Dear Grace,
           I am done with lying, which is why I can't say that I am sorry that I am going to end it. But I am sorry that this will cause you pain, you have to believe me when I say that the last thing I ever wanted to do was hurt you. God, now I sound like I'm breaking up with you. Grace there were so many things wrong with me. I lied to cover up all the scars but it has become too much now. Everything I tried to bury in the past is back, and it's getting harder to breathe. There's a voice in the back of my head that keeps telling me I'm not good enough for you, for James, or for him. He's another lie. Well, not so much a lie more of a hidden truth if you will. Secrets and lies tore my world down, and that's why it's time to set myself free with the truth.

I guess I'll start from the beginning. My parents aren't happy with their marriage. My father is cheating on my mother and it is slowly destroying her. I haven't told James and quite frankly I don't think I have the guts to do it. I've always seen the flaws in our family. The late night drives and phone calls that have never added up. These things created cracks and pretty soon our family is going to shatter to pieces. I guess in a way I'm going to jump ship pretty soon. Haha. Eh, I guess I have a sick sense of humor, oh well. James thinks our family is completely fine all perfect and whole. I see the truth and he sees the lies. That leads us to a particular Friday evening at dad's office. I was bringing him a surprise dinner that mom cooked for me to take to him since he was working late. James was at his football game and I was going to head over to the stadium after I dropped the food off. When I got there he was "working" all right, working on his secretary. It's always the secretary isn't it? Anyways I was furious and hurt. I had suspected that he was cheating but to see and know the truth was something else entirely. I threw the food at both of them and then ran out of his office. Once I made it inside I let the tears flow. That's when I saw dad come out the building, no doubt looking for me. So I drove off towards James's football game. I had planned on telling him I really did but they won the game and he was happy. I couldn't tarnish that, so I stayed quiet. That's enough honesty for now I'll continue tomorrow. Bye loser!        
                                  
                                 Love,
                                        Madeleine