Chapter 38 : Phase
The cusp of the peaceful fall, was nearing its footsteps at the lap of the retrieving monsoon. The shores had been decorated well with ornamenting flags and flowers, to welcome the Chuseok. And the little cottage resort we were staying at, was vibing in a lovely scent of rose and sandalwood.
Sunoo had decided to take off the day in the embrace of the nature in the little island of Jeju. I had once come here on a class excursion, the first time with Addie. And now at the vespering evening, I was staring at the diamond crowned marmoris of the torrynic waves that absquatulated the coast.
Seated in a little mess of paints, I was sketching a story of the scene I could see. And my picture was being blessed by that tall and lean silhouette of a Romeo, I wish I had.
The breeze was swaying along the trees and I was dancing my hands on my canvas. It had been ages since I took part into painting. Monetary crisis had pushed me into stopping all these but now that I have finally made it out for myself, I have started to find felicity in the delicacy of life.
"Sunoo-ah!" I cooed at the boy, sitting next to me and staring at the ocean.
"Hmm?" He hummed back.
"How's this?" I presented my artwork Infront of his eyes, waiting to receive a feedback.
"Hey! You drew a tesseract?" He chuckled at me. I pondered at his question. Where does he see a tesseract?
"Tesseract?"
"Hmm. Look at these stars, their constellation makes a tesseract." He drew with his finger, hovering over my painting. Connecting those stars, it drew a geometrical diagram of the tesseract.
His eyes beamed with a cheerful smile and glea in them. It felt like, if I was a lonely sky, his mesmerising globes were the twinkling gems of the night, that were shining like little pearls.
The night was luminous, with the full moon shining over head. Although, I'm unsure if it were for the moon or his presence that I liked the view more.
"Guys!" I heard Addie calling us as she joined our team. Soobin and Yeonjun followed back and sat on respective chairs themselves. They were on offs as well and we couldn't plan a greater reunion. If it weren't to happen today, we might not meet up any time sooner.
"Hoddup!" I stopped her body with a jerk as she almost tripped over the small crab that had a little cardiac arrest.
"Thanks..." She laughed like an innocent baby and that fiery red blush on her pale cheeks had Yeonjun laugh at her.
"Wanna sing, y'all?" Soobin rang the strings of his guitar. He passed me a guitar and I nodded in agreement. Setting aside my paints and canvas, I helped Yeonjun and Sunoo set up the bonfire.
"I need to get something off my chest
'Cause lately I have been upset
You make me wanna dress in red
And sing with my head out the window
I know it’s better to be cold
Better to wonder than to know
And so I'm gonna play the role
There might be some tears on my pillow
Don't know what I want
But I know I really, really wanna cling to you
Yeah my heart is innocent
But my body really, really wanna sin with you..."
"You have an endearing voice." Soobin was in the local church choir and I had seen him often on every Sunday, when we had no housing facilities. Heeseung would take me there. The church donated clothes, cakes and sometimes even would let us stay overnight if the weather had worsened. Soobin's voice would float in the air every week, he was the centre. Although, I never spotted Yeonjun.
"Thanks. I was in the church choir with Addie." He laughed at the nostalgic memory.
"You were also in the choir?" Yeonjun questioned with amazement.
"Yeah, I was. That's where I first met Soobin. Although I sang only for a year. I was 15, right?" My soulmate smiled at her beau.
"We met like 4 months hence that event." I reported. My story of life with her had so many twists on a rollercoaster ride that I could easily call it a tyrant's amusement park.
"Yeah. Not that our first meet was the best, but I can say, since then this girl has stuck to me like a lizard on my skin." She joked.
"I'm not the lizard on your skin. I am your skin." My brows squinted and frowned at her.
"Undoubtedly, your my epidermal layer." She commented, making Sunoo and Yeonjun laugh.
"Who's your best friend?" Yeonjun directed the enquiry towards Sunoo.
"Noona. And all of you. I mean, I don't have any other friends."
"Ooh... Noona is your friend... Sure, sure!" I did not understand the tone Yeonjun spoke with. It felt like mocking something they knew but I didn't. Must be one of their bro-code.
"What's that rally there?" Soobin pointed at a joint protest against the LGBTQIA+ couple staying next door in the other cottage. The two women were peeping from the window and hiding.
"They're allying against the two lesbian newly weds. Should we do something?" I replied.
"I will. I am a part of the rainbow community." Saying so, Sunoo got up and started collecting small stones, piled below the sandy beach.
"Me too. I'm also a part of the community." Said Soobin and grabbed a handful of sand.
"What are you two upto?" Asked Yeonjun.
"You don't need to do anything. The girls are enough themselves. Look at them, they have already sprayed them with pepper flakes. These are old school people, they'll assume them to be goddesses. And that's what they're putting to use." Addelyn voiced nonchalantly.
Keeping their rage a little lower than before, they glared at the mob. As much I knew, my soulmate was a polysexual lady and Sunoo was demisexual. But I hadn't known Soobin's identity.
I calmed them down and tried to divert them from the scarcely available group of people, who were being dragged by the local police for harassing two women.
"What's your sexuality?" I asked Soobin and passed him my untouched cup of lemonade.
"Dinosaur."
"The Fuck?" I exclaimed.
"Are you even listening?" Yeonjun poked his brother's cheeks and gained his attention. Apparently, he was still busy glaring at the mass of people who had now dissolved into emptiness.
"Yeah, sorry. What did I say?"
"Dinosaur..." Addelyn imitated Soobin.
"Gosh! No, I'm not a dinosaur. Yeah... What was I again? Wait a sec. Yeah! Yeah! I am an asexual man." Strutting much, he finally proclaimed his sexuality and I breathed a sigh of relief. Atleast, I wasn't using the wrong pronouns.
"I'm demisexual." Informed Sunoo.
"I'm Poly." Said Addelyn.
"Bi." Our avid stares turned towards Yeonjun, whom we had thought to be completely heterosexual.
"You're Bi?" Addelyn questioned.
"Yeah. I realised I'm Bi in 8th grade. We had this one dashing guy in our school. Two years senior to me. I fell for him. My first crush." Yeonjun narrated his story.
"Have you come out?" Asked Sunoo.
"Not exactly. My parents won't accept it. But, since I'm currently dating a woman and I love her more than my life, they'll just think I'm straight. I don't have the courage unlike Soobin." Yeonjun breathed in his pain, heavily. I have seen several people from LGBTQ get rejected and I honestly don't understand what problem the people have with someone's love interest and identity. It's not too hard to respect their opinions and pronouns.
"You came out? What was there reaction?" Addelyn asked Soobin.
"I did. I realised how uninterested in people and lust I was when I turned 18. All my peers had a partner, straight or gay, but I didn't have any. A girl tried approaching me, only to be rejected. They thought I was gay, and hadn't realised it yet. A boy tried that, quite like 7 years of friendship. He wasn't interested in me but wanted me to realise myself. Sadly, I rejected him too. And now, I just like being alone." We zipped our lips shut as he started to explain his story.
"My parents would often tell us, that we were growing up and they were getting older. They wanted a daughter in law, they wanted grandchildren. And hyung wasn't as loving and responsible, even a year ago. And I wasn't going to mate. I told them. They said that it was just a phase. It's not. I don't care anymore."
"Atleast, you could tell them. I couldn't do that. And I won't. I don't need them to know." Yeonjun hugged Soobin, who just smiled. I felt the pain they had.
"In 23rd century, they didn't have this much intolerance. You guys' works over the decades had climbed the Everest to feel like home to us. I didn't need to realise I'm Demisexual, I was always attracted to anybody I gained trust of." Said Sunoo.
"I learnt I'm Polysexual, when I felt attracted to guys and girls and then even a non-binary friend of mine. But, I thought I was Pan. I realised it only when I was selective over trans babies. I ain't attracted to trans men or women. Which is why, I couldn't call myself Pan." I knew about Addelyn, a little more than all of them.
"And I am... Heterosexual." I fiddled with my fingers, realising how I was the only one out of the rainbow in their LGBTQ household.
"We know. But you're our family too." Said Soobin.
"Why are we so awkward?" Another fortnight of seconds went by in silence. We were for sure the most awkward bunch of friends, more because of how hold we suddenly started feeling.
"We're out of words again. Anyways, I thought Addie noona was Hispanic but she speaks more English in a British accent than Spanish." Sunoo started another topic and I tried to push it away. Her story was worse than mine, even if it ain't physical.
"What's that you never told us?" Asked Yeonjun.
"Well... No one but Y/n knows. I am infertile and I may never bear children. I was involved in an accident." She started.
"The accident ended up getting my parents and me injured, mine being severe, and killing my grandparents and my dad's brother. I hit my stomach and partially damaged by left fallopian tube. The doctor cautioned my parents about my condition and advised to teach me to take care of my intimate health. I was 6 then. A few years later, when I was 9, I learnt that my left fallopian tube was completely damaged." She bit her lip and hid my face underneath by hands.
"My mum left me. They didn't want a defected kid. But my dad, he just couldn't let go his only child. My dad is also genetically unfit and probably wouldn't produce another kid if I were to die. He divorced mum. I haven't seen or spoken to my mum since then. I grew up with my aunt, dad's older sister, in a French household. Her husband was my gynec. My dad is infact British."
"But, it's not impossible to get pregnant without one fallopian tube. You always have the option of I.V. baby and even if that's hard, there are many babies wanting to have a parent. We can adopt, and I promise, I don't need kids unless you can." Yeonjun placed a kiss on her knuckles and I could feel my body build a Bear like hug on her body without any intentions. It was my reflexive response.
"I'm sorry to bring this up." Sunoo looked down and plastered a line on his lips, a bittersweet chapter of our life.
"Don't be. I've learnt to endure the endless storms I have in my heart. I hope, you learn that too. We know and believe your history. You've had it hard too. Just don't lose that smile you have stopped giving. That's not growing up. That's just hurting oneself. I know. I've felt it. It is indeed, just a phase."
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Hey there,
I just don't know how exactly I'm going to convey the following chapters
But I promise, it won't be as boring as this one.
This was just a filler.
Kay bye!
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