i lost all motivation to life

like i don't want to do anything rn

just kind of lay here...

idk why out of all days i want to juet curl up and die like a ant

(it's really weird how a ant dies. they die but curl up into little balls then stop moving)

but I'm not trying to be lazy

idk why...