Aaron's perspective 🤍

It's October now, the wind is getting colder, days have been getting busier and things with Ellie have been... okay? We've been reading together in the library almost everyday now and it's becoming the thing I look forward to the most. Unfortunately... I can't say the same for her.

She's been upset a lot. Maybe it's because Liv isn't back from vacation yet? She seemed fine at the start of the year though... but now, she doesn't seem quite like herself. Maybe it's her family? I don't know.

Well, at least she's still talking to me.

"I missed you, baker." I joke as I sat down next to her.

"Not you again." She says as she rolls her eyes.

I laugh.

Maybe it's just me... but when we talk, it feels like I'm constantly pissing her off. I know this is how our relationship works but I can't help but wonder if I'm doing something wrong.

She picks up a book and starts reading, but it's clear she's not reading. Typical Ellie. Her eyes are flicking around all over the place. Maybe she's looking for someone? Or maybe she's just lost in thought.

"Is it just me or when I read books with British characters, I thinking in a British accent when they speak." I say, trying to lighten the mood.

But to my disappointment, she doesn't say anything at just nods.

Ah damn.

After a few minutes of watching her read, she turns around to look at me. I stare at her, waiting for her to say something but that's when Noah, my best friend calls from across the room.

"Hey man! Hey Ellie." He waves as he strides over.

Way to ruin our moment.

Ellie smiles, waving back at him.

"Mind if I sit with y'all? I got nothing to do." Noah's says glancing between us.

"No, at all!" Ellie says, pulling out a chair beside her.

Damn it..

I watch as he leans in messing with her hair. Who the hell does this guy think he is? Who gave him permission to touch her?

"Watcha reading?" He says, letting go of her hair and picking up her book.

"Pride and Prejudice." She responds turning to look at him, completely ignoring my existence.

"Romance, eh? Your taste in books are adorable."

Noah has always been like this, he loves getting all up close and personal with everyone, but it feels different now. I don't know why. I can't breathe when he gets close to her like this. It feels like someone's twisting a newly shaved knife through my heart.

"You're adorable." He says leaning in and whispering in her ear.

No fucking way.

For the next few minutes I watch them to back and forth, watching Noah get flirtier and flirtier. I tried my best to push through it and smile but it's unbearable.. How come Noah is so comfortable with her, how come she's okay with it? I don't get it..

Ellie's perspective 🐰

Is Aaron upset? He's been so quiet since Noah showed up, sure, he's smiling but I can tell he is not happy at all. Not even a close. Did I do something?

Wait... could it be because of.. Noah?

Aaron's perspective 🤍

Noah's still flirting with her.. still touching her arm. But she probably doesn't care.. right? She's gorgeous. Way out of Noah league. So, why would she?

I don't even know what I expect from her, though. She barely tolerates me. And there's no way she would ever like me back, she's just always so annoyed at me. And, it hurts sometimes. But damn it, I still want to be around her. I hate every second without her. I don't know why. What's wrong with me?

Just as I was about to say something, I stop. I really want to stop Noah, tell him to fuck off. Grab Ellie's hand and run off. But I can't. Do I really have the right to? I'm not her boyfriend. Not her family. I don't even know if I count as her friend. So, do I really have the right to stop Noah..?

Ellie's perspective 🐰

Noah is still talking to me. Getting closer and closer. But my attention is still locked onto Aaron, I can't help but notice how he's constantly opening his mouth, on the verge of saying something. Then stopping for a second and continuing to watch us chat.

Finally, after making it through an entire lesson of Noah's constant flirty comments and Aaron's never ending glares the bell rings.

I tried avoiding Aaron's eye, but of course, it was no use. I don't even know why I was avoiding eye contact. I don't know why I feel so... guilty? It's not like we're dating, so why do I feel guilty? and why did he look so upset? Is he mad that Noah was talking to me instead of him? is he gay/ lmfao jk (edit this out) I'm so confused...

Aaron's perspective 🤍

I catch Ellie's eye as she packs up, as if she wants to say something but she's afraid to, just like how I've been wanting but hesitating to talk the entire lesson. Her eyes are filled with something I can't quite read. I mean, I've never always been able to fully read her eyes just like I can with everyone else but this time it's even harder to read. Usually her eyes are filled with annoyance, with a hint of something else I can't figure out. But right now, the only thing I can pick up is... sadness? I don't know..

We both walk back to our homeroom silence, even I was too confused to say anything. Did she notice that I was jealous? Maybe this is stupid. Maybe I'm just overthinking it. But I can't shake this feeling, this feeling that something's gonna happen. Or something is happening. I don't know where this is going... but I don't think I can walk away.