"Jason I have bad news. And please, don't let Jessica know. She will be terrified. Please. Unfortunately, I received a message from an unknown number...and it was saying that Jessica's dad made a car accident while he was on his way to the airport. The accident was huge. The car flipped upside down and was burning. Fortunately, people got my husband out of the car but his condition was terrible. The ambulance is trying to rescue him anyway, but he is hurt badly, and they think there's no hope... But I'm sure he will be okay. I'm sure he will survive the accident. The message I received also said that the person who crashed into my husband's car ran away. And the police still couldn't find him. I sent you this message so that you could try to distract Jessica today. I won't be okay, and she can't see me like that. I beg you not to tell Jessica. At least for today."

A tear escaped from an eye as I was reading the word 'there's no hope'. But how? He was totally fine! It's just a car accident! Will he die? No no no! I'm sure he will not die. I have hope. But doctors said there's no hope... I need to stop thinking that way. It's okay. It's okay. Everything will be fine. But I can't stop! He is not okay! I can feel it! I know he-

"Give me that phone!" said Jason cutting my thoughts. 

"I want to see dad," I said as I wiped my tears. I didn't realize my face was in a horrible state except when I saw my reflection on Jason's phone. My eyes were full of tears. My nose was red as a tomato. I didn't realize I loved dad that much. 

"Oh. You...you read?" asked April

"Yes"

"Jessica, we will all be with you. Don't forget that your mother said that she's sure he's okay. Don't worry. He will be fine" said April, trying to comfort me.

"I...I want to go home. Now." I said as I stood up. 

"Calm down Jessie. Calm down" said Jason passionately. 

"Don't tell me to calm down! I want to go home! NOW!" I yelled at him. Jason and April both stared shortly at me then looked to each other in disbelief. I know all the students in the cafeteria were staring at me, but I didn't care. All I cared about was dad.

"Sorry" I mumbled. "I...I just want to go home." 

"It's okay Jessie. I know how are you feeling" said Jason as he stood up. "I can tell the monitor you needed to go urgently."

"Thanks," I said weakly as another tear fell from my eye.

"We will come after school to see how are you doing. Be strong" said April with a sad expression.

I nodded and then April hugged me. I took a deep breath, then I started moving out of the cafeteria. I even didn't care to gather my books, I just cared about dad. Is he okay?

Thankfully, I got out of school. I was doing nothing but asking myself questions all the way home. When? How? And who?! Who crashed into dad's car and escaped?! My heart was beating stronger as I went closer to my home. When I finally reached home, I knocked fiercely on the door. 

"Mom! Open the door!" I yelled. 

"Jessica?" said mom as she opened the door. I could tell she has been crying and sobbing hardly from her face. It was obvious on her.

"What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be at school?" she said. She was quivering as she wiped her tears.

"I knew what happened. Is...is dad okay? Please tell me he is. I know he's fine! Right?"

 She fell to her knees, crying out. She started biting her lower lip and her eyes welled up with tears. "Mom! Please tell me he's alright!" I said as I sat beside her on the ground. 

"HE DIED!" she screamed. Those words I will never forget...

"What? You're kidding, right? IT'S IMPOSSIBLE! NO!" Tears welled from deep inside and coursed down my cheeks. They flowed down my face like a river escaping a dam. Moans escaped my lips through the suppressed sound of hiccups. 

"THERE'S NO WWWAY!! HOW?" I shouted. 

Mom hugged me and we both sobbed. I hugged her tightly and cried. I can't imagine my life without him. I felt I cried for years. I didn't realize he's so important to me. And as they say, you never appreciate what you have until it's gone. 

"Stand up Jessie. Let's... let's get inside." said mom with quivers. 

 I stood up slowly as I felt the wet hot tears fill up my eyes. I could barely move. Mom stood up after me, and she put her hands on my shoulders. We went inside and she closed the door. I fell to the ground and completed crying. I felt I wanted to cry until my death. Mom sat on a chair beside me and tried to comfort me.

"Don't cry, Jessica. He's in a better place now. He's hearing us. And I'm sure he's not... not satisfied by what you're doing. I'm sure he wants you happy.  He will not love to see you in this horrible state" she said with tears flowing over her red cheeks. I know she isn't strong, and couldn't stand his death. But she's trying to comfort me.

I looked at her and said "I know. He's in a better...better place. But, how could he leave us? How dare him? Is that what he wanted? I can't understand why-"

"Jessica, it's his fate"

Tears flowed over my cheeks. Mom stood up from the chair she was sitting in and sat down beside me. I looked at her, then she unexpectedly hugged me tightly.

"I don't know what will we do! How will we live? Your father was not with us, but he was doing everything for us! He was working, to make money so that we could live better. But he's not here anymore! I don't know what will we do..." she sobbed as she cuddled me tightly. Her lips trembled as she cried. I don't know what to do. What will we do? I finally ended the hug and said "Calm down mom. I'm already hurt. I don't want to cry more please...!" I muttered with pain.

"I know honey! But I'm the one who will hold all the responsibilities of what I-" paused mom. I looked deeply into her eyes and then she finally said "Of what happened to your father" said mom with quivers. 

I looked to mom, whose face was full of tears, then I stood up from my place and went upstairs to my room. I locked the door. I want to be alone. I want to cry as I want. 

"Jessica! Get out! You can't lock yourself in a room in this horrible state you're in" said mom as she knocked on my room's door. 

"Please answer me. Don't make me more worried than I already am. I know it's hard for you dear, it is also for me! We should get used to it!"

"I can't," I said. I heard mom taking a deep breath then she said "Please" with her soft voice. But I didn't respond. I really can't. And I have nothing to say except that. All I want is to be alone. I just want to sit in front of my room's window, watching the sky, and remembering my memories with dad. 

~~~~ Night~~~~

"Jessie please come out! That's dangerous for you. Please! " said Bella, my best friend. She's standing in front of my room's door for more than half an hour trying to convince me to get out.  

"Bella! I said leave me alone!" I said feeling quivers moving throughout my body.  

"Please, Jessie! That's not good for you! You can do something dangerous!" said Bella again, with her convincing tone. I didn't respond to her, but I heard her footsteps going. 

All I can see in front of me is black. My black life. I can't think of anything but dad. Memories. His care to me. I was stupid! I was very stupid! How could I think he doesn't care? The only reason he wasn't with us is that he cares! He was not with us for me! He was building my future, and I thought he doesn't care! How a fool I am! I don't know how I even think that way...

All I want now is to see dad. But it's too late. Too late.
And, who's that fool who did that to dad? Why? And why did he run? Isn't he afraid something happened to him? Doesn't he know he flipped dad's car?! What is he? A human with no feelings? He's not even a human! I swear if I know him, I may kill him! But... I'm sure dad will not want me to do that. If he was me, he would never think of that. He's kind-hearted, and he will forgive. I need to forgive too. All I want to do is thinking about dad.

"Twinkle, twinkle, little star... How I wonder what you are... Up above the world so high... Like a diamond in the sky... Twinkle, twinkle little star... How I wonder what you are..." I recited. I stared at the sky and the sparkling stars. This song, dad sang to me every day's night. Dad...I love you.

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Author's note:

Hey everybody! I hope you liked the chapter! I worked hard in writing it, and I've gotta admit, I was way too emotional while writing it :))) I was crying while I wrote it! Hehe. And...Get ready!! The story will be starting to get crazy!! Woohoo!

Anyway, Stay Safe!!!

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