" From the momen I saw her
I knew
This one was worth the
Broken heart. "

                    - Atticus

I stormed inside the house, side stepping a happy Groot - Zach's new pup - as I headed to the living room where I could hear his voice.

I balled up my fist to stop it from trembling and swallowed the lump in my throat. No, I'll not fucking cry. Not now.

And there he was, watching a match on the TV with Chase and the twins as if nothing has happened. As if he had just not ruined my life. Ruined me.

One second I was standing there, the next second I found myself on top of Grey, my fist swinging back to land a punch on his face.

I fisted his collars, "Why?What the fuck did you do?!" I yelled. The guys yelled in the background and I felt arms trying to drag me away from the squirming fucker in front of me.

"Azrael! What the fuck are you doing?" Alec panted as he dragged me back by my arms.

"What the fuck did I do? Ask him." I seethed, not even feeling slightly guilty as Grey clutched his bloody nose.

"What the fuck, Lewis?" He grunted. I threw the damned phone towards him, "Why don't you see for yourself, asshole." I spat. He glared at me, confused but his eyes widened as he saw the phone.

His phone.

"W-where did you find this?" He swallowed.

"Oh, I didn't fucking find it. Willow did." I said quietly.

Don't fucking cry.

Don't.

It's alright.

She'll understand. I'll make her understand.

He had the decency to look guilty, "I'm so sorry man. Christ, I never knew this would happen. Fuck, I'm sorry." He rasped.

"Why? Why did you do this? Was it to hurt me?" I mumbled as I slumped onto the floor, my head in my hands.

Please.

I want this to stop.

"No. Ofcourse not, man. I would never do that to you, you're my brother."

"What the fuck is going on?" Chase snapped.

"He texted a girl, pretending to be me. Willow found it, she thinks I cheated on her." I choked out.

Willow. Did she not trust me enough? To know that I would never cheat on her?

Was I that bad of a boyfriend?

"The fuck is wrong with you, Grey?! Explain. Right now." Alex shoved him.

"I'm so sorry. Alicia, s-she's my neighbour and my friend. A friend I've been in love with for eight fucking years. L-last summer when we all went home, you guys remember hanging out at my place?" He laughed bitterly, "She saw Az. A-and she asked me for his number. What the fuck was I supposed to do, man? The girl I love asked me for my best friend's number. It hurt to fucking much. So I took a new number and gave her that. I texted her pretending to be Azrael," He took a deep breath.

"I never thought it'd end up hurting you and Willow, Az. I'll go speak to her. I promise. I'll make it right."

"Do you think she'll believe you? You're my best friend, she knows you'd do anything for me." I said quietly, blinking my eyes to keep the tears at bay.

Don't. Fucking. Cry.

"I'm so sorry, Az."

I nodded wordlessly and dragged myself up, clutching the wall for support. It's all over.

Please. Please let this all be a nightmare.

Was she atleast alright?

Ignoring the calls and sympathetic gazes, I stumbled into my room and slammed it. My hand unknowingly went up to fiddle with the chain she had given me a couple of weeks ago. It had become a habit of mine. I only wished the person who had given it to me was here.

........

"Az! You big oaf, I need to go pee!" She grumbled, trying to unwrap my arms from around her waist. I tightened them and snuggled more into the crook of her neck, pretending to be asleep.

"I know you're awake mister." She grumbled.

My Raps was such a sunshine, especially in the mornings.

"I'll make out with you for ten minutes if you leave me." She bargained.

"Twenty."

"Nope."

"No deal then."

"Fine." She spat dryly.

I unwrapped her arms from around her and watched in amusement as she ran towards the washroom. Sighing, I hugged her pillow to my chest and inhaled her scent. Like a creep.

Atleast I'm fucking aware. 

The next time I woke up, Raps was hovering over me, her hands trying to clasp something around my throat. I smiled at her sleepily.

"Are you trying to kill me, love?" I smiled.

"Mhm." She nodded enthusiastically.

"Wow, really feelin' the love Raps." I said as I tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.

"And done." She grinned sweetly at me, her caramel eyes lit up in excitement. I blinked my eyes groggily.

I frowned and brought my hand up to feel a chain around my neck, "Raps, baby, what is this?" I asked her confused.

"I bought you a gift!" She exclaimed,"I did some extra hours at the cafe."

I looked down at the chain and my eyes widened. Fuck, this thing was expensive. I looked at her and opened my mouth but she quickly placed a finger in my lips, silencing me.

"Shut up and take it before I ugly cry," she warned me.

"Baby, this is too expensive. How the fuck are you going to manage this month?" I asked her, "Wait a damn minute, I can-"

"No, I'm not taking money from you,Angel." She shook her head firmly and took my hand in hers, "You like it?" She mumbled nervously as she fiddled with my chain.

"Like it?" I laughed, "I love it baby, thank you so much."

Her beautiful face lit up like a Christmas tree. God, I fucking love this girl.

Even if she gave me a damn hair band I'd treasure it.

"I love you." She whispered and pressed her soft lips against mine.

"And I love you more, Raps." I murmured. 

..........

"Wake the fuck up, Azrael." Someone yelled and I could feel someone harshly shaking me.

I groaned.

Why the fuck does it feel like I'm going to die?

"Azrael Vaughan fucking Lewis." The same voice said, his tone low and dangerous.

I blinked my eyes open to see Zach kneeling next to me on the floor.

"Did I pass out? What the fuck happened?" I asked groggily.

His eyes hardened.

"I met Melantha at this cafe and imagine my surprise when she gets a call. From Willow," he paused and I immediately sat up straight.

"She was crying, and wanted Mel to pick her up and do you know where we fucking found her? She was passed out on a fucking bench, shivering her ass off. Some boyfriend you are." He scoffed.

I fisted his shirt, "I-Is she okay? What happened? Is she a-alright? W-"

"She's fine. Caught a fever, I prescribed her some medicines. She's sleeping right now, Mel is looking after her. You're lucky I  managed to convince Mel not to barge in and gut your intestines out."

I sighed and leaned my head against the wall, my heart aching to atleast have a glance. Just to know she's fine.

I stood up hurriedly only for my knees to buckle, Zach grabbed my arms and pointedly glared at me. His eyes softened as he took in my red, bloodshot eyes.

"What happened, Az?" He asked gently as he guided me to the couch.

I couldn't stop the tears as I filled him in and this time I didn't control it because it was Zach. My bestfriend who had seen me cry numerous times watching Titanic. And joined me.

After I finished, he gently wrapped his arm around me as I broke down.

"It's fine Az, we'll figure something out. Willow loves you too damn much to leave your sorry ass." He muttered.

"I'm scared, Zach. What if she never believes me?" I whispered.

He tsked, "Az, my man, you know why us guys have dignity? To throw it away for our women. Don't worry, Zach Zephyr Knight is going to come up with an amazing plan to woo your girl again." He smirked.

"Zach Zephyr Knight who is still a virgin." I muttered under my breath.

He slapped the back of my head and I winced in pain.

"How is she Zach? Please tell me? Is she really alright?" I asked him, feeling my heart in my throat once again. 

"I told you, Az. She's fine. Y'know Mel is watching over her." He said gently.

My stupid, bitch of a heart couldn't help but think about the fact that Will couldn't even trust me enough to know that I'd never cheat on her, I'd rather be dead.

I squeezed my eyes shut as the image of Willow crying with that hurt look on her face flashed through my mind.

"Az, you know how hard it is to find the kind of love you and Willow has? Everyone wants that kinda love, including me. Tell me Az, wouldn't you be hurt if you see Willow and a guy sexting? Even though you trust her, wouldn't you even for a second be hurt?" He asked.

I slowly nodded my head.

"It's not that Will didn't trust you, it's the fact that her emotions controlled her more. She was just hurt, it doesn't mean she doesn't love you anymore. You'll just have to chase her again, yeah?" He murmured.

Yeah, that's it.

I'll just have to chase her down again.

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Hey guys !!

Hope you like this chapter. Any thoughts?

I feel bad for Azzie tbh.

XxAelinAsh