I looked down. I felt bad that I couldn't ever really tell August that I loved him. It's not that I don't love...because I do! I very much love the blonde hot head I call my love!

It's because I'm mute...I can't tell him because I physically cannot say anything. It's like I'm a TV in a house, and the parents silenced the sound on me for eternity. I am cursed with being mute forever and August doesn't even know. He thinks that my throat has been giving me problems all my life. I just don't have the guts to tell him that it's not exactly "my sore throat".

I looked at the sleeping August that laid before me, his messy blonde laying over his eyes and his closed eyes. His eyes happen to be the lost beautiful color of a light ocean blue. When the sun is glistened upon them, there's no ocean that could out shine them, no sky could beat the beauty they hold within them. I manage to get lost in his eyes every time I look into them. Sure, he teases me about it, but he loves me.

He groaned in his sleep and his eyes slowly fluttered open. I watched as he ocean eyes scanned the room...and then they landed on me. His smile grew as mine curled. I rubbed my thumb against his cheek and I fell deeper in love for him once more. When he looks at me that way, I see the August that I fell in love with the first time we locked gazes. I remember I was being harassed outside the bar, then he he heard the noise while he was leaving. I could just remember that one moment our eyes met each other's

I was yelling at this man to let go of me. Of course, a drunk bum and their dumb attitude goes against me here. They continued to kiss my neck and try to undress me in the alleyway right then, and right there. Of course, a gun shot sounded off, scaring us both.

He pulled away for a minute then his body slowly tipped over and fell down, like a tree being chopped down in a forest. I stood there in shock, leaned up against a wall, with my shirt unbuttoned and my pants unzipped...i actually felt like I was violated for the first time in my life.

Now, that's the truth. I was traumatized for a while after that. August was there for me, even Springs and Scooter...before he died. Then, Springs and I distanced ourselves because of the times, but I'm hoping to see her again soon.

A blonde man around my age walked up to me and handed me a large jacket. "Put this on, you must be freezing." He gave me a small, but sympathetic, smile. I could tell that he felt sorry for me.

I grabbed the jacket and put it on. "Um...T-Thank you." I slowly pulled the jacket closer to me. He was right, it's god damn cold out here!!!

"Hey, do you need a place to stay? You can stay with me for the night if you want" he offered, "No strings attached, I promise." I guess he noticed the bags I was carrying.

"I-I..." I sighed, "Yeah, I kinda need a place to stay...I was kicked out of my house today." It wasn't even my fault. My ex ass of a boyfriend was mad that I was hanging out with my friends and not him most of the time. I'm sorry, but I can't hang out with my friends whenever I want to. They have been there for me longer than that douche ever was.

He looked shocked, and grabbed my bags. "Come on, I'll carry your bags. All you have to do is follow me." He started walking as I walked beside him. Wow, I already have a place to stay.

That was the moment I knew...I was starting to get a little crush on the man. I didn't have to blush to prove that I liked him. Yes, he did make me blush a few times...BUT ONLY A FEW!! Now, we are brought back to my present thoughts in present day.

August looked at me with a smile. "Hey sweetheart." His grip around me tightened and I smiled.

I kissed his cheek and smiled at him. He smiled back and rubbed my cheek. I took a hold of his hand and held it in mine. Okay, I need to tell him...I can't keep going in this relationship with this lie anymore.

I grabbed my notebook and wrote down in it then showed August. 'Do you know why I'm not talking?'

He looked at me confused as hell. "Babe, you know why you're not taking. Your throat has been giving you problems since you were a little girl. Why are you asking me this?"

I shook my head. 'August...that's not it. I told you that so you wouldn't get upset with me.'

August had moved closer to me and looked at me. "Babe, what is wrong? Now that I know that what you told me wasn't the god damn truth...just tell me what's wrong?"

I sighed. Here goes nothing...

I wrote down the words in capital letters.

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'August, I'm mute.'