There he was, on my doorstep.

"Jin, I know you're home. Please open up..."

As much as I wanted to, I couldn't. This back and forth has taken it's toll on me and I was a mess. I had on black boxers with his oversized hoodie that he left behind on. My eyes were red and puffy and my hair was fluffed in all the wrong places. I decided it was best to let him see what he's doing to me. What he always did to me after he left.

With an internal groan I unlocked the door and slowly opened it.

"What do you want, Namjoon?" I said softly, almost inaudible.

I saw a look of the all too familiar sadness and regret run through his dark eyes.

"Jin..." He caressed my face in between his large hands "this is because of me, right?"

I didn't respond. He didn't need my answer to confirm that he was indeed correct.

"I'm so sorry, Princess. I promise I won't ev-" "Save it."

I stepped away from his hold and faced his hurt expression

"I'm so tired of it, I'm so tired of you thinking of this as some sick game. I'm done, Namjoon. You let go of me for the last time."

Before I could slam the door on his face he shoved me into the wall and attacked my lips with his, he kissed away my left over tears and pulled away.

"You of all people should know how much of a mess I am. I'm a monster. I'm not trustworthy. I will never be loved by anyone except you, because I am too much of a tornado. Too much of a risk. Seokjin, I realize now that I lost the only reason to stay sane, or to even stay at all." Namjoon sighed and rested his face into the crook of my neck "What I'm trying to say is that- I'm leaving. I knew you wouldn't take me back, but it was worth a shot. I want you to know that I will always love you, but I know how intoxicating I am to you. I'm setting you free from my storm, Princess."

My heart fell, it hurt. I couldn't speak or move. I would never find someone like Namjoon again I can't just let him leave.

When I realized what I wanted, it was too late. I was engulfed in my thoughts for too long. Because when I came back to reality, he was gone. He left, and took my heart along with him.