Flashback

_ I'll head back now. Jinu-ie hyung hasn't eaten anything yet.

_ You're going to buy him some Tonkatsu ?

_ Yeah, with Ramen as well. He loves noodles.

The others three was sitting at the restaurant waiting for their food to come when Min Ho suddenly stood up and decided to head back to their hotel. Earlier it was Jin Woo who went back first because of his sleepiness.

Tae Hyun just sat there and observed the situation. Again, he felt nothing wrong since well, he would do the same thing to Jin Woo. But he had obviously missed how tense and nervous Min Ho was and his urgent action.

_ Oh? Mino yah? You're already done eating ?

_ No, I bought you something. You haven't eaten anything.

_ Eh? But I'm not hungry.

Jin Woo confusedly looked at the other guy while sitting on his bed. Min Ho pulled the chair closer to the bed's edge, put all of the foods he bought on it.

_ I have Tonkatsu, Miso Ramen and, I know because of your picky palate, I bought Shin Ramen too.

Min Ho smiled proudly when he took out the instant cup noodles that he bought on his way back. It just made Jin Woo smiled from ear to ear.

_ Then I'll have Shin Ra-

But his words was cut by Min Ho quicker action. Min Ho knew Jin Woo was going to eat the instant ramen so he took the cup back immediately

_ Sadly, I haven't eaten so.. half of everything ?

That wasn't even a question.

And Jin Woo just let out a cheeky sigh.

_ Hyung, you know that I like you right ? We all adore you so much.

_..

_ WINNER was made, and you are a part of it. That will never change. So please never look down on yourself. You seriously don't realise how much I need and rely on you ?

Min Ho slowly reached for Jin Woo's hands and brought them close to him. Holding tightly.

_ Our hyung is a hard-working person. You have worked so hard and all of that efforts are now paid. There was no luck or blessing, you made that happen, you are a WINNER. You should proud of yourself !

His voice's starting to break.

_ I'm here with you, I'm always here. I'll forever be by your side and it hurts me so much to see you sad or down..

It's true. Min Ho's scared, scared of those beautiful eyes would break into tears, scared of how heart-breaking those deep eyes look when it's filled with tears. Min Ho scares when Jin Woo cries. It's a fact.
He can't stand finding a hint of sadness in Jin Woo's eyes. The eyes that always speaks for himself, a clear mirror can reflect every of its soul.

Min Ho had started his crappy life with his old company's betrayal. His new journey had started with depression, rage and insecurity. He kept doubting his decision to join in YGE but later on, he naturally thanked for it. Other from he got to be a WINNER's member, He met Jin Woo, Kim Jin Woo. At that time, there was a phrase that he used to describe Jin Woo, a ray of sunshine. Jin Woo welcomed Min Ho with a warmest hand, filled his emptiness with care and happiness, he was and still is the only candle that can embrace Min Ho and his loneliness. More than that, Min Ho was amazed by his passion and hard-working when he always tried his best on everything. That's what Min Ho learnt from him.

What more to say is that Jin Woo inspires Min Ho to be a better person, an even greater one.

_ I really love your smile. I think it's beautiful, so wouldn't it be great if you smile ?

Min Ho gave out a silly smile looking into Jin Woo's dewed eyes. He just couldn't help it but pulled him into a tight hug.

_ I really wish that you would never have to cry again.

_ It's you who made me cry !!!

This time, Min Ho didn't just pat on the back or shoulder, one hand slowly caressed his hair the other gently placed on his back, patiently let the older soak his brand new sweeter. Who can believe that the oldest is a crybaby. Well, beacause he is the most sensitive and has the most thoughts. He's sympathetic.

_ This is happy tears !!

Jin Woo loudly shouted with his stuffy voice, he still hasn't let the younger see his red face.

_ Happy or sad, I'm still hurt seeing your tears.

_ But I can't help it..

_.. Then, I will forever be your pillow to cry !!

Min Ho just laughed out loud, which made Jin Woo also laugh too. They happily giggled while huging each other. And with those laugh sounds, they completely missed the sound of the door slowly shut.

Tae Hyun didn't know how to feel. Oh, so.. Min Ho was different from the rest. Seung Yoon, Seung Hoon and himself, they all adored Jin Woo, but to Min Ho, Jin Woo was more..He is Min Ho's special one.

Tae Hyun just kinda wished that he would misunderstand something .. like mishearing? He wished.

But then, it was him who had been misunderstanding this whole time. He himself created his own awkwardness.

Tae Hyun went back to his room and flopped the bed. Thoughts was running wild.

_ At this point.. should I hate him..?

Of course he couldn't, he never could. Jin Woo was like his family. Same as Min Ho, Jin Woo warmed him with his heart and soul. Rather than skills, what Jin Woo taught him was emotions, consideration, sincere, humility,.. he could list forever. Tae Hyun wouldn't be who he is right now without Jin Woo. So all he supposed to do was getting mad about all of his fantasy.

_ It's crazily embarrassed !!! GOSH !!!!

Luckily he didn't say anything about that..
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_ We're just continuing our journey, but in an different path. Sorry for making you worry.

Tae Hyun awkwardly smiles. He doesn't dare to look into Jin Woo's eyes, you all know why.

_ I won't leave right away. Things will be settled first then..

Still, Jin Woo hasn't said a word.

_ For those years I just wanna-

_ Don't say goodbye.

Jin Woo cuts Tae Hyun.

_ Don't say your "last word". Are you going to cut off contact with us? This will be the last time you see us? You will never see me again??

For a person who always smiles and be cheerful, his lovely hyung's serious face is deadly scary.. No exaggeration at all, Tae Hyun's honestly scared when his gruff stare and his deep voice appear. He's drenched.

_ Arg.. That's not what I mean !!!

Tae Hyun finally gives up then flops himself on the bed. They both are so similar .. keep tiring him..

_ You're my brother, and all I hope for is that you will make the right decision, choose what best for you.. I really do. It's just.. after all those years, it wasn't easy. 

_ And it would be harder if I stayed. 

_ .. If we went this way, would you feel happier? 

Tae Hyun's eyes slightly trembles 

Freedom is there, but happier..?

He wasn't sure about that. He now only chooses the better solution. It still breaks his heart thinking about leaving his second home, separating from his lovely brothers. 

_ Let's keep in touch. 

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_ You've talked to Tae Hyun ?

_ Ah, yes. We've just talked a bit.

_.. You ok ?

Min Ho suddenly asks while looking at Jin Woo's pinkish eyes. He gives the glass of water that he has just drunk to the other.

_ .. I'm not, he's not.. We are all not..

Jin Woo calmly answers, his fingers can't help but slowly stroking the glass.

_ We'll be alright. We always will. Don't worry too much.

_.. How can I not worry.

A silent is covering them. Until now, Min Ho still hasn't gotten his eyes off Jin Woo.

_ Do you hate him? Having things end up this way?

_ Tae Hyunie keeps telling me that I should hate him.. That's hard..

Jin Woo lets out another sigh.

_ I'm just.. maybe because I didn't give him a full attention. If I acknowledge the stress that he's been taken, will we find a better solution? If I can share a bit of his responsibility, he will not think about leaving.. If I could be a hyung who doing well, things wouldn't be like this..

Jin Woo's completely broken right now. What Min Ho's scared has happened.

A Kim Jin Woo who takes everything as his fault.

A Kim Jin Woo who always looks down on himself.

A Kim Jin Woo that is too good for this world.

_ But this useless big brother couldn't do any of it..

Min Ho keeps frowning till he can't take it anymore. He quickly pulls Jin Woo into a tight hug. Min Ho just wishes it would be tight enough to lock Jin Woo's stupid thoughts for good.

_ Whatever happened, whatever the heck he was thinking, there will never be your fault !! You did your best, that's what matter !

Jin Woo was surprised by the sudden hug.

_ ..Mino yah..

_ My heart is gonna explode and I would just die !! You really want that !? Should I just lay down here ???

_.. Why would you die ??

Jin Woo's eyes open big then stare straight into Min Ho's.

_.. Because of Tae Hyun..?

It's Jin Woo's turn to misunderstand. The typical 'Kim Jin Woo" who never gets the main ideal of a simple conversation. For some reasons, he feels that Min Ho does like the youngest. But Jin Woo can't tell what kind of "like" ?

_ Are you sad? Mad? Disappointed? You like him after all.

Jin Woo keeps on his questions. And the eyes haven't budged for a second.

_W..wha?? I do like him but you ar.. Argg ! That's not the point !!

Min Ho just lets out his frustration. Whao, what does he expect..

_ .. Huh ?

Jin Woo's eyes haven't loose its wideness.

.. " Well at least his tears had stopped.. " was Min Ho's last conviction to drop this misleading conversation.

_ We can't do anything about this anymore so don't think too much.

Min Ho firmly says. His sudden mature tone causes Jin Woo flinches a bit then quickly listens to the younger.

Jin Woo turns his back disappointedly heading to his room. Then

_ I would never leave.

Jin Woo looks surprisedly at Min Ho's sincere face that he again shows his honesty.

_ You are here so why would I leave. That stupid thought had never dared to run in my head.

.. Is that the answer Jin Woo was looking for ? Which can end all of his worries ?

Maybe. 

END.