Hello there!

Just a short information for everyone who didn't read the author's note: if you want to request a one shot, please do it in the chapter that is called "Requests"... this is the ONLY chapter where I take the requests! And if you already requested something but somewhere else, could you please do it in this chapter again?! 

That helps me to keep track of everything!

Okeee enough with that... I'm back with another Jesse one shot 

This one is for @starwars5555

I hope you like it

(~3300 words)

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Darkness. Nothing but darkness. Where was the light? Does it even exist? 

Cold. Everything was cold. The room, your hands, your heart. Where was the warmth you once felt? The love?

With your love, it all left.

And the feeling that stayed was emptiness, hate and anger. Everything you once were taught to never feel.

"Lady Arza!" 

You sighed and looked one last time in the mirror. Bright yellow eyes looked back at you. This was the new you. The new (Y/N)... to be more precise: You were Darth Arza

A smile appeared on your face as you walked out of the small room that belonged to you. A smile full of hatred but confidence at the same time. This was you.

You always wanted power but something stopped you every single time when you wanted more. More that, back then, wasn't meant for you. With the great purge that changed. 

All your loved ones died and you were numb. No emotions and no feelings. This time no one held you back from turning to the dark side. They were all dead. And so you did. You turned on your comrades, on the Jedi, the Republic and became part of the first galactic empire.

"What is it trooper?" You asked in a monotone voice.

"A new mission, Mylady. Some rebels were spotted on a moon near Bogden"

Bogden. Something told you that you knew this place. Then you suddenly remembered. Quickly shaking your head to forget the awful memories you followed the soldier into the conference room where an officer should brief you on the exact mission.

"There you are Lady Arza" the officer welcomed you "I'll come to the point directly, Mylady. Lord Vader thinks that this mission is of great importance and wants you to go to Bogden. On one of the moons we suspect some rebels. You shouldn't draw too much attention to you, that's why you have to go alone. Find them and show no mercy! This is an urgent mission."

You nodded as a sign that you understood. Then you walked out again to get ready.

While walking through the dark corridors the flashbacks hit you. 

It was like you relived the moment once again. The moment of the great purge. When order 66 occurred. You were in the Jedi temple when it all started. The screams, the fear, it all came back into your mind, making you tumble backwards. You were one of them. One of the screams and scared Jedi who were running for their lives while trying to save as many as possible. But then there was the turning point.

Death. You felt it through the force. The presence of your love disappeared. He was dead. 

As you later learned, his ship with ex-Jedi Ahsoka Tano was on its way back from Mandalore to Coruscant when the purge began. The ship crashed on one of the moons of Bogden. No one survived. 

You felt numb, everything around you became blurry as you fell on your knees screaming in pain while ignoring the slaughtering right next to you. The anger and hate took over and after a short time you took part in the slaughter as well. You hunted down the remaining Jedi in the temple, killing them without showing mercy. No one who crossed your way that day survived.

You pushed the memories aside again. This was not the time. You had to be concentrated on your upcoming mission and some stupid memories shouldn't cloud your mind. This wasn't you anymore. You were better now. The dark side showed you things you never imagined were possible. It opened you new ways and showed you the powerful side of the force. The side you always longed-for and you didn't regret anything you had to do to achieve this.

Finally arriving back in your room you just grabbed your lightsaber, your mask and all gadgets before hurrying to the hanger where your ship was supposed to depart in a couple of minutes. Due to the sudden discovery of some rebels, this mission had to succeed really fast and without any mistakes. But how many moons did Bogden have? A look on your holomap told you that it had 20 moons surrounding the planet.

You sighed. That was a lot for the short time you had but nothing you couldn't handle. You were efficient and smart. So after you got on board of the ship you got to work.

Where would rebel scum hide? What could be a good spot? You asked yourself. The planet itself wasn't a good home. Due to heavy gravitational tides the planet's surface was literally pulled apart. There couldn't be any rebel base. They would have to move around and be prepared for any kind of circumstance the planet offered. They didn't have the capacity of doing that. 

You crossed the planet Bogden off the list. But what about the 20 moons? They could have good hideouts. 

If I were a rebel, you thought. Where would I hide? Somewhere not obvious. Somewhere muddy, tropical or extremely cold. Very few people should be around and it shouldn't be easy to spot. That decreased the number of moons down to 4.

Bog moon of Bogden, Bogg 2, Bogg 9 and Kohlma where the moons that according to your thoughts were possible for a small rebel station.

Kohlma was also called the moon of the dead. It was covered with gravestones. Bogg 2 and Bogg 9 were covered in rocks and dirt. They shared their atmosphere once in a while when they passed close enough. That would make your search easier you thought. And last but not least: Bog moon of Bogden. It was known as a hideout especially for pirates or smugglers. It went through different phases. But most of the time, this moon was covered in ice and snow.

Very well, you thought. Now I only have to check these 4 moons, find the scum, get rid of them and then we have one less problems.

Your first destination would be Bogg 2 and Bogg 9. They were easy to check of the list. 

When you finally jumped out of hyperspace, you already saw the muddy moons. 

After some hours of scanning the moons and walking around, you decided that they weren't located on one of these moons.

2 off the list and only 2 more to go, you motivated yourself. The next moon was Bog moon of Bogden. After a 20 minutes ride you arrived. And you had a good feeling that this was the moon you were searching for.

"Now let's get to work" you said to yourself as you exited the ship after landing. You put on your mask and made sure that your red lightsaber was attached to your belt.

The door opened. A cold gust of wind hit your body and made you shiver. Now you were glad to wear a mask. As you looked around you saw nothing but ice and snow... it was everywhere

"Oh dear lord. I already hate this moon" you sighed. "they have to be somewhere" you continued "of course they won't jump out and  say 'oh hi dear Sith Lord. I'm a rebel. Please kill me' but why do they have to make it so -" you stopped your speech for a moment as you spotted something on the horizon  "hard" you finished your sentence. You smiled. There was something just a few miles away. "Oh rebels, oh rebels... I think I found you"

You walked back into your ship. You definitely didn't want to walk the few miles cause you knew that you would end up as an ice block. You started the ship. As you came closer and closer you could make out that the thing, you saw on the horizon, were the outlines of an old Republic attack cruiser that crashed into the moon. It was mostly covered with snow and ice but you will never forget how these gigantic cruiser looked like.

Then a weird feeling set in. Someone was there. Someone you almost forgot. But you couldn't make out who it was. Still you could bet it was some rebel scum.

With a bad feeling you exited the ship once again, this time right before the cruiser. 

The cold wind made you shiver that you were glad to have your cloves and cloak. 

Slowly and watching every step you took, you walked towards the cruiser. But something was weird. Something was off. Everywhere you looked were sticks rammed into the frozen ground with a helmet on top of each stick. They were clone helmets. The normal phase two helmet you would never forget. Some where colored blue while others had a special orange pattern. Then it hit you like a shock. This cruiser didn't just go down by accident. And the ground you walked on was a graveyard. There were graves everywhere. 

You tried to ignore your bad feeling and continued to find your way through the graves cause you still had a mission to accomplish. But at the same time you wondered what happened here and what caused the ship to go down.

"No (Y/N). Don't think about it" you slapped yourself internally. "Just find those goddamn rebels and get the hell out of here"

The snow crunched with every step. Some birds were flying over your head. And if your knowledge about birds didn't lie, then you could even spot a convor. Some legends say that convorees can have spiritual connections to people, more like force sensitive people. This one was beautiful and elegant but at the same time you could feel the gigantic force coming from it.

"Hmmm" you spoke, the evil undertone audible "could it be that some Jedi is hidden here... now this will get interesting. Let the fun begin" you laughed, your bright yellow eyes flash in excitement.

You were so excited that you nearly missed an important detail. You barely miss anything. You were a master in recognizing as many details as possible. That was your great strength. 

Nearly walking past the thing, you quickly looked back as you saw a significant detail. You walked back.

A gasp. This couldn't be. How is this possible? A silent tear rolled down your cheek but you quickly pulled yourself together. At least you now knew better.

The helmet in front of you was without any doubt Jesse's. Never in your life would you forget how this helmet looked. It brought you too much joy and love that you'd ever be able to forget the man you once loved with your whole heart. He was the one who always stopped you when you wanted more. When you wanted power. He loved you even though he knew of all the hate and anger that was hidden inside you. He knew everything but still loved you.

You stood in front of the grave for some minutes. At least you knew that he got the grave he deserved.

"I'm sorry" you whispered before turning away. Rage and anger boiled inside of you "I will avenge you" then you walked towards the cruiser.

No one would ever expect a crashed cruiser to be a hidden base but you knew better. 

At the latest, as you saw a man coming out of a cruiser's door with a blaster aimed at you, you knew you were right.

"Who are you?" He yelled at me 

"Your worst nightmare" you replied, your voice distorted by the integrated voice enhancer inside your mask.

With the force you brought him towards you while strangling him. He wriggled. Begged for his life but you, you just looked at him with pure joy in your yellow eyes as you activated your bright red lightsaber and ended his miserable life. Then you let go of him. The lifeless body dropped next to you. 

Killing him woke up your bloodthirsty side. Your crazy side. You wanted more and you wanted blood.

"Rebels, oh rebels." you began in a singsong voice but you couldn't finish your improvised poem as a woman walked out of the cruiser with four people following her. You couldn't see their faces but they aimed their blasters at you while the woman walked in front of them with two lightsabers in her hands. 

There you had your Jedi. As she came closer and closer your body tensed. You knew her from your time as a Jedi.

"What a surprise" you started unimpressed while your eyes narrowed "Ahsoka Tano. You should be dead" 

"And you are?" She simply replied

"Oh how rude of me" you laughed evil "let me introduce myself: I'm Darth Arza ... nice to meet you - again." You ignited your lightsaber. The four men immediately started shooting at you but you reflected the shots easily. 

"How rude" you commented. Then you grabbed one of the men with the force and pulled him towards you. You just looked at him for a few seconds before slicing your lightsaber through his body. Drop... another body fell lifeless on the snow next to you. 

It seemed as Ahsoka had enough. With ignited lightsaber she ran towards you. The lightsabers clashed together. White against red. Pushing her back you prepared another attack. It was filled with hate, anger and the lust for revenge. 

Lightsabers clashing together, heavy breathing, fast and strong hits one after another. It was a heated battle and from time to time the dominance changed but you had a decisive advantage. You knew her fighting style while yours completely changed during your training as a sith.

"Getting tired yet?" You mocked as she jumped a little backwards to get herself some time

"You wish" was her response before starting her next attack wave. Adrenaline rushed through your body and your concentration level was at a maximum as it has never been before. This was a real fight. One that challenged you. This time you gained the upper hand and forced Ahsoka backwards. With a precise hit with your lightsaber you even managed to make her lose her shoto. Now she had to change her fighting style which wasn't easy. Her acrobatic abilities took over and she tried to kick you with her leg while blocking another attack. Agile as she's always been, she didn't make it easy for you.

And then out of the sudden she managed to make a hit. As you just ran towards her for another attack she quickly ducked and hit you in the face. This disturbance knocked the mask off your face.

Your yellow eyes stared into her blue ones. 

"(Y/N)?", she asked shocked as she recognized you

"(Y/N) doesn't exist anymore. She's dead. I, Darth Arza, am now stronger and more powerful than ever before. (Y/N) was weak" you spat out

Another call for your former name made you look up. One of the boys dropped their blaster in disbelief.

"(Y/N)? Is that you?", it was a clones voice. You would never forget the sound of the voice.

"Do I speak Wookie?" You yelled angry. "I'm Darth Arza and now you will regret calling me that, traitor" 

You ignited your lightsaber again and force chocked the clone that was still 30 meters away from you

"No (Y/N)!" Ahsoka stepped between you two "you don't want to do this. Believe me"

"Since when do you know what is best for me?" You laughed sarcastically "last time I checked, you were responsible for my loves death. You don't have a right to talk to me as if you know what I feel. And now I will avenge his death" 

Then you pulled the clone you still force chocked towards you. Trying to get air he tried to talk but only some words escaped during his rasping breath. "J-Je .... plea ... me" 

Continuing the torture you walked towards him and talked "when I'm done with him, I won't show mercy to any of you. This is the real power of ... JESSE?!" You yelped tumbling backwards.

The clone, more like Jesse, fell on the ground coughing and grasping for air.

What the hell?! How is that possible? He is dead ... you felt it through the force AND you found his grave... how is it possible that he's very much alive in front of you?

Before you could pull yourself together you felt a strong hit on the back of your head. You looked up and saw Captain Rex before falling to the ground unconscious....

The next time you woke up you were in a cell. Your hands were trapped inside special handcuffs so that you couldn't use the force to kill any more people. You definitely would if you had the chance. The next thing you realized: it was freezing cold inside your cell. Hanging from the ceiling with your hands through these awful handcuffs, you couldn't even move to warm yourself up. No one was there. You were alone. 

What the hell happened? Was that really Jesse? And how was that even possible? You felt his death. You felt his life form disappear during the purge

"I bet you ask yourself how that's possible" it was Jesse

"Is that really you?" You asked shy

"It is my dear (Y/N)... look was has become of you. Your beautiful eyes, your pretty face and most important: your awesome character... what have you become? I don't recognize you, my dear."

Tears rolled down your face. It really was him but how and why didn't you know he was still alive. You would have searched the whole galaxy for him and only stopped when you found him. He could have made a difference. He always made a difference. 

He was and still is the love of your life and you would do anything for him

But you didn't say any of that except you just asked 

"How? I thought you were dead. I felt you dying. I felt it through the force."

"That I can't answer" he responded. "All my memories from that day are still clouded. The last thing I do remember is order 66 and that our ship went down on this moon. Then the next time I woke up next to Ahsoka and Rex who took out my inhibitor chip. Darling. They saved my life. They saved me from the brutal empire, from the pain to see you turn into a sith and they made my life better ever since"

Tears rolled down your cheeks. He hated what you have become and therefore he hated you. More and more tears followed up to the point where you were just a sobbing mess hung up on a wall

"Hey come on sweetheart" he came into the cell. "You know I would normally enjoy the sight of you tied up to a wall" he tried to make you laugh with a stupid joke. But it worked.

You laughed. Like you haven't in a long time. God how you have missed that and how you have missed this idiot. You were an emotional wreck stuck between laughing and crying at the same time. It looked horrible but you couldn't care less.

Jesse was here. Jesse was alive. That was all that counted

"Darling, I hate to see you like that. you are making me cry as well" 

"J- Jesse ... ca - can you huggg m ... me" you sobbed "Everything for you darling" 

He came closer and closer. Why are you getting nervous? You internally slapped yourself... then you could finally feel his warm arms wrap around you. He was hugging you tight as if he never wanted to let you go. The hug made you feel wanted, loved and safe for the first time in a while... this was it! This was what you wanted for the rest of your life. No matter what the price for this is... you would do everything. Everything to spend the rest of your life with the most perfect human being you have ever known.

"Come on darling. It's time to go home"

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Soooo that's it... idk I feel like the end is kinda rushed (I really wanted to finally finish this one shot.... it took sooo long) but besides that I kinda like the result...

Short information: for everyone who has some deeper knowledge about the different moons I described in this chapter (yes... they do really exist) I changed the attributes and significant features of 'Bog moon of Bogden' so it would fit the story... 'Bog moon of Bogden' is originally a really swamp moon 

And a theory that I read and used in this chapter ( it's not confirmed or anything! It's just a theory): I did some research to find some information for this chapter. I wanted to find out where Ahsoka and Rex had the crash during order 66 cause the only thing we get to know during the series is that they crashed on a moon. And here is the theory that I used: They were on their way back from Mandalore to Coruscant so they probably took Hydian Way (it's one of the main super-hyper routes of the Republic) when order 66 occurred and they crashed. And if we look at the planets that are extremely close to the Hydian Way (because the atmosphere and gravity caught  Ahsoka's ship when they got out of hyperspace due to Maul destroying the hyperdrive) there are only a few of them left. And one of them is Bogden. So it could be that Ahsoka and Rex crashed on one of the moons of the planet Bogden. (But we don't know which moon it could be so I just took one of the many that I found :) )

Ok thank you for attending my short fangirl talk.... I saw a video with all these information and it kinda made sense. But as I stated nothing of this is confirmed or anything.

Just wanted to share all the useless information in my head :) 

I hope you enjoyed the chapter! Please let me know!

Have a nice day

~C